now is forever

that’s the best feel instantly more relaxed

? she surely would love it. or would you have thrown vases? italian love? ❤️

yes, but you also know why it’s exactly this business.

@Joseph Maynor it’s the last ego death of 2018 - accept the metamorphosis. if he would have told us in advance there would be no awareness of what to do less in 2019. i did the same...

four hours left until berlin will be a temporary war zone again. you won‘t want to walk open field during that time - it’s really dangerous. especially in my area they love the tough half legal stuff from china. ? ? ?

yeah that might be the cause of the problem it doesn’t need to be the cure. we are not karmaless and they are not karmaless but it’s not about karma it’s about dharma

yes - i think at the age of twelve in shamanism they would find their totem animal, think it’s not wrong to have a healthy mystical world understanding before nonduality. in steiner schools they say it’s important even in the early ages - you can work with the spiral through the ages before you introduce nonduality. (you can teach them nonduality better in nature than with anime, don’t forget the ants so fast - my mom let me watch animals all the time it’s super helpful)

15 is a good age or later. i got my non intentional initiation with 15 - and later read something in a symbolic lexica about 15 being the age for a lot of cultures for initiation rituals. i would read about that stuff a little bit, maybe you will find answers in budhism - at what age they start traditionally with what kind of initiations. i guess ancient cultures have a better understanding about the right physiological/psychological/spiritual age for introductions of metaphysical questions.

@Mikael89 then change everything! because nothing is hopeless, everything just is. you don’t get it right yet. everything is an illusion until you realize what nothing and everything really means. but therefore yo must understand that what you think is everything might be an illusion it might be nothing instead if it is hopeless. whatever it is, you didn’t understand everything yet.

@kieranperez wow that sounds like a mess. it is an emotional one but also a physical one - and you are in the process of sorting that. it’s a good sign regardless of the situation. the thing is, there are moments in life where we realize we love our family but we can’t help because they won’t let us. and i tell you, it will never stop being painful - but respecting them sometimes means respecting their boarders. do you understand the principle of synchronicity of coincidence? in this case i believe it might be frequenting wrong places. i know it’s difficult to live in a safe quarter and i know always taking a car is expensive - but somehow these things work out so well, that in criminal areas in south america and other countries they have separated areas to live in, if they can afford it and people who guard the house. so the lesser you frequent places that are not safe the lesser coincidences to meet people like that you will produce, because there is no synchronicity with them anymore. that goes for your folks the same as for yourself. regarding your family - it sounds like it is getting hard to leave them and you don’t have to do it forever but maybe if you would leave them for a while you would figure out that indeed they’ll maybe come along not better or worse than when you are around. going away from home means to find your true self - you see you can selfinquire a lot and find out a lot about yourself but people you know well always tell you how you are and you will believe it as long as you are sticking around. they have mute expectations, too. and you will fulfill them subconsciously. i had to move many times to finally find someone inside me who can say that stuff. and finally i realized the little things i can do for them, i can do them because i left home. (but don’t go unprepared - work towards living with other people, find a shelter that already really exists. there is a lot to discover about yourself, things you were not aware of, because you never had the chance to see them yet - you only got a glimpse until now) by the way the best thing you can do for your little brother is being someone he can look up to. someone who walks ahead.

as long as he likes the heinz ketchup, too. beware of surreptitious advertising.

chewing gum with xylitol might be good for dental care - as the mouth bacteria just dies from xylitol. there are studies about it if you are interested to search.

top on the list of nootropics against alzheimer‘s was lions mane and the clubmoss - can’t remember the exact name. ashwaghanda, brahmi and rhodiola might be helpful with parkinson’s.

@Moreira hahaha no sweety it’s about the insight that you can stay healthy and younger than your age with the right natural methods. no one said you can prevent aging but you can stay healthy fit and good looking in all of your ages - just accept that you have one. try nootropics, another diet - preserve the inner child. of course you can’t be the same as you where with 18.

stomach or gut? it’s a little bit different - first locate the problem. it sounds a little fuzzy what intestines are involved. then you need to discern if it is a burning sensation or what quality the pain has. a good diagnosis is always based on a good description of what and where exactly. too much acid is most of the times the stomach.

it’s even considerable to change your working furniture in that direction, for example a workingtable which is adjustable in height. because there is nothing healthy in bowing down for a long time. i would also recommend to ban chairs to another room or make them less accessible as we use to be creatures of habit. actually it’s also better to sit and sleep on the floor, holds you flexible until old age.

i don’t know why you shouldn’t try it for one week - but i would maybe still drink water and be very good prepared, also when you start eating again do it slowly. you will realize pretty soon if bretharianism is the right diet for you.

marguerite duras wrote in l‘amant: „Very early in my life it was too late. It was already too late when I was eighteen. Between eighteen and twenty-five my face took off in a new direction. I grew old at eighteen. I don’t know if it’s the same for everyone. I’ve never asked. But I believe I’ve heard of the way time can suddenly accelerate on people when they’re going through even the most youthful and highly esteemed stages of life. My ageing was very sudden. I saw it spread over my features one by one, changing the relationship between them, making the eyes larger, the expression sadder, the mouth more final, leaving great creases in the forehead. But instead of being dismayed I watched this process with the same sort of interest I might have taken in the reading of a book. And I knew I was right, that one day it would slow down and take its normal course.“ aging is life and life is aging. you can still slow that process down, if you dare.

@TheAvatarState yes that was basically the koan.

what colour of socks will i wear today?

@TheAvatarState there is a difference between the muh and the mu

need to remember this, it’s about cake baking. the recipe might be everything. but every cake tastes different so it’s about the special ingredients. i wonder if the monster is a hamster or a rat. in the end we are all just cake chunkies.

so christmas is over. phiuw, it is really the time of the year when my skin is thinner then anytime else. christmas symbolizes somehow everything that made my family different. the atheism the green lifestyle, the boycottism of my parents, the outsider feeling. this year i could enjoy the positive aspects of us being like we are. and more than that i changed reality not only for myself but for them as well, as i found the perfect solution - it made me also open to recive non material presents from them.

eric what exactly is it about the law of unattraction you like so much? maybe you should not change yourself for the girls but for yourself. this whole thought is such a dead end how did you ever get there. you can approach girls and still maintain a mysterious aura if you want to, you don’t even have to talk to her directly for that. but antisocial is just not it - it won’t work out. just imagine when you finally have a girlfriend and then you don’t talk to her... how should that work out? you’d probably not just break her heart but yours as well.

the dosage and frequency makes the poison. and sometimes the poison makes the poison.