now is forever

i wonder what that might suggerate - actually it looks more funny than delicious. the pomme pomme earrings. it has some clown melancholy to it when i wear them. wonder where the french came from.

yeah, what the fuck is going on! why do we even grow hair! why just why?

also i must confess that consistency is as much a concept than it was before- because it’s not really there, well it is in being inconsistent with what i wanted to be consistent with. but last week was kind of productive so i don’t care too much and yesterday i built a wooden frame presentation furniture for a product presentation in a small store - it was a short notice design in sense of having only a week to solve the problem - it was only for a small event, but it looked good, even though i‘d construct it a little bit better next time in sense of stability. not a big issue but small errors occurre in prototypes. so even though there is an excuse i can sell well to myself, i still want to return to consistency in being consistent with what i wanted to be, next week. means starting tomorrow.

so today i started the day with reading - because that’s what i set my mind to yesterday evening. so i started to really read the permaculture book instead of just digging for the recipes. it’s really good! a lot of things written in the first pages are not really telling me something new but it is one or two steps deeper than my perception of it until now, because it’s more backed up through practice than all i know theoretically. there is also this explanation about how to plant food closely accessible to where the body is at and there is a logic of partitioning these areas in zones/numbers, the house is 0 the back door is 1 and so on. i find it really interesting as i always am in my house, as i carry it around ? i‘m always zero and that is infinite. hehe the author of the book is referring to that with 00. so 0 is the place where 00 is at. i‘ll certainly also soon start to grow something on my windowsill only for food reason - well most of my plants are already eatable but i mostly don’t eat them because either they would be gone then and i like them so much or because they are still to small to have fruits. i especially like the kaffir lime tree, it’s leaves are delicious in thai curry. i like it because i like it and i like it because it tastes good. and i‘m sorry i bought it just for food reasons so i harvest it really sparsely and always only two to three leaves a time. that’s why basil never makes it for long, i am too greedy.

that’s a very deep insight. might be my own arrogance speaking - but the problem about using psychedelics is certainly a spiritual ego that is not completely rooted in earth and runs for the stars much more than for earth. sometimes not seeing what happens to earth anymore. but on the other hand of course a spiritual ego might be better than a non spiritual. question is always about the direction of spirituality - and if there are even non spiritual egos. that‘s why i still see some advantages in taking psychedelics during guided ceremonies, with plans of preparation that give the spiritual ego a direction, because not every spiritual ego has an inner map especially if new to the territory. i mean a little thread helps out of any labyrinth.

i wonder about his bubble theory, does he have one - as a physicist how does he connect to the bubble phenomenon inside his perfect chaos theory.

well i‘d say it’s a matter of taste i bought some pon pon earrings recently. if you don’t look at the p too much you‘d understand what colour they have. you could also call them fluffy hairrings.

haha - you want to know huh?

i don’t grow a beard - so i don’t know... but beards are kind of a statement of hairiness.

yes, the beard will be probably veeeeerrrrryyyy long then!

what final upload - you are scaring me! and probably not only me..... @Shin where are you when we need you?

thank you ?

yes i know, but it includes you now.

who’s life? leo’s life?your life? my life? everyones life? where is the limit, i can’t see it.

is love relevant? to whom is truth relevant? to whom is enlightenment relevant? what is relevant at all joseph? meaning and meaninglessness are very relevant to enlightenment work.

@Leo Gura hmmm, i don’t get „infinity is zero“ completely. does it rather mean nothing is infinite or rather mean there is no infiniti or rather mean the number is infinite - that’s rather paradoxical, isn’t it @Joseph Maynor can you grab that? from inside the paradox you can’t see it’s a paradox. you are zero infinitely but at the same time you are infinite truth what is ♾. you don’t see it because you are in it. it’s one thing to formulate something linear and another thing being in the paradox behind it.

yeah it is but you call it alchemy it is the all-chemy the chemistry of the all.

@Joseph Maynor try to see this “=“ as a symbol of “it is and it is not” - it’s not a math problem it is an allegory.

no, form is shaped by nothing, form is an illusion and it is not. form exists in a relationship with meaning and meaninglessness. meaning=nothingness and form are interconnected in an endless conversation.

an egg is an egg because it is an egg if it wasn’t an egg it would be chocolate. but then a bunny would bring it at easter.

ididnt say nothing/meaninglessness, did i?

the answer to this is yes and no. you know that - there can’t be another answer. as form and illusion coexist in endless meaning and meaninglessness. meaning/nothingness and form are interconnected in an endless conversation.

yeah that sounds about right in a really brofound way. the apsolute, no one knows b

well using the metaphor of accessing enlightenment through psychedelics compared to using a tool - there is still one comparison left: to fly a rocket you need to attain the ability to fly the rocket first what also takes some years of training to know what precautions you need to take. to use a forklifter you need some training... it’s a splatter. so don’t watch if you’re sensitive to film blood.

H: everyone only looks at q while no one knows b