So. Yeah. Title says what it says, I guess. I personally believe that crying is just another release. You know, removing toxic stuff from your body... just like peeing, sweating, etc. Except in this case, it happens to be negative energy thats being released, rather than urine, or, uh, whatever sweating releases.
Unfortunately, it's demonized (crying) in modern society ... but I'm not really here to get philosophical, haha, just here to ask for some much needed advice. Just wanted to make it known that im aware its a bit odd to be seeking out a way to cry.
But yeah. I desperately need a good cry. I'm really, really stuck. I feel so much stuck, heavy energy in my heart area... I assume it's due to past traumas, but thats beside the point, I feel like. I reallly need to get it out... you have no idea. Due to all of this stuck negative energy in my... I don't know, maybe it's my heart chakra? I honestly don't know, but it is in the heart area. But yeah, due to all of this stuck energy in the heart area, I have zero capacity for joy. I need to cry out this energy so my heart will have space to let joy in! Life is empty and grey.
I've tried so many things. Reiki, fasting, acupuncture, eft, emotion code... nothing has worked. It really sucks. The only thing that has worked in the past was feeling safe, loved and accepted. Under those conditions, something sort of just snaps inside of me, and it all just starts pouring out.
I've tried to recreate these conditions, because they have only been met, randomly. Like a random cat came near me one time and I felt safe and stuff like that, and I started weeping. The energy in my heart area was finally being defused! I could literally FEEL the bad energy coming up and out. I was so glad I was getting this sweet release. Unfortunately maybe a minute into this someone came out of nowhere and took the cat away (I was in public)
Same thing happened with a bird. It was great. The bird flew away after like 30 seconds though. I don't know what happened. The bird just landed near me and I just felt overloaded with love and acceptance. It really moved me and caused the energy in my heart area to be released without me trying at all.
So yeah. I figure I would recreate these conditions. I figure since fully enlightened masters radiate unconditional love and acceptance and the like, I would find one, sit in their presence, and let the same thing happen that happened with the bird and the cat. And I would just cry for however long it takes to get all the toxic energy out.
This might sound a bit far fetched but I honestly don't know any other way. Which is why I'm posting here. The odds of me finding a fully enlightened master that will help me like this are really slim, I feel like.
Does anyone have any suggestions of what I should do? Im sooo tired of living in this dull, empty, lifeless and loveless reality. Thanks... and thanks also for reading., this is definitely a bit long.
