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Rsd Tyler is an example of a half green half orange pua guy .. I think he is more green now than orange tho .. RSD Julien on the other hand is fully orange .. he is a typical orange .. although now he transcended to be more green .. but the old rsd Julien is a typical orange pua guy .

Egypt .. 70% blue 30% orange

When I said ego death .. I wasn't talking about ego death when the body still alive .. I meant ego death when you physically dead

Don't resist the thoughts or the stress .. allow every thing and be aware of the moment while accepting and allowing everything .. remember that what you resist persist !

Hahahaha true tho

The finite mind after the ego death fades away in the - infinite mind - consiousness ! Haha that's a good one

There is no choice in eternity .. the human experience - the ego - will be dead for sure .. but your essence , the nothingness that all things appears in - the infinite consiousness - the knowing that only knows itself will be here forever.

I have came up with this insight today ... " Life is about beating your self over and over again until you realize that there is no self getting beaten ! "

for the last years , I have been working in my consciousness a lot . and I have became pretty much fully accepting everything that is happening , including my emotions , thoughts , circumstances , everything basically .. because I have realized that life is me ! but I have found out in this process of more and more accepting life as me that the more I accept the less motivation I have to do or change anything , I became less driven to study , to make money , to all success in life ! But .. I'm fulfilled and happy inside . Is that normal or should I be more driven to live a successful amazing life the more I accept reality as me ? note : I'm only 19 and my recent life in not amazing or considered unsuccesful externally , I never had a girl friend or sex , I have never made money for my self , still living in my family basement .. etc.. !

I have a feeling that I'm a nebiew that thinks he is advanced in my self development journey ! I will till you my background story real quick , I think it's inspiring ! I'm 19 years old guy , lives in a third world country which is Egypt , my childhood was really bad , hardcore child abuse verbally and physically , religious Islamic family and culture , family that is fighting all the time about money and about their relationship , I was always doing stuff my entire life externally disciplined and based on the fear of family and the fear of abuse , never had sex or a girlfriend , never worked or made money for my self , I'm smart in my education and was good at school but I think the main reason for that is the external discipline of my family . 2 years ago , I have got into self development , awareness and non duality stuff ,I really studied this stuff , I got into really advanced things and I studied so much , I left islam , I have been meditating and doing consciousness work for 1 year now , I can't describe how it helped me internally , I now accept reality as it is , have a mind peace and inner satisfaction . I feel like I understand life in a deep level , high internally self esteem , acceptance and confidence , I feel fulfilled all the time , I don't have fear or worries any more , "I feel like I don't need to pursue or do stuff any more" . I still live in my family basement with my 4 younger brothers and my low Consciousness family , I still haven't sex , I still don't have a life purpose , so I have a feeling that I went advanced so far and I feel like that feeling of me not driven to do any thing or pursue any thing in life is just trap of my ego to procrastinate on what I should be doing in life to really have a self mastery and an amazing life ! I need your thoughts and help on that .. I would really appreciate it

Thank you guys for your interest and help .. but here is what I have discovered self inquiring about this . The more I accept all aspects of life as me , the more I'm fulfilled and happy but the less driven I'm to do any thing or to pursue any goal. It feels like the more I accept the less change I want to make . Is that normal or is that a paradox and the opposite should happen and I'm deceiving my self ?

there is a lot of holes in my maslow's hierarchy's pyramid .. despite that I feel like I don't need to fill these holes cause I'm already complete ! so my question is , can this be a trap of the lower self to procrastinate or to be stuck in my life , or is that a real early growth , because really I have been meditating and doing consciousness stuff for only 1 year. what if that's just a self deception ??

But when I'm conscious in the now .. every goal seam meaningless and I feel fulfilled within .. I don't know if that is my ego try to make me procrastinate and be lazy .. or that is a real growth that has happened too early in my journey !

In ramadan , muslims fast water and food from sun rise to sun set demanding the order of their god "allah" ! “Fasting is the first principle of medicine; fast and see the strength of the spirit reveal itself.” ― Rumi