now is forever

and why is it dark where you are at?

what about the knife??? is it there to show that you are really ruthless? i had a “butterfly” when i was 12 just for playing, didn’t even realize i was playing with a real weapon it was just because it looked cool on a friend of mine. i don’t even know how i got it anymore and who sold it to me. my mom took it away and told me i could have it again when i was older - but it was out of fashion then as my school and friends had changed. by the way is it itching? they forgot the t.

space/experience/momentum to take place always requires decision to be filled with object/space/experience/momentum if you don’t decide space/experience/momentum will happen anyways but differently. for some decisions we can find compromises or konsensus and it works out well, but sometimes if we don’t decide we also will loose one or both, as no decision is already also a decision, because to fill space/experience/momentum the space will be occupied in some way or another. there are situations we can controll and some we can’t, but if we put our heart into it we might gain. puting heart into something means sometimes letting the heart go where it wants to go completely and sometimes telling the heart to let go slowly of something else - because that else already had it’s space/experience/momentum and makes place for something new - it’s your decision to make the best of the situation through decisions. you need to decide what’s worth fighting for and what’s not despite the possibility of loosing anyways, because everything ceases even the option to choose.

is this month not over yet? i can’t wait for the detox vid. but as it is spring time i‘ll also try to do some spring cleaning starting tomorrow.

who ever said it’s the job of a parent to make their children non irritating - i don’t like teflon societies, nothing ever happens there. just feed them sweets, they won’t talk back anymore. ? you know where that goes ?=>

@Vipassana it contains aluminium oxide. are you sure? it‘s an insecticide... you could use it on a carpet to get rid of dust mites and spiders etc. but then you would also breath it in.... ♥️ maybe you are talking about zeolite or bentonite in food quality?

@tsuki blank slate? you don’t talk about toilet paper, do you? maybe you need to read astrid lindgren before you consider having children. you can always teach them to talk back at you.

coming home is so beautiful, i only always realize it when i‘m coming back. if it’s not, it’s time to change something about it. but even if it is, it’s also always time to change something about it and integrate the new. although it’s nice to wander, it’s equally nice to have a resting point.

you need to understand that you are not only god but you are also the devil. ignoring your shadowside will lead to suffering. of course the divine is in you and it’s cute and loving - but understand that there is duality within nonduality, if you want or not. you just saw a tiny glimpse of what god really is.

just repeating words doesn’t mean you found god - it means you found the language people describe what they belief is god. you can read the bible the koran the tora and the baghavad ghita or the vedas and interprete it differently that’s where religions split up and fight wars over. of course you can say i‘ve read it i am a believer.

that‘s because of congruencies in beliefs - words point towards a direction, you can use them in one way and use the same words in another way - one priest is teaching god, the other is teaching ego. i don’t think the op is a bad person but he seems to be to full of himself. (he put himself beyond learning, the ego is already the almighty) i argued here over months against the blind use of psychedelics because some people might exactly end up in egotheism what is not pantheism. the op already stated in another thread that he doesn’t connect to pantheism.

? if you throw up the world it always only comes in pieces.

yeah, call it what you want - if a guy teaches he teaches if a girl teaches she’s fighting - can i throw up?

@Preetom now that’s blasphemic.

today i became concious, that the devil is ignorance, most of the time.

you can’t see the „what is god“ video without understanding the development he went through during the last months. ego death is still prior to becoming god, you can’t just skip it. i‘ve never been god/ess, but god/ess has been within me, there is divinity in me and sometimes divinity is me completely. i’m only divinity if i give myself up to it. but i am not it even though it is me.

leo mentioned several times that the ego is the devil and that the devil tries to corrupt everything that’s good. so that’s what the ego does with you, it tries to corrupt what’s true about you all to itself . there is only ego left because the ego became god completely. but there is a difference in being god completely by giving in to the higher power of god, letting god flush you like the sea flushes an empty cave - and thinking the ego is god because it fills already every empty space there is. you need to understand that everything is nothing and nothing is everything.

do you even listen to leo‘s teachings anymore? narcistic much?

well how should the ego know if it hasn’t seen yet. it is and it is not.

god is everything but the ego is not - so how could the ego be god? does this help - who said my answer is what you want it to be?

because there is duality in nonduality. the devil exists within everything. even the devil has two faces.

ego thinks it is god thinks it can play god, thinks too much about itself, thinks iiiiiiiiii aaaaammmmm gooooood. but it’s the devil instead having wet dreams. as long as there is no space for what is really god.

@Charlotte sorry, it was schoulder/arm bursitis. ultrasound was really really helpful. it reappeared from time to time for some years, because of the sleeping habit...until i slept on the back for some months. but now it’s gone since some time. knocking on wood! i mean it could be that you have in anyways a pressure or friction on it as michal said. i just remembered that because he mentioned it, in my case it was the sleeping habit - so what i was pointing to is how easy the cause could be overlooked. sleeping on the side might be the problem, if it is for ex. your favorite sleeping side, or it’s the mattress etc. but maybe it’s also irrelevant. if you stay aware of when and where it hurts the most, maybe you find some clues.

as i already posted it somewhere else, i can equally share it here. bought myself this nice book about permaculture. it has a lot of wholistic information in it and some really nice vegan recipes. i‘ll probably not create a permaculture garden at my backyard right now - even though the caretaker of my house would probably be all in. but i want to go regularly to urban gardening projects during the coming summer and partake in the gardening. and i share it because it’s a really nice cookbook for anyone who wants to get all into veganism and healthy eating and maybe wants to get closer to the idea of nature in the city. also think about it, do you have urban gardening projects in your city? did you ever go there? urban gardening is not just a trend, it‘s a living philosophy. and also if you only go there to show your sunglasses - don’t go.

when i had the bursitis it came again for several times because of my sleeping habit of putting the arm underneath my pillow - so you might want to notice how you sleep, too. might be that it’s just a small thing like sleeping on the side having the whole pressure of the body on the hip, trying to sleep on the back then for a while could be helping. or a way you are sitting or so. it’s maybe not really what made it occure but could be the extra that doesn’t let it disappear.