Hello guys, hope you are all well.
For the past 3 months, I am constantly thinking about my past and cannot get over one thing. Since always I was ambitious and I started playing football at the age of 7 and I obsessively played till the age of 11 more or less, I stopped because of the attitude of coaches. I started doing art at my spare time. I came back to football again at the age of 13 and I had an idea of a "life purpose" already. I wanted to dedicate myself fully to one thing, because I knew that is a sort of key to winning in life. I faced a choice 1)art 2)football. I chose art and since that time I basically was busy with art every day. Currently, I am 21 and a young, well prospective artist, I study in one of the best art school in the world, even though I am from another country and school pays my tuition, I just had an exhibition in one of the best gallery in the country.
Nonetheless, after the World cup I am thinking, what if I was a footballer, with my determination and hard work. Even though I know it is silly, and I know i might bullshiting myself I constantly have it at the back of my head, but when I look at the successful footballers who have millions of dollars at my age makes me sad. I recently read "Power of Now" by E.Tolle and I think I understand PAST = Regret, Future = Anxiety/Strees. Even though I do not think I am bilogically a sport guy(for example I am alergic, small developemental coordination disorder . I think I may have a limiting belief " I can achieve whatever I want", which is motivating, but from the other hand is limiting.The thing which contributes towards it is the fact that I achieved whatever I wanted in the past year, literally like ticking all the boxes. In terms of spirituality I watched and have notes of most of the videos of Leo, but I am just starting to get familiar with it. I am sure you guys will be able to look at this from different perspective and advise how to deal with it
Best wishes,
Peter
