Surfingthewave

@Nahm Thank you ? you hit the nail on the head, especially the thinking of letting go as resistance. Breaking this down into steps is gold. Sometimes it's tough to see what's in front of you. I look forward to your book.

@saffron Thank you for finally being honest with yourself here and thank you to others for helping. Perhaps consider seeking additional professional help with your emotional suffering and/or streamlining your practices. The universe/consciousness /god/reality wants you, but are you ready to be wanted? We often reject what we really seek/need. Good luck and sending love.

@PenguinPablo Sounds like you might need a solo retreat. Disconnect and ground yourself. Get back to the source of what you truly are. If you don't know what that is, then there's the answer.

@Nahmfabulous thank you, I love hearing your journey, very inspiring. Once the dream board is done, I'm having trouble with the trust, part. The surrender, the next step. Like a trapeze artist I know its time to let go. I've had enough of the circus of life, the illusion. Any tips?

@Shaun I think at times you could be taking Leo's words too literally. Why don't you compare and contrast with other teachers/people/gurus pursuing the path and formulate your own experiences. A good way to compare and contrast is to let go of your concepts, language and perceptions and start experiencing, directly and continually. As @Nahm states if you meditate twice a day you won't need to ask these questions. You'll have an experience of knowing.

@EvilAngel I'm sorry that you suffered from ridicule in your childhood. What are you doing to work on your self esteem? Have you read around this topic? Do you struggle with self belief, anxiety and confidence issues? If so meditation, visualisations and positive affirmations could work for you here. Changing your thought stories in situations can really help. For me I put myself into situations where I knew people were looking at me and became aware of all the thoughts, feelings and sensations it brought up. After time it really helped. What do you with something you fear? You walk directly into the fear.

How do we escape into life? Just been working on mindfulness meditation practices. This is from Shinzen Youngs work. What is "real"? When we say that's really bugging me, what do we mean, really? Do we mean, that's intense for me, so much so, that I can't seem to let go. When we escape into life, we become aware of the thought, feeling or sensation so much so we become the thought, feeling or sensation. So this thought, feeling or sensation becomes "real". But when it becomes real, it actually drops away. It becomes.... nothing. So we become real and nothing at the same time. When we escape, we are getting away from. If we are escaping into life what are we doing? Being real, and being nothing. Just wanted to put it out there.

@Raptorsin7 I would just start with just 1 for now. Becoming aware of negative emotion. Explore this in depth. You mention deep down, you need to explore this "deep down" before you do anything else. Try different meditation techniques on this alone, look them up. It's not about just being aware. What does it feel like, what's the sensation like? Is there body sensations, audio, pain, self talk, resistance?

@khalifa Did you have severe anxiety before you start taking psychedelics / doing self help work?

@onacloudynight Why would you want to transcend your sex drive? You also talk about meeting beautiful women to have sex with them. Perhaps think about why you want to have sex. If it's just sex, masturbate, and get on with your spiritual work. If it's to meet a woman and have a meaningful loving relationship then that's entirely different.

@traveler Glad you don't care. Wow, I think I just heard that gateless gate opening. Good night to you. @Bill W Haha, indeed. A strangeloop springs to mind. Or one of those crop circles that doesn't exist.

@traveler What if you weren't transcending your person as you so describe, you were just realising what you truly are? You just put on another pair of glasses and saw the real deal. Or, you saw the screen instead of the content. The sky instead of the clouds. We can get stuck in thought stories about the fear awakening can bring. What is fear? Do you fear the nose on your face? Do you fear what is? I'm asking you, but I'm actually asking myself. ?

@Danioover9000 absolutely. I also think there's a bit of worshipping going on, particularly from very young followers. They see the subscriber list, number of followers etc and perhaps get the sense that what Leo is saying is nothing but the truth (even though he is saying the opposite).

Leo's message is clear, but what is he not saying? There is more to this path than we realise so we shouldn't blindly follow his vids, we should refer to a wide range of sources and more importantly rely on our own practice. I do get concerned about followers on here are leaping ahead, running before they can walk and facing the impact of this on their own path. Part of the path is having faith, no matter what, you are on the right track.

@Shaun @Shaun What exactly are you seeking? Be really honest with yourself. I get a real sense you're in need of some love/support. Give that to yourself. We all struggle with confusion on this path. Feel the source within you, forget concepts and thinking.

@traveler What is the gateless gate?

@lukej Great post thank you. You've described very well the perils of this path, but also the beauty and bliss that comes from shedding layers of ego and psyche. Some teachers like Rupert Spira & Shinzen Young are also very good guides for when things get tough. For those alone times I think it's really important to reach out to others, particularly at retreats, workshops or meditation centres. This is why it is key to look to the community, not just online, for support.

@mandyjw Synchronicity is how the magic of life happens. Follow your impulses, your gut, the signs, you're being guided. Let go of your thought stories of who or what is leading this, be curious and enjoy how it all unfolds. When you do, you realise you've tapped into gold.

@Zak The point is you actualise with all these distractions. The biggest obstacle to this path is committing to it, as you have pointed out. How do you get over this obstacle? Realise what is, is. Dark days = dark days, light days = light days. Become aware of the resistance as your post describes. Realise the resistance for what it is, and carry on the work.

@Thewritersunion Try a Yoga Nidra before bed. Good for sleep and relaxation.

@Carson Ford You mentioned feelings a lot through out your post. What are these feelings? Who is experiencing these feelings? Receive your feelings then let go of them, this is the I am, the Now. What is meaning/meaninglessness? You have tapped into the source but perhaps you are not quite aware of it's power yet. Wait and see. See and wait.

@Zak I find this very offensive. Go work on yourself my dear and perhaps you'll have a very different view in a few years.

@Shaun How much mindfulness meditation do you do? Forget the conceptual stuff, try really feeling the what is.

@Rasheed Why are you starting a journal if you don't know what to write in it? Perhaps think about this more, your connection with your inner being first, and why this is difficult.

@Psyche_92 Perhaps your routine is a bit too hardcore. Review it and adjust where necessary. Also are you an all or nothing kind of person? If so, why is that? Start with changing one thing and integrate then another then another. Rather than five at once, or you'll just reach burn out.