Surfingthewave

@Matt8800 Great post, thank you. I can totally relate, I used to get mental fatigue and insomnia from over thinking almost obsessively. Finding yoga and Reiki was my savoir actually as I had nil body awareness. I'll take a look at that book. When you tap into the bodies energy fields, wow the shift in awareness is amazing.

@jj40 You think a lot. Meditate more. Surrender. Let go. Take advice from the lovely people on this forum. Life is too short ? and sometimes there are no answers, just questions.

@ZenAlex I feel for you. Try to get to the source of the thinking. Your thoughts are running wild but don't get on the horse, just continue to watch it running wild. What I would suggest is massively increase your physical activity. Use your thinking in different ways. Rather than sit and have conservations put it to good use. Art is good for self expression. Do you socialise much? Also have you tried yoga? As soon as the 30-60 minute conversation starts, you either sit in meditation and observe the conversation (transcend it) or just let go, walk away and do something else. You're doing the right things and well done as you're seeing the results from meditation. Perhaps think about trying different meditation techniques like concentration practises, labelling etc. The more you meditate the more you're penetrating through all the layers of conditioning, keep going.

Ps an additional. The most difficult part is letting go of goals and dreams. I hold onto these for dear life. These are wrapped up in my identity, my oxygen, becomes the air I breathe and what helps the day go fast. (I'm clearly not living my life purpose just yet but working on it). I know I need to rest in awareness and let go. Easier said than done.

It sure feels strange knowing people are reading this. I'm used to scribbling down my inner most thoughts in a jounal and locking it away. Today was the first day of fully surrendering to what is, after a meditation in the morning and being more conscious of the technique of surrendering I was able to have a productive day at work. Interestingly I seemed to become a magnet at work with people talking about their problems to me so it was a bit of a test. "The events that happen in the moment belong in the moment, they don't belong to you" Michael Singer (The Untethered Soul). I'm reaching the edge, or the comfort zone in a lot of my practices and can feel a push to just jump. Ironically this weekend I'll be visiting family, so this is where the fun really begins. Can I fully let go of who I am with the people who have helped define and shape me? This will be interesting.

@saffron What are you hoping to get out of this forum? The ideal man you so describe doesn't exist. I'm sure you are good at many things but you cannot see this yet. Where there is dark, let there be light. Perhaps the trauma you have experienced will make you more of a person as you may be able to help others going through something similar.

@mandyjw Love this. Thank you, like a gift this came to me just at the right time. Magic is all around us, you're right, we just have to see it. Most of us (including me until recently) are blinded by shoulds woulds and coulds so don't see it.

@saffron You are good enough for this world, in fact you're amazing. You are the world. It's a shift in perspective that is needed. Are you willing to make that shift? If you are you've got to be aware of your projections onto others and really really look inside. But that's tough so we tend to just continue blaming the external world. To quote Tolle, "The truth is you need to say yes to suffering before you can transcend it".

@dimitri Yes I'm going to look into this work, good suggestion. @VeganAwake I struggled with Eckharts methods, probably because I felt I had to choose out of three things, and changing something felt like I had to do something. The surrender experiment feels a bit more like the letting go method, but you're letting go of the positive /negative ideas of what happens and just let things be as they are.

Has anyone else tried Michael Singers methods of surrendering to life /god /consciousness? Not in a passive way but in the way of fully trusting reality and your experience. Interestingly amazing things have happened since I've begun this (recognition at work, deepening my relationships, life purpose results etc). The key is to be patient, let go of any resistance, any positive and negative judgments and trust the path life brings.

@khalifa Good to hear and thanks for the update. This is particularly good to read for people experimenting with psychedelics. I hope you are still able to engage in softer practices e. g yoga/meditation.

Words write on paper Dots, crosses, lines, swirls and breaks Until silence speaks

@ajasatya Great, I shall look forward to what life brings, and yes it is an amazing book. @Nahm Ha, yes very familiar, he just wrote a book about it! Although the Step by step part lacked some clarity.

@zeroISinfinity This is said with love but I hope you are ok. Your posts are somewhat confusing, erratic at times. It can be tricky to recentre, to balance the person with consciousness again once an awakening has been experienced.

@Nahm Thank you ? you hit the nail on the head, especially the thinking of letting go as resistance. Breaking this down into steps is gold. Sometimes it's tough to see what's in front of you. I look forward to your book.

@saffron Thank you for finally being honest with yourself here and thank you to others for helping. Perhaps consider seeking additional professional help with your emotional suffering and/or streamlining your practices. The universe/consciousness /god/reality wants you, but are you ready to be wanted? We often reject what we really seek/need. Good luck and sending love.

@PenguinPablo Sounds like you might need a solo retreat. Disconnect and ground yourself. Get back to the source of what you truly are. If you don't know what that is, then there's the answer.

@Nahmfabulous thank you, I love hearing your journey, very inspiring. Once the dream board is done, I'm having trouble with the trust, part. The surrender, the next step. Like a trapeze artist I know its time to let go. I've had enough of the circus of life, the illusion. Any tips?

@Shaun I think at times you could be taking Leo's words too literally. Why don't you compare and contrast with other teachers/people/gurus pursuing the path and formulate your own experiences. A good way to compare and contrast is to let go of your concepts, language and perceptions and start experiencing, directly and continually. As @Nahm states if you meditate twice a day you won't need to ask these questions. You'll have an experience of knowing.

@ivankiss @ivankiss Good for you, sounds like you've been on an inner journey recently and made progress. @VeganAwake How do you really know? You make a lot of finite statements, just wanted to point out. No one really knows, not even Leo. ?

@DrewNows @ivankiss Indeed. When we question, we question the (insert here________ ego/self/etc ) Word are just words, anyone can say anything. Life doing it's thing Is life. The problem is we don't realise how lucky we are just to be experiencing life. So to go back to the point of the thread if it's hot, be hot. If it's cold, be cold.

@EvilAngel I'm sorry that you suffered from ridicule in your childhood. What are you doing to work on your self esteem? Have you read around this topic? Do you struggle with self belief, anxiety and confidence issues? If so meditation, visualisations and positive affirmations could work for you here. Changing your thought stories in situations can really help. For me I put myself into situations where I knew people were looking at me and became aware of all the thoughts, feelings and sensations it brought up. After time it really helped. What do you with something you fear? You walk directly into the fear.

@ivankiss If All is One and One is All why does life suck?

How do we escape into life? Just been working on mindfulness meditation practices. This is from Shinzen Youngs work. What is "real"? When we say that's really bugging me, what do we mean, really? Do we mean, that's intense for me, so much so, that I can't seem to let go. When we escape into life, we become aware of the thought, feeling or sensation so much so we become the thought, feeling or sensation. So this thought, feeling or sensation becomes "real". But when it becomes real, it actually drops away. It becomes.... nothing. So we become real and nothing at the same time. When we escape, we are getting away from. If we are escaping into life what are we doing? Being real, and being nothing. Just wanted to put it out there.

@Raptorsin7 I would just start with just 1 for now. Becoming aware of negative emotion. Explore this in depth. You mention deep down, you need to explore this "deep down" before you do anything else. Try different meditation techniques on this alone, look them up. It's not about just being aware. What does it feel like, what's the sensation like? Is there body sensations, audio, pain, self talk, resistance?