Hello, I recently listened to one of Leo's videos. Can't remember the exact one as I've been listening to as many as I can. He discussed being with someone of equal value. I believed that this was the case when I married my husband. However, lately I've been feeling that he may think I am of less value than him and maybe looking for something better.
Over the past year and a half, I have been through some tough times at work. Mainly bullying. I took a lot of my frustration and anger out on him. A few other issues happened, his flirting. We are completely opposite. He's an extrovert and I'm an introvert and many women are attracted to that in him. What he's viewed as innocent, I've taken it personally.
I've always had the feeling that "people don't like me". Ever since I was a teenager. I fought my way through it but since the bullying happened, it's shot my confidence and self esteem down the toilet. I fear that he will leave me like some of my friends have done in the past. I feel like I am trying my hardest to fix myself and not let his actions hurt me but it's really hard to. I don't want to be jealous but sometimes I feel like it's justified by his actions. It makes me so angry and I am not one to hide this so he is well aware of it and the fighting cycle begins again.
We are in counseling. I feel like I cannot get upset about anything now as I am perceived to be the wrong one. How do I just not care anymore????
