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Gotta choose between Goenka and Yuttadhammo Bhikku. The other meditation tec that I practiced for a substantial amount of time is with labeling the things happening in the present moment: abdomen is rising; say in the mind 'rising', abdomen is falling; say in the mind 'falling'. When walking saying in the mind 'stepping right', 'stepping left'. And observing the states of mind: When anger arises saying in the mind 'angry, angry', when being happy saying in the mind 'happy, happy'. Vipassana by Goenka consists of 3 practices (Anapana, Vipassana and Metta) Vipassana is feeling the sensations on the body from the top of the head to the tip of the toes while staying equanimous, Anapana is observing the breath in the broad triangular area at the tip of the nose. Metta being the blissful practice of loving kindness 'may all beings be free, may all beings be happy'.

@Chi_Yeah you might be right about the enlightenment thing. There were a lot of factors at that time. The things that you recommend look quite promising, I might look into some of it. I actually met a former student of Osho a few years back. His name is Soham (Samarpan) and he gives similar talks as Osho did. He mostly does Satsangs. I stopped meditating for quite a long time since my last stay at the psychiatric hospitals. Getting back into it right now. I figured I'd do Vipassana by Goenka. It's said that this technique would induce depersonalization states quite often though. But there is an old Chinese saying: 'Danger or opportunity?' My main issue right now is the constant engaging in the media; mostly YouTube.

@bejapuskas What did you do?

@Mu_ Yes I admitted it. It's still in the checking. They sent me a letter in which they requested me to come to a court psychologist in order to get the trueness of what I said confirmed. I didn't go there yet. I'm a little bit reluctant about it because of the stigma and everything that has to do with my psychiatric diagnoses. I got diagnosed not very long after I made the statement. Hell, those diagnoses are even written in the police computers. The guy would get 25€ compensation per day of his 7 year sentence. That amounts to 63.865€. I wonder if they put me into the psychiatric hospitals because of the money.

I had a dream experience about levitation after I watched a video about some Buddhist story where the buddha would levitate. At first I was sceptical about the story because it seemed like some naive belief but then, after having experienced the levitation dream it feels different. This experience probably has no significance and I'm just over estimating it. It's a danger of not having a living guru to guide one on the path.

I find that very true. As for the deleting of the social media accounts, I also deleted my long held Facebook account a while ago and later regretted it. All the old pictures and friends gone. Now I'm back to social media. Who knows when the next time comes and I delete it again. Same thing goes for phones and computers. I have the tendency to just destroy them to conquer addiction to it sometimes. Mixed feelings.

Giving them food is cool. You might also just give people money who don't look like drug addicts. Maybe I'm an exception but I had been living on the street myself without doing drugs and people would bring me food all day. I couldn't take most of it because of my strict vegan diet. And some people were buying me junkfood. So I mostly appreciated money instead of food. I remember that one young lady came to me one day and brought me a large bowl of salad. Oh, I will never forget how happy that made me. Conclusion: If you are going to get a homeless person food then go for the healthy and vitalizing options like salat, fruit, vegetables etc.. Sure some omnivores might also appreciate a sausage here and there but in general you need to eat healthy to have the strength for going about the next day.

This.

I'm trying to think of something that I would have appreciated in my time at school. I think there is just no right or wrong way. Look, every teacher is different and each and every one of them has his / her own merits. It's probably best to have a lot of diverse teaching styles.

One thing about teaching. I recently got hired by a father to teach his kid skateboarding. Maybe he just wants to learn but I gave him very strict and precise instructions and I got very good feedback by doing that. The kid wants to spend more time with me now. So leaning back and letting them ask the questions... I don't know about that.

That seems like a very harsh and mind shattering statement

A question that frequently crosses my mind is how to escape the various forms of institutionalization. Insight: Being institutionalized might seem more convenient at first but then it's really the opposite.

Hi, I don't know whether to put this into this forum or the one for serious emotional problems. I've been stimulating my anus for a long time, like since a young age. It also happens that when I stimulate it and shit comes out, I eat it sometimes. I kind of like (eating) the white/transparent/limpid glibber that comes out of it. I don't know why I eat shit but probably for comfortability reasons, like I don't have to go to the bathroom all the time. I also stimulate myself with the aid of toilet paper. When I'm on the toilet it just gives me that extra pleasure, plus it's easier to shit that way because the shit that would be stuck in the intestines comes out easier. Now, this comes with some complications: 1. I feel like I smell like shit pretty often. This makes it difficult to be around other people comfortably in those situations. And I feel like it might scare away the opposite sex. 2. There is kind of a dependency of always having the next anal pleasure. Plus, it's kind of uncomfortable sometimes. Sometimes I feel the need to go to toilets way more often when I'm out of the house. 3. The shit/glibber might be unhealthy to eat What do you guys think about this? Have you encountered similar stuff as well? Is this behavior pathological? After all, should I just try to quit doing it? Or go to a therapist?

Woah, scary stuff out here

Hi, I have recently had the experience/feeling (while reading a book by Stanislav Grof) that spirituality might just be some kind of societal brainwashing. While the essence of it is pure and divine, the context in which it is put leads to pure destruction. I feel like there is a form of unconscious manipulation. The media and a broad spectrum of dualities. Okay to get cynical about occasionally. Just watched a documentary about psychiatry. It's scary what happens at those places. Sometimes you are just at a kind of stage when you get cynical and then it goes to that extreme of despair. In some way this is a very pure state. It makes you realize things. It's one state of consciousness as well as there are many other. There is the one of pure bliss, there is the one of dream and the one of half consciousness. Half consciousness being meta activities like anything you are not proud about. The merge of hills of longing and pushing towards edges. Pure trash of mind. Cleansing.

In some foods which are coloured red artificially the red colour actually comes from an extract of an insect called cochineal. To get only a little bit of the colour, thousands of those animals are crushed.

@DrewNows Freedom of speech

@Moreira @hamedsf I think when actually experiencing it I would really dislike it. I think the pain is not what I'm into.

@tsuki I used to go out on pickup missions, talking to many girls trying to get laid. Had no success. Then I lived kind of a monk live for a while where I wouldn't talk to women at all. I crave to have a sexual relationship with a woman but I was always kind of the outsider because I was also moving around a lot. I find it easier to talk and open myself up to men and so I do most of the times. Getting deep is hard because I don't usually do long term stuff. I think there is a primal level of the opposite sexes like the man is there to put the semen into the woman. I'm not sure about the necesity of reproducing. A person I really respect said that creating kids is not an option for him because the kids will suffer. I kind of agree but on the other side I might want to have kids. Fun fact: although I used to be really against it, now I consider castration. It's said that it can increase one's lifespan by 10-20 years. I'm not really suicidal although I think about it sometimes and I'm also pretty severely depressed. Like maybe a little bit suicidal but I really think life is worth living.

Oil contains twice as many calories as sugar.

In my current opinion it´s best to just find a balance. Fuck buddies are healthier than fapping. There are like 500 million sperm cells in one load of cum. It has to be so valueable. I´ve done 130+ day streaks of NoFap and went back to pmo and fapping again. A spiritual teacher I respect said that you can ejaculate without having a phantasy (I find that true but it´s hard to do consistently imo). Then he said that it might be healthy to masturbate once a month. Right now I masturbate every day and I read in one of Stanislav Grof´s books that one might potentially get oneself into trouble by needlessly holding back the sexual drive to get back to spiritual heights (context: crisis and spiritual emergence) .I´m trying to get rid of porn and to masturbate less. A (sex-)partner would be cool. It´s kind of hard for me to get one though. When I used to do a lot of nofap and meditation I tried to live a very monkly live too. I don´t know how healthy that is. I refused to have sex with women, limited my sexual thoughts and also didn´t want to look at sexual parts of women.

In my opinion almost no threads should be locked

@Conrad Dried or wet?

@Leo Gura, Ah, I heard you mention that you want to rather focus on research instead of coaching. And yeah but once you got diagnosed with a mental illness it will never go away. The diagnosis will always be in the system because there is barely such a thing as an anti diagnosis.

@Leo Gura, what is your motivation behind posting stuff on YouTube? Have you thought about alternative video platforms? Also, I have a question about your coaching: why did you write that you would not coach people with so called mental disorders?