ryuzaki

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  1. i am following this guy for about a year now and I enjoy listening to him now and then
  2. Here is my first release on Spotify. Its a Lofi EP called „Under Water“ with 5 Tracks. https://sptfy.com/OFH5 Would be happy if someone gave it a listen!
  3. I have a psychosis background and Risperidone is working great for me. It could help you with your crazy thoughts and other symptoms. I have no side effects too.
  4. Hello, I am a pianist, but I can't practice properly because of a tension in my right forarm (extensor muscles). When I play with that tension, after a while it begins to hurt. And the strange thing is, when I try to relax it while playing, I have to moan and cry. It's like pushing a button. The more I relax, the more I have to cry. It can get really loud. Also my body moves around. So I can't play like that. The best thing I can do, is to warm up before playing, and then when playing try to relax it to the point I don't have to cry yet. But then there is still some tension. I don't feel free. I believe I could play much better if I was able to relax properly. Even now when I'm not playing, I feel tension in the arm and when I relax it I get sad and have to cry. When bending my fingers to play the keys it gets amplified. Has anyone experienced something similair? Also last summer it was worse and I think it was because I was manic. I tried to "let it all out" and cried a lot, but it seemed endless. I went to a physio therapist. That helped, but it's not enough. So I'm not manic now and it doesn't hurt as bad but it is definitely a problem for me because it keeps me from practising.
  5. This summer I had my 5th psychotic /manic phase. And right now I have my 5th depression phase. I feel you.
  6. Leo mentioned evolution in his infinite intelligence video 2 years or so ago. He also said he might dedicate a video to the topic. I'm waiting for it since then ??
  7. from https://blog.ted.com/graham-hancock-and-rupert-sheldrake-a-fresh-take/
  8. isnt it hard to imagine that a biological creature could delevope this awareness we have now? if I allow for an awarness to just exist.. i find that easier to imagine...
  9. if you want to do nothing, try to do nothing, but without distractions if you manage to cut out distractions, real stuff will come
  10. I think if you shut down this sub forum, people will still want to talk about this stuff so it will just appear in the other sub forums. it might be better to have it separate so people can decide to indulge in or stay away from it. Furthermore I think it's ok to "waste" time.
  11. Check out this amazing fan made ad
  12. a friend likes sams app and he said he got it for free when he asked for it
  13. The politcal party "Die Partei" started out as a comedy-party, but became a good example for conscious politicics, i think. Nico Semsrott made this creative suggestion to save a lot of resources in the parliament. Here is what he is saying: There is also a Petition, so maybe some of you want to support this: https://petiport.secure.europarl.europa.eu/petitions/en/petition/content/1156%2F2019/html/Petition-No-1156%2F2019-by-Nico-Semsrott-(German)-on-renaming-the-European-Parliament-Plenary-Room-in-Brussels-and-establishing-the-European-Parliament’s-single-seat-in-Brussels
  14. isnt the question "can AI become self-aware"? i mean, in a way, AI are conscious
  15. My Dog is God, too. He just got it backwards.
  16. honestly I dont know how i'd felt if I was said that. from a 3rd person perspektiv I can accept it as a teaching style that just doesnt want to treat you with kid gloves. in japanese tea ceremony there is an indirect style of critisism, which flies under the egos radar, which helped me a lot because direct critisism my ego would have defended
  17. Hi everyone. Over the last year I got more serious about becoming a composer and lately I’m on the track with the work, meaning I’m getting up early for meditation and then use my time well to practice the piano and compose a lot. But it’s not so easy and I’m still worried if I can make it. So, I thought it would be a good time to start a journal to keep on track and get motivation for the long run, even when I might get depressed. There is a lot I could tell about my story, but I’ll keep it simple for the time being, maybe adding bits of information here and there while the journal progresses. Right now, I have to finish the booklet design for my album which I already recorded. It’s all solo piano with my own compositions. I make jazz and modern classic. When I have the CD done, I’ll try to get chances to perform in front of an audience. Updates will be written randomly, probably at night, accompanied by some lofi chillhop and some beer.
  18. Ahaa that is interesting. If I do this, Now I get a stronger sense of I. Because this deepening process is something that accompanies me for a long time and there is a feeling of constance/continuity. And because it's important to me it feels personal and not as something that's just in the surface. This inner feeling I still cannot possibly pinpoint though.