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Leo do you mean this literally? This is the biggest part of your absolute infinity/god videos that has fucked with me. You mean that you and I (as deviations of the same one God) are literally the same being manifest in different forms. So I am my mom and my dad and my third grade math teacher I just have no awareness of this?

Check out Leo's video on holotropic breath work. I've used this technique on and off for the past two years and have had some huge emotional releases (sadness, anger, regret, etc.) In the days after these emotional releases, I've felt much more grateful, happy and peaceful. If your goal is to 'purify your soul' this might be a good place to consider starting.

This past week hasn't been too great in terms of waking up at the right time. I don't have any need to wake up at 5am rather than 6am or 7am and am realizing how difficult it is to get to bed early enough to get enough sleep. Also, I liked the stars at first but it seems like quite an uphill battle waking myself up this early in the morning. Just doesn't feel like its necessary given all the other things I'm doing. I'm going to shift this wake/sleep cycle to 10pm-6am. Also, I do much better when my routines are automated and the same every morning. I am going to begin each day with a walk in the Canyon/SMC hills repeating the same affirmations for about 30-60 minutes. Then I'll go and do some SDS and visualizations for another hour or so. All in all I should be done between 8 and 9am. Going for a walk really wakes me up/become more alert for my seated meditations. The goal of this morning routine is to be as enjoyable and effortless as possible while producing the most results as quickly as possible. Incantations: I am so happy and grateful now that I have such a wildly successful eCommerce business. I am so happy and grateful now that I easily earn 100,000 dollars per month. I am a multi millionaire. God's wealth is circulating in my life, his wealth flows to me in avalanches of abundance. All of my needs, desires, and goals are met instantaneously by Infinite Intelligence for I am one with God and God is everything. My attention has been scattered over the past week and my energy has been pretty low. I am going to take a few weeks break from smoking weed as I don't think this is helping me in any beneficial way right now. I am trying to find a place to do some holotropic breath work to continue the emotional purging I began months ago. My mind isn't focused right now, I'll post a follow up tomorrow on 9/17 by 7pm with more details and reflections.

I'll start this with some background for anyone interested in following along on this journey. I am currently taking a quarter off from college (Cal Poly for any of you 'stangs out there) to focus on building my eCommerce businesses and more importantly developing myself through a few specific meditation/reprogramming techniques. I am committing to following this format and all of the techniques outlined below until January 1, 2019 where I'll reflect on what has changed in my life both in terms of the external results and my internal being. I'll very specifically detail below my vision, gauge/definition of 'success' and questions for self reflection/analysis. Also before I begin, most of this is written for my own sake in the future; if I begin to question my practices or consider quitting, I'll come to this and know exactly why I'm doing what I'm doing. One of my biggest weaknesses/vices right now is my lack of self enforced discipline and consistency over a long period of time. I am great at coming out of the gate passionately but I struggle to maintain my daily practices and consistent growth over the long term. Sure, meditating for an hour a day for 3 days in a row may feel good at the time, but in the grand scale of my life my progress has been greatly thwarted by an inability to maintain specific practices for months and years on end. When I have been consistent in my diet or meditation or exercise I've seen some tremendous growth within a 3-6 month period. Additionally, as I have no external structure or discipline being applied to myself right now I must take accountability and apply this 'pressure' on myself. This summer over the past 3 months is the first time in years that I have not either been in school or working a full time job where my time is obviously very regimented. This has been a learning process thus far and I know my progress (or relative lack thereof) is due to nobody's fault but my own. All that being said, I'm eager to embark upon this journey and really start building the life I want and becoming the man I'd like to be. I am viewing these next 4 months as building as strong of a foundation/infrastructure as possible for the future. This won't be super pretty or glamorous; if all is done according to plan (which it never does) my time will be highly organized and centered around various meditation techniques, business growth, exercise and some fun time with the girlfriend. I am not attempting to self actualize or become enlightened or transcend my SD stage right now. I have two primary goals. First is to build my business large enough such that post graduation I am financially independent and can focus my time/energy as I please. Second (and arguably most important) is to create such a deeply entrenched habit of meditation that I'll have this habit for the rest of my life. Also, if my vision is to live life on my own terms these next few months will be excellent building blocks for making that happen. As for the specifics, I'll be utilizing a variety of techniques. What I am most concerned with is whether I am actually sitting down to meditate for the predetermined time, reading the books per my timeline or completing my work tasks (i.e. sticking to the plan and maintaining discipline). For the meditation techniques I'll be using Wim Hof breathing, strong determination sitting, Chi Gong, lovingkindness/gratitude, concentration on one phenomena, potentially some mindfulness, and finally some visualization/affirmations. I'm going to be pretty flexible about which practices I'm doing on a day to day basis so long as I meet the daily time minimums and adhere to the protocols outlined in this journal. I'm going to make sure to have a specific intention for which meditation I'll do each day rather than just saying willy nilly figuring it out when I begin. I'll be spending from 5am-7am every morning doing a variety of these exercises (non negotiable). Win the morning, win the day! I'll track this stuff and post here about the techniques of the day/reflections on the benefits and challenges. After this, I'll read for 30-60 minutes and take notes in one of my physical notebooks. I'll detail in subsequent posts my reading timeline. With business, I'll be detailing each night the next day's tasks and tracking time spent/work accomplished. So far this summer I haven't been super productive/organized and have dilly dallied around and wasted a decent amount of time. Finally, each night I'll be reading/visualizing/praying my external vision and who I want to be. I've been enough of a Nazi about all the other stuff so I'm not going to be outlining some 1200 step protocol for this, just get there. My shoulder/back is somewhat fucked up right now so I'm hoping I'll be able to get back in to the gym soon; I'm not too concerned about this though. Enough for now, I'll post tomorrow with my visions/goals and reflections on the first day. In a few days I'll post my gauge for 'success' and questions of self reflection around the turn of the year.

@Nahm Thank you, I really appreciate the response! I understand what you mean about the letting go vs adding, I guess its just so simple that the mind likes to confuse things and pretend it needs to 'learn something new.' I've experienced a deep intuitive understanding/awareness of my own awareness and maintained this state probably for 2 months when I was meditating consistently. I could feel the underlying life wherever I was walking and really felt into the silence. This was about two years ago after 3-6 months of daily practice. I haven't understood why but I've had such a difficult time just sitting down for 30 minutes a day to do the work but it makes much more sense now; the ego knows whats coming and comes up with a hundred and one reasons why it needs to 'read some book' or 'get lunch' or whatever other excuse to continue its reign of control. Really is just an unlearning of all that is false and creating space for the deep understanding to come through as you said. Do you think love is something that you practice and cultivate or that just naturally flows into and through your life when you let it? Feels like I'm on the brink of really remembering my true existential nature again, I just have to get out of my own way and allow it to unfold. All of what you said was very helpful! Thanks again.

I'm curious how many people have successfully reprogrammed their subconscious mind to believe that they are already in possession of their dreams/goals and have later manifested those goals. If anyone has any examples of this happening in their lives that would be great. My main question is what practical tips/suggestions would you have? I have been consistently using the same affirmations for the past few weeks and know exactly what my desired outcome. I'm planning on using these same visualizations and affirmations everyday for a minimum of 30 minutes until January 1, 2019. If you could share specifically what you did during this process and how you planted seeds into your subconscious mind effectively that would be great. I've read Psycho-cybernetics and a few more esoteric books about LOA so I understand the goal seeking mechanism of the subconscious mind but hearing from real people would only help me (and whoever else browses this thread) to have more faith in this manifestation process. PS I realize that massive action is required for actualizing any goal, not just wishing upon a star.

@Nahm I've been noticing recently that I'm having these 'flashes of inspiration' and these intuitive hunches calling me. I intuitively feel that the physical reality I am experiencing is entirely a function of the ideas, images and emotions I have previously held and I guess the only real way to know is through self experimentation and reflection. I've been trying to strengthen my connection with the all present intelligence (that I am beginning to experience directly more and more through meditation), I am hesitant to rip the band aid off but I am strongly contemplating taking 5 Meo or a heroic dose of shrooms/LSD. I've had a slight ego death once on shrooms on about 5g's when I felt I was fully in a dream and would be stuck here infinitely, feeling myself expanding into the sky and the surrounding valley. I resisted this like all hell and things went downhill. I couldn't explain it at the time but I got this deep irrational fear and a literal feeling that I was dying. I remember looking at my two buddies and seeing absolute dread in them (my projections). I know that I caused this and wouldn't just let go. I feel much more prepared to surrender to this experience the next time, I am just concerned about how this will effect me after. I'm living with my parents right now (I'd do it elsewhere obviously) but am not sure if this is a safe environment. I guess I'm just wondering what your knowledge (or anyone else reading) is of once you "stop pretending you were born,' what happens afterwards? Does this effect your ability to function normally for a few weeks?

@Buba Everything you've described so far sounds like Eckhart Tolle's experience with a similar situation. In the introduction of the Power of Now he describes: "Until my thirteith year, I lived in a state of almost continuous anxiety interspersed with periods of suicidal depression. It feels now as if I am talking about me past lifetime or somebody else's life. One night not long after my twenty-ninth birthday, I woke up in the early hours with a feeling of absolute red. I had woken up with such a feeling many times before, but this time it was more intense than it had ever been. The silence of the night, the vague outlines of the furniture in the dark room, the distant noise of a passing train - everything felt so alien, so hostile, and so utterly meaningless that it created in me a deep loathing of the world. The most loathsome thing of all, however, was my own existence. What was the point in continuing to live with this burden of misery? Why carry on with this continuous struggle? I could feel that a deep longing for annihilation, for nonexistence, was now becoming much stronger than the instinctive desire to continue to live. 'I cannot live with myself any longer.' This was the thought that kept repeating itself in my mind. Then suddenly I became aware of what a peculiar thought it was. 'Am I one or two? If I cannot live with myself, there must be two of me: the 'I' and the 'self' that 'I' cannot live with.' ' Maybe, only one of them is real.' I was so stunned by this strange realization that my mind stopped. I was fully conscious but there were no more thoughts. Then I felt drawn into what seemed like a vortex of energy. It was a slow movement at first and then accelerated. I was gripped by an intense fear, and my body started to shake. I heard the words 'resist nothing,' as if spoken inside my chest. I could feel myself being sucked into a void. It felt as if the void was inside myself rather than outside. Suddenly, there was no more fear, and I let myself fall into that void. I have no recollection of what happened after that. I was awakened by the chirping of a bird outside the window. I had never heard such a sound before. My eyes were still closed, and I saw the image of a precious diamond. Yes, if a diamond could make a sound, this is what it would be like. I opened my eyes. The first light of dawn was filtering through the curtains. Without any thought, I felt, I knew, that there is infinitely more to light than we realize. That soft luminosity filtering through the curtains was love itself. Tears came into my eyes. I got up and walked around the room. I recognized the room, and yet i knew that i had never truly seen it before. Everything was fresh and pristine, as if it had just come into existence. Picked up things, a pencil, an empty bottle, marveling at the beauty and aliveness of it all. That day I walked around the city in utter amazement at the miracle of life on Earth, as if i had just been born into this world. For the next five months, I lived in a state of uninterrupted deep peace and bliss. After that, it diminished somewhat in intensity, or perhaps it just seemed to because it became my natural state. I could still function in the world, although I realized that nothing I ever did could possibly add anything to what I already had." It only gets better from here. If you want to hear directly from someone who has gone through literally the exact same thing as you and come out the other side 'as if I had just been born into this world' and 'in a state of uninterrupted deep peace and bliss' then get this book the Power of Now.

You guys may be familiar with Dave Asprey, the founder of BulletProof. He has also created a 'program' called 40 Years of Zen. Supposedly utilizes EEG machines to help patients train themselves within a week to have similar results as 40 year meditators. Obviously this is his marketing, but I'm curious what peoples thoughts are on this. My main question, and I'm sure if I reflected hard enough on some of Leo's content I could probably answer this myself, is to what extent someone's emotional state and level of consciousness are based on their particular neurology, brain functioning, hormone levels and neurotransmitters. I would speculate that these things have a factor in determining one's creativity and cognitive ability; I'm just having trouble reconciling this with consistent meditation and psychedelic use. Is consciousness and performance dependent on brain functioning? Here's a link to 40 years: https://40yearsofzen.com

Can't comment on your specific question but Elliott has some unbelievable content and is pretty damn evolved. You wouldn't think so upon first glance but if you take enough time browsing through his channel he details his personal evolution and his philosophies on shadow work, bioenergetics/emotional therapy, mature masculinity, etc. I guess I just have a man crush on the guy but I'd keep checking him out.

Any suggestions on books (I have your book list) about the neuroscience of psychedelics. I'm currently reading the Kundalini one and am trying to understand what changes are happening within the brain. I see the 5 Meo DMT ones and one or two specific to the brain. My parents are very anti psychedelic and I have trouble clearly articulating to them anything about the physiological/chemical impacts within the brain. They'll continuously mention how LSD is a chemical that is changing the structure of the brain and I do not have a deep enough grasp on this to explain that this is having positive effects and in what specific ways it is doing so.

I thought of this metaphor today whilst microdosing, pretty sure Leo said it at some point. The brain/human biology acts as a vessel or conduit for consciousness to come through and express itself. The consciousness is already in the ether/existence, the human brain (or a dog or tree) are just what allows it to take a particular form and type on a computer on Actualized.org Also, not totally sure how to explain this but I've been noticing more and more recently how God is speaking to me in weird coincidences and honestly animals. The weird outside alarm goes off right as my girlfriend and I squabble, the cows on the ranch near the park today starts mooing like a motherfucker literally immediately when I have the thought 'are there different levels of consciousness?' and other similar questions along this line. I've had these weird synchronicitys on and off the past two years (since beginning meditation and psychedelics) and notice a pretty direct correlation to my sense of connection/communication with God how much time I am spending meditating/journaling and taking time to sit in silence outside. I guess its slightly irrelevant to understand all the detailed nuances of the brain if the goal is to raise my consciousness; merely conducting these spiritual experiments on my own life and observing the subtle changes. If one's state of consciousness is based largely on what they are tapping in to/consuming (in terms of food, water, books, people, and a whole host of factors), then subtle changes will make an individual more prepared for the consciousness already in existence to express itself through them. Eating more greens and cutting out soda then raises someone's consciousness for two reasons. The inherent consciousness/energy of the food they're consuming but also the consciousness through which they approach their entire diet (i.e. just some shit they throw in their on Bart to work versus months of research and optimization). I keep using the word consciousness but today I spent most of the day sort of tripping and realizing that it really fundamentally is just about shifting consciousness and allowing ourselves to connect with what is already there in the ether.

Maybe a stretch here but in your Infinite Intelligence video I recall you saying the Infinite could literally manifest anything it wanted. If enough people could connect with and realize the Infinite, could we increase the amount of physical resources on Earth? Like is the amount of water or fossil fuels or silicon predetermined or can this be altered at all? I'm probably misinterpreting what you'd said.

Depends how you categorize/define depression. I'm 22 years old now and would say that I lived for a decent part of my youth unaware of a certain level of depression/apathy. It took me some serious bioenergetics to realize how much emotional pain I had inside of myself that I had not addressed. Throughout my youth, I had used apathy and a 'don't give a fuck about anything' attitude unconsciously to protect myself from the pain I was feeling. I can only speak of my own experiences, maybe this is helpful to someone else who can relate. It's taken me consistent holotropic breath work, psychedelic use, meditation, yoga, journaling and on and off therapy over the years to actually realize that my apathy was just a failure to healthily handle my emotions and integrate my painful experiences.

@Leo Gura That makes a lot of sense, that's something that I've struggled over the past few months to understand. 'Why are these people who clearly have some limitations so popular?' I ask this more in regards to younger generations than people like JP but I can see that the underlying dynamic is that their SD stage and ideology is what makes them popular. They're able to reach people on an emotional level and poise as an expert in a particular field. Thank you for helping educate us all in this field, has seriously helped me understand my own shortcomings and how to more gracefully interact with my parents and close friends. Are you concerned at all that you may attract someone like JP shit talking you? Not that it would prevent you from continuing to do what you do, but it seems like this would just be a big distraction for you/Actualized.org having him/his followers on here trolling.

This is a question directly for Leo. Obviously you've been getting bigger and bigger over the past 5 or so years. Approaching 800k followers and continuing to grow. You're starting to talk more and more about other people (Jordan Peterson, Trump, Joe Rogan, Elon, etc.) and their SD stage/psychological mistakes. I'm curious, as I'm sure other viewers probably are as well, if you're considering speaking directly with some of these people or doing in person meetings with your listeners. If I remember correctly, you said you wouldn't want to talk with Jordan Peterson because of his fans response. I'd be pretty surprised if these guys don't hear about what's going on at Actualized.org given how big you're getting and how blatantly you talk about them. What're your thoughts on becoming more of a public figure and taking your message beyond actualized.org?

Alright so roughly three days in and a few key things stick out to me thus far. The first few days I was super tired as I'd gotten about 4-5 hours of sleep a night; adjusting to an earlier bed time has been more difficult then waking up early. For me to sleep a full 8 hours I'll need to be asleep by 9pm. What I'm going to be adding to this four month experiment is that I'll be in bed every night by 9pm. Getting to bed this early will require me to have a solid nightly routine (which I've been trying to instill for quite some time now anyways). This will be pretty simple and relaxing/calming. I'll make some Apple Cider Vinegar+honey 'tea' to help me get in to deep sleep and drink this while reading/visualizing my different visions. Additionally, I'll be lighting some candle/incense and playing some super peaceful music. Finally, I'll do some deep stretching/foam rolling/belly breathing; I'll just do whichever of these my body feels it needs. In terms of the early morning meditation, this has been awesome so far. When I go outside it's pitch black and I can see all the stars in the sky; this is a pretty majestic way to start and end the day, looking out into the Infinite. Around 6am the stars disappear and the fog starts to roll in. The sun doesn't really come out until around 9-10am I'd estimate. The first day I lied down for some conscious breathing and man was it freezing cold outside. I'm making sure to wear sweats, sweatshirt and have a thick blanket from now on. In the previous post I said I'd be flexible with the different practices I engage in, I'm reconsidering whether this is the best long term approach. I'll reflect back on this next week and see if I'd like to add anymore structure specifically to the type and duration of practice. That being said, my primary focus is first and foremost on adhering to my wake/sleep cycle and morning/evening rituals. My energy throughout the day has been getting better as I've grown more accustomed to these rhythms. I've noticed a quick 20 minute nap sometime between 3 and 5pm is super helpful. I've been wondering why I haven't had any urge to lift or exercise really for the past 3-6 months as I've lifted weights for the past 8 years. Upon reading 'Enlightenment Through the Path of Kundalini' the other day, I've realized I had a minor awakening in January. I'll go in to further detail with this in subsequent posts but suffice it to say a whole host of emotional issues/prior traumas arose when I was doing some bioenergetics and Osho Dynamic Meditation at Elliott Hulse's Grounding Camp. I mention all this as further background on where I am in life. All that being said, I'm ready to get back into lifting consistently again. As I used to be pretty damn strong (bench 315 and 250 power clean senior year high school - blah blah I'm a dick I know), I'd developed an ego about my athletic capabilities/knowledge base. Moving forward, I'm acting as if I'm a total newbie. I'm going to be relearning all of the major lifts (deadlift, squat, bench, OHP, rows, etc.) and deeply engraining the motor patterns in my nervous system. I'll be focusing first and foremost of perfect form and posture. I'm going to try to get my old football weight lifting coach to train me in these movements. I'll probably utilize a 5x5 plan but similar to the meditation, it's just about me actually getting there and bringing conscious awareness to the practice over a few months. The only potential things holding me back from lifting are my rotator cuff/shoulder which I may have torn like 3 months ago while boxing. Right now I have no idea when I'll be lifting, I'll let this flesh itself out. Also, as I was walking today I realized how much I miss the explosive energy required to sprint full fucking speed. Amazing how much this charges me up and let's me channel my warrior spirit in healthy ways. No plans right now about how I'll integrate this. In terms of the format I use for tracking everything I'm doing and reflecting, I'll make a post here a minimum of once a week and will upload by no later than 7pm on Sunday evening. I'll have a written log in one of my journals for the daily meditation practices, exercising and work completed. I won't really be tracking my diet as this really doesn't change much if at all (eggs and spinach for breakfast, a salad with olive oil, salmon, feta cheese, almonds and maybe some sardines for lunch, and then some salmon/chicken/clean protein source with some quinoa/brown rice for dinner). I'm considering getting all fancy and starting to make some different carb source 'meals' (like sweet potatoes, yams, butternut squash, pumpkin, etc.) If anyone is actually reading this and is curious why I'm doing it like this, I listen to the BulletProof protocol for healthy, suspect and toxic foods. I'll try to post the key takeaways/insights from the week as well as my adherence to the rules I've outlined (rituals, exercise, work). I said in the prior post that I would post my different visions but I'll wait until another post as this is already long. I've been making and refining these pretty seriously for the past 9 months. I've outlined in pretty vivid detail my vision for my financial life/physical possessions, my physical body/energy/emotions, my relationships, my business/entrepreneurship, who I want to be and what I want to contribute (legacy). Only one really missing right now is my 'spiritual goals' (open all chakras, regain my clairvoyance, full faith in connection with Infinite Intelligence, etc.) I'm going to transcribe all of these from my various journals into my OneNote CommonPlace journal and a physical notebook that I'll have by my bedside to read each morning and night as part of my rituals. Everything I've outlined these past two posts is mostly about the format/structure and practices I'll be engaging in over the next few months. My biggest goals, however, are to develop my character/build virtues (discipline, commitment, decisiveness, clarity of vision, objectivity, etc.) and test the Law of Attraction. I've heard about this through enough sources and have seen some pretty decent results in my life/'supernatural phenomena.' I want to see how powerful this truly is. Can I really build an eCommerce business within a year that does millions in sales? Can I really liberate myself from the dollars for hour trade system and travel the world while building a massive business and developing unbelievably deep relationships? Can I help my parents retire sooner? Can I help get the homeless family in Santa Rosa off the street? Can I truly manifest everything I have written down? I think the answer is yes with consistency, vision, discipline, faith and prolonged focus. I'm open to things changing but I am developing more and more faith in the old adage 'Ask and ye shall receive.' I've manifested countless things over the years (girlfriend, social skills, unexpected teachers, etc.) and I'm excited to conduct a 'personal scientific study' on the Law of Attraction. If anyone actually reads through all this stuff and has any pointers/comments, I'd love to connect; don't hesitate to comment or message me directly!

Everyone's diet will be slightly different depending on their 'metabolic type'. Someone with ancestry from Northern Europe will be more suited to eat a diet higher in animal fat/protein. Compare this to someone close to the equator whose ancestors were eating fruits and vegetables for hundreds of years. This will be where tracking your diet and making small changes and observing the effects it has on your body will be huge. For example, you eat no dairy for a week with all the same prescheduled foods and then the next week you have the exact same diet but the only adjustment is you introduce a glass of milk a day and see what it does to your body. This process will be how you and I and everyone else can best hone in on our unique diets; there's no one size fits all. All that being said, there are some foods that will be shit for pretty much everyone. This is the easiest, quickest way to make a positive change on your health. Figure out which foods (as another previous user listed) are not great. There will be conflicting information on the internet about all this stuff. True understanding of diet and health requires a deeper understanding of the human body (hormones, circadian rhythm, bacteria, mitochondria, etc). For example, many people advocate a vegan diet but reducing protein/cholesterol intake may have adverse effects on ones testosterone levels (once again where the tracking and experimentation will be incredibly valuable). Just my two cents.

Love this post! I'm signed up for my first retreat this coming November. Question for you, how long ago was this retreat and what's changed in the weeks/months since then (assuming its been a while)?

Appreciate the responses, you guys have given me some great things to consider. @RendHeaven I absolutely understand what you mean, Alpha M's presence and character are what make him successful more so than the specific content he's sharing. That's something I've been working on tremendously; improving my confidence and grounded-ness in public speaking through toastmasters and cold approach. This is what I've really been questioning recently; should I focus on developing an online presence/building my brand before pursuing some form of official coaching training. My plan has been to simultaneously take iPEC's training program over the next year and develop my credibility/reputation in the mean time through a youtube channel/blog. I fully anticipate the marketing aspect will be the most difficult part of building an independent coaching practice. My intention is to work in my early 20's as a health/wellness coach as I believe I will be able to work with other 20-35 year olds on this and be taken seriously. I have no delusions about my inexperience/lack of life perspective right now. After some practice with this form of mentoring (or whatever other specific form I choose to pursue) I think I'll be more equipped to address a greater variety of issues. Interested to hear your thoughts on this approach. PS I realize that as my first post on the website asking as a 22 year old about making 6 figures, I appear pretty immature. These are the most pressing issues to me right now on the brink of enrolling in a training program. Cheers! Kevin