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@alankrillin You don't have to compete with Kim Jung Gi and Stephen Wiltshire. If you want to do it, you can. You can create your own game and belong in the top 0.1% ~ 1% of the game. For your purposes, that might be enough. It's an infinite game where there are no clear rules and no clear winners unlike baseball where there are clear rules, clear winners, and clear endpoints. Take drawing for example. You can set the intention to get good at such and such areas where Kim Jung Gi and Stephen Wiltshire are mediocre or even poor. Even if you unlock your full potential, you might still envy other people. That's fine. Just keep improving and evolving. We need more people to contribute to evolution.

After watching Leo's videos about Mastery and Perfectionism, I didn't know how to apply the concepts from his videos to my life. After watching Proko's interview of Kim Jung Gi who is a master, I immediately understood how mastery process looks like in real life. Just by watching Proko's interview, I was motivated to live like Kimg Jung Gi. That video showed how mastery process works in real life. It also made me realize that I was conceptualizing to no end and not actually working on my life purpose.

Although I think you are exaggerating difficulty of making money as an artist, I was talking about mastery mindset in general. Even if you can't physically draw thousand things effortlessly from imagination as Kim Jung Gi does, you can learn mastery mindset from him and apply that mindset to your life purpose. I'm pretty sure that you aren't even near 10% of your true potential. That's what I'm talking about. It's about unlocking your full potential. You can become pretty useful if you unlock your potential. In any field, if you unlock your potential, it's quite likely that you can belong in the top 1%, if not the top 0.001% because most average people are quite miserable and mediocre and they aren't in a position to unlock their potential. For most people, just putting them in situations where they can unlock their potential is a challenge.

I think muscular repetition made it easier to remember visual. An expert chess master remembers chess moves without photographic memory because one has saved a lot of similar chess moves in one's brain. After an artist draws an armor a few thousand times, it becomes a lot easier for the artist to retain the image of a similar armor in one's mind. The same applies to biological creatures and things. If you know something in details, you can memorize similar things easily. Kim Jung Gi didn't reproduce one-to-one representations of armors. He merely created a believable reproduction of things. Expertise and repetition can explain a lot of it. He just had a lot of time to practice. I don't think Kim Jung Gi has photographic memory as Stephen Wiltshire does. I didn't see him draw a city view as it exactly looks like. I see Kim Jung Gi draw whatever he used to draw in various configurations. You are tricked into thinking he has photographic memory. I think what's important about Kim Jung Gi is his mastery mindset, not his particular choice of vocation. As Leo Gura said, philosophy can be an artform, too. I was inspired to live like Kim Jung Gi. You can also be inspired to live like Leo Gura. You should learn to be inspired by masters and how they live rather than be discouraged by them. You should also learn to let competitions push you forward and shine light on your weaknesses by comparison. You can't keep pushing forward if you live in isolation. A person who lives in isolation is a miserable average dude. If you keep getting discouraged by people who have higher skills, you will give up soon. If you don't want the competitions involved in a given field, then it is probably not your life purpose, or you are not interested. Stop telling yourself that you can't become a master. It's just a random belief that you created.

@ajasatya I remember the counter-intuitive nature of options for mankind as a whole. In some regions, the options for young men are to be conscripted or to go to jail or flee to foreign countries and become an illegal immigrant. There's no pre-determined course, but there are courses that have a lot of gravity to them. It's hard to escape the gravity. Sometimes, there's black hole you can't escape such as world wars. Gravity is a bitch. I don't feel over-abundance of freedom.

@ajasatya Total freedom could also mean being ambushed, abducted, and beheaded by someone without knowing in advance it would happen. Right? It could also mean being born in north korea as a slave.

Even, pseudonymity is difficult to get. When I tried to buy bitcoins last time, I had a few options Buy it at a bitcoin ATM // Your picture is recorded by ATM. So, a government agency can identify you if it wants to badly. Buy it from bitcoin exchanges // Your credit card information reveals your identity Buy it from local bitcoin vendors // You have to meet them in person and pay in cash. This adds costs. Buy it from bitcoin exchanges, convert bitcoins to monero coins, and convert monero coins gradually back to bitcoins over time. This incurs financial risks and is a form of investment.

My knowledge of bitcoin was outdated. What about anonymity or pseudonymity? Last time I checked, bitcoin was not very anonymous or pseudonymous. Theoretically, government agencies with lots of money could reveal your real identity from bitcoin transactions.

I'm just one of lost souls on actaulized.org forum LIke directing my own education as a autodidact instead of following other people's curricula?

Bitcoin is a useful concept. But, it doesn't scale to billions of transactions per day. A blockchain cryptocurrency is not very suitable for large volumes of transactions. A new scalable cryptocurrency will take over bitcoin in the future. Because bitcoin couldn't be used as a real wallet due to lack of scalability, it was relegated to short-term investments. It cannot be the secure wallet for billions.

I will try and see if there is some value in making my top 50 objectives from long-term goals, yearly goals, quarterly goals, projects, and tasks. I might stop making quarterly plans, though. I just expect that updating the top 50 objectives would incur a lot of overhead and shouldn't be done everyday. Maybe, once a week during my weekly review sessions.

Right now, I have long-term plans for the next year, the next 3 years, the next 5 years, and the next 10 years. It looks like the following text document. For each section, I stipulate a set amount with a set date. For example, by the end of 2023, I will be making 4000~8000 USD by selling this kind of product that resembles the work of someone, someone else, blah blah, .. and has such qualities, blah blah ... For the current year, I make a yearly 3-month plan to make progress in the long-term plans. By a yearly 3-month plan, I mean the following text document. I think it makes sense to make progress in each quarter by breaking down the current quarter's plan into projects, adding a few small unplanned projects, and making the current month's plan out of the projects. Daily plans also make make sense in my experiences. However, in my experiences for the past few years, weekly plans tend to not make much sense. It's hard to make a meaningful progress in one week. But, making a tangible progress is possible in one month or 6 weeks. I also tend to be lazy and shift some weekly tasks to the next week. Shifting weekly tasks to the next week every week adds seemingly unnecessary complexity to my planning system. With or without weekly plans, I would do weekly reviews. I try to stick to David Allen's Getting Things Done(GTD) system for actual execution. How do you suggest that I modify my planning system? A suggestion can either be a good refinement or a paradigm-shifting change.

@Leo Gura Despite having been yet another addict, I found similarities between me and Kim Jung Gi. I think Kim Jung Gi could have become yet another addict if he was living in a different environment. I could have lived like him if I was encouraged to pursue an artform that I find fascinating now when I was young. Or, I am trying to feel good by identifying with masters like Kim Jung Gi. It's not too late to adopt mastery mindset. To live a mastery mindset, I need to adopt lifestyle minimalism which requires fixing my broken planning system optimized for cramming as many tasks as possible into one single day. Do you have videos or tips for a planning system geared toward lifestyle minimalism?

If I set the intent to discover the best way to achieve my life purpose or whether my life purpose is the right one, would 5-MeO-DMT directly show it to me?

I haven't been on psychedelics, yet. So, I don't strictly understand what you say. I just find it weird to think of the possibility that you are right now part of the external reality as a human and the external reality is inside you. It is a strange loop.

Am I part of the external world, now?

I just watched this video. It is very amazing. When I heard Kim Jung Gi, I thought he was just yet another regular artist. After watching video, I changed my mind. He is a real master. Now, I have a dream. I want to become a master like Kim Jung Gi. Now, I understand what mastery involves.

I watched the following video and heard the following quote from it.

The devil is in the detail. Can you go into details? I can't implement your suggestion as is.

It seems you wonder if I have been to japan because my example long term plan includes japanese. I haven't been to japan. It's just a random example.

According to Leo Gura, perfectionism is neurotic resistance to reality. Perfectionism reduces performance. On the other hand, if you don't pursue mastery, you get mediocrity. I recommend watching Leo's videos about mastery and perfectionism.

Leo has a video for you.

Hahahaha....!!! That's a funny expression. But, it doesn't take into account that other people are more than sex toys which don't have consciousness. You might get bitten when you treat other people like toys. Unlike toys, they have to be satisfied, too. That said, I might enjoy being treated like a sex toy by a sexy woman. Or, vice versa.

What am I running away from? What do you think my problem is?

I had one insight while I took a shower and another insight while I visualized about improvements. Loving devilry It's easy to let your own devil run amok and to hate other devils. It happens to everyone including me. I mean everyone. This is one of the major reasons that people have double standards and are full of shit. I figured out that one way to love devilry is to be fascinated by the mechanism of devilry. I could get myself to be amazed by the artistry of devilry. Night-time meditation is good for curing insomnia. Roughly one hour before you go to bed, stop doing things. Tie up loose ends. Wrap up your day by putting what's in your mind in your task inbox. And then, meditate for 20~30 minutes. A lot of distractions will go away through meditation. If you remove distractions before you go to bed, insomnia will likely go away. In my case, insomnia was caused by emotional distractions.