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Going through recovery after transgender surgeries looked really painful. I would not recommend it unless you absolutely have to go through the surgeries.

Person A writes A is very congenial while I've seen A write about ruining others for little mistakes. Person B writes B really doesn't like to hurt others' feelings. From time to time, I saw B throw random low-quality negative criticisms to people who B disagrees with. Person C writes C knows how to attract women while the truth is that C is very hungry of women and doesn't know how to actually attract women. I think they mistake what they want to be or what they can be as what they actually are now. Or, they mistake what they want to look like in public places as what they actually are. Self-acceptance is hard, so people deny what they actually are. Self-denial leads to self-deception. Most people are like hungry animals that want to look like enlightened beings or angels or a super star. Because they don't want to look like hungry animals to others, when they are asked, they deny being hungry animals. Hungry animals are not popular among people. So, they disguise as something else. I see hungry animals deceive themselves on this forum, too. A way out of this situation is self-acceptance. Accept that you are a hungry animal that just wants some pleasing attentions for survival. Another way out is to serve the greater good rather than just your own survival.

I didn't really know what self-awareness means. Yesterday, I realized that I wasn't really good at self-awareness. Yesterday was the day when I realized that to be self-aware is to observe myself and be aware of what I actually am right now and accept my current self through honest self evaluation instead of denying what I am because I couldn't accept my current self. For years, I deceived myself by convincing myself that I just made a little mistake and I will automatically do much better tomorrow because I am working on personal development. Thus, I trusted myself a little too much and allowed myself to be lazy because I was going to be better in the future anyway. Self-deception substituted for self-awareness. A common self-deception is to convince yourself that you are improving fast on a daily basis when the truth is that improvements can happen over months and you cannot improve as long as you convince yourself that you improve a lot faster than you actually do. You run out of patience and relapse and have to start over from scratch again instead of improving. I felt my self awareness was increasing while I was just deceiving and deluding myself even more. If I was honest with myself and was more aware of myself, I would not trust myself to not waste hours on distractions once I allow myself to be distracted for a few minutes. If I was really honest, I would not trust myself with distractions until I really stop feeling attracted to distractions. Self-awareness involves accepting the fact that you cannot be trusted with distractions. Pursue self-acceptance instead of self-denial and self-delusion. If you accept your lazy self instead of denying it, then you can work around laziness until you finally cure yourself of addictions. If you deny your lazy self, you will think it's ok to be distracted for a few minutes and end up wasting hours on distractions at a time. Self-acceptance increases self-awareness. Self-denial and self-delusion decrease it.

If you want to become productive as a beginner of self actualization, you should start with a simple rule of productivity. This video provides you with an engine of productivity. AMRAP is an acronym for "as many reps as possible". Modern life is filled with technological distractions. However, you almost never find your mind wandering from the present moment when you are in the middle of an AMRAP workout. When you are trying as hard as you can to raise your chin to that bar just one more time, you are completely focused on the task at hand. The level of shear intensity involved in AMRAP round makes it impossible to focus on your weekend plans, video games you played last night, and so on. Here's 4 step process of using AMRAP mentality Identify your areas of focus. Make sure each has a strong internal "why". You should only have a few of these. You should do this for micro goals as well as macro goals. Each day, write down a few things you want to accomplish, and apply AMRAP mentality to them. Choose one area, focus on it with all of your attention, and work hard at it. When you are riding a bike, your only focus is on where you are going. If you want to get where you are going with any amount of speed, you're going to crank those pedals hard. Switch gears deliberately with good reasons to do so. Switching from one task to another task is like going from an AMRAP set of push-ups to another AMRAP set of pull-ups. Your focus calmly switches to the new thing, and all of your attention becomes fixated on it. After switching gear, go back to step 2. Do frequent re-evaluations Sit often, and ask yourself "Do my areas of focus still make sense?" Your time, attention, and energy are all limited resources. Even if you apply AMRAP mentality to your life, your attention will fall off when you are exhausted or when you switch gears. If you worked hard yesterday and waked up today, your brain would still be exhausted. This is a warning that you should work a bit less or sleep more. Your brain accumulated too much waste material through metabolism yesterday. This video helps you with backsliding. This video contains a lot of points, but the relevant point from the video is that when you find the right things to change strategically, you got to make 100% commitment. No wiggle room. You first have to experience what it means to give yourself wiggle room. And then, you need to try to be more aware of wiggle rooms. Wiggle rooms start their lives in your mind. They don't just exist in your behaviors. Wiggle rooms infest your mind long before they manifest in your behaviors. You tend to give wiggle room to distractions. For example, I used to be obsessed with trying new bistros in my neighborhood. I thought it was not a distraction. After I went back from new bistros, I became widely aware that it was just another distraction and yet another manifestation of addiction. You should build up distraction database so that you can identify distractions long before they manifest in your behaviors. You should deal with distractions long before they create wide wiggle rooms in your mind. To do that , the following video helps. According to this video, meditation is not just going back to breaths when your attention falls off your breaths. Being aware of being distracted from your breaths and going back to your breaths is a metaphor for the rest of your life. Going back to your work whenever you are distracted is also meditation. Your entire life is meditation. Meditation is your entire life. Thus, you should always meditate while you are awake. Apply this meditation mentality to distractions. When distractions create wiggle room in your mind, remember to go back to your work before mental wiggle room manifests in your behaviors. It is far easier to resist distractions before they manifest in your behaviors. Always remember to go back to what you could be doing while you are awake. Another relevant point from "How To Stop Backsliding" is that you should negotiate workload with yourself when your ego is about to over-react. When addictions are trying to distract you very hard and cause ego backlash, you should consider taking a walk, working a bit less, and being more aware. Working a bit less is better than losing an entire day. Over time, you will develop focus muscle and be able to resist distractions far better. Even though you can fend off addictions and distractions to a degree by walking outside, you should still resist addictions. There is no way around. But, it's up to you to make it easier for yourself to resist addictions. To make it easier to resist addictions, you need to improve your self image so that you will use less will power to resist addictions. Your self image controls your actions subconsciously. If you subconsciously went to bed early, woke up early, and worked hard, you wouldn't need as much willpower to resist addictions. You can change your self image by working on your beliefs, your self image, and doing deep introspection from time to time. The following videos help you with working on your self image. This whole process of developing productivity muscle requires more awareness because you should be aware of when you become distracted mentally and behaviorally. I strongly recommend making it a habit to meditate for 20 minutes every day. I can't be thorough with this because my productivity techniques are still far from perfection. But, those techniques helped me burst out of my slump immediately. Leo's videos tend to conceptualize a lot. A lot of conceptualization often leads to paralysis. I needed to scramble a simple system of productivity for myself. I'm quite confident that my current system of productivity will not kill my productivity. I'm seeing a way out of inaction. For the first time in my life, I'm confident that I am accelerating escape from inaction.

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By no problem, I mean that many people do not think about the long-term health risks associated with fast foods. Fast foods might cause cancer in a few decades. You have no problem with fast foods if you do not think about long-term health risks.

I think you are afraid of unknown. Some people are allergic to WiFi, but most people are not. Fast foods are toxic, but many have no problem with eating them. 5G network will be nothing like 800W microwave oven. Have you thought of low-level microwave therapy?

No. You could just be aware of your power without panic or fear even if you have very little power or your power is shrinking fast. You could be patient without strong negative emotions even if your power is shrinking or is not growing fast.

"Real" is relative. I'd like to think of it as what a soldier, a father, or a man can be. It's about exploring what you can be. By the way, although acceptance and love are great, I would not advise going through physically taxing surgeries. Going through surgeries so that one looks like the opposite sex puts a lot of stress on the body. Acceptance of one's biological sex is physically healthier.

You are not considering the balance between work and exercise. I want to exercise when I cannot work productively. So, to me, the best time to exercise is when exercise complements work rather than competes with work. If I hit a gym when I am least energetic, I become energetic again after a workout, and I can work with more focus. I may change my workout schedule in the future, but I like my current workout schedule. I don't see the workout schedule change in the foreseeable future.

Between 1PM and 3PM, due to circadian rhythm, humans become sleepy. Rather than taking a nap, it's better to hit the gym when you are most likely to be sleepy. It increases productivity and your health simultaneously. Nowadays, between 1PM and 3 PM, I hit a nearby gym and exercise for 30 minutes.

Is it another instance of sarcasm? In spain, siesta culture is widespread. Say that to spanish people. In my direct experiences, my people also tend to become drowsy during 1~3PM. It's not rare. It's widespread regardless of age. To me, it just sounds like mockery which is a form of negative criticism. If you paid attention, you would notice that you tend to become either lethargic or sleepy during 1~3PM. It is just a matter of degree. If you slept very well and didn't eat lunch too much, you might not feel sleepy between 1 and 3PM, but you might still feel a bit lethargic and find it more challenging to focus on work.

It seems you didn't exercise when you were sleepy. I have direct experiences. A workout wakes you up and boosts energy. If you exercise when you are wakeful, you have to give up doing work while you exercise. If you didn't exercise when you were sleepy, you would have taken a nap or have dozed anyway. Since you utilize an otherwise unproductive span of time for exercise, you become more productive. This way, exercise and work complement each other rather than compete with each other. Also, a workout increases health. That's why I wrote it increases health and productivity. I exercise for 30 minutes because I am starting out and cannot yet utilize 1 hour effectively at a gym. I'm getting my feet wet with a new routine. At this point, 30 minutes are enough to make my whole body hurt. Later, I may work out for 1 hour. If you are efficient and creative, 1 hour is enough for muscle training and many other kinds of exercise. No need to spend hours on exercise unless you are training for professional contests or unless you really want to. The point is to exercise when you are not busy or when you are not productive at work so that work and exercise complement each other. If you have a regular job that requires you to work between 1PM and 3PM or have an inflexible schedule, my advice doesn't apply to you.

Yes, there is. A hot iron rod emits red light, but the rod is not affected by red light. A heat source such as a human body emits infrared light, but the human body doesn't particularly react to infrared light. I suspect low levels of microwave radiation are far less damaging than UV light from the sun.

Today, I realized my sister is a hikkikomori. She sleeps a lot, and she doesn't want to do anything other than sleeping and eating and watching videos and going to church once a week. She is very lazy about brushing her teeth. She doesn't wash her face as often as she needs to. She hates meeting people. She complains a lot about wage slavery. What is my sister but a hikkikomori? That's not a good place to be in. I'm not sure what it will take for her to get out of her rut.

After you experience it, you can tell me. For example, you can experience a rear-naked choke.

I think you can experience death.

I do not understand this. At least, make a full sentence that makes sense.

That looks like a massive waste of time and energy.

A frequency that human brain uses or emits? I haven't heard that human brain uses electromagnetic waves for its operation.

Manipulating reality for destructive purposes hurts you because everything in reality is connected. If you manipulate reality for constructive ends, you will be fine. You seem to have impulse for more power and become frustrated when you don't have more power than you want. Be stoicly aware of how much power you have even if you have very little of it. Don't feel frustrated if it takes more time to gain power.

What kind of shadow do I have if I can't stand people who insult me or beat me or threaten to beat me?

Summary. Mind is infinitely powerful. It can create materialistic reality that's independent of one's mind. Materialism is true relative to scientists and materialists. That everything is illusory is true relative to non-dualists. That everything is illusory is not absolute truth. It is a relative truth that's relative to non-dualists. The only absolute truth is every truth is relative. I again entered a state of not knowing. I don't know what is truth anymore.

Power itself is not bad. It's how you use power that matters. Also, I think you mean influence and respect rather than power. Power is your ability to turn your imagination of a better situation into reality. You may want to develop patience and stoic awareness if you feel urges.