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Shamanic/holotropic breathing definitely works as well as the Osho meditations. Look for a practitioner in your area, doing this stuff correctly, consistently on your own is very difficult. Would also recommend looking in to somatic experiencing or bioenergetic analysts.

Hey man can totally relate, being highly sensitive can certainly be challenging. I'd recommend looking in to Matt Kahn, he discusses the struggles of being an empath and absorbing others energy/internalizing beliefs and learning to love ourselves exactly as we are. Been something I've been working on a lot recently. Feel free to message me if you're curious about any other resources/thoughts on this.

So there are a lot of videos I've found throughout the YouTube landscape that discuss Twin Flames. The basic idea is that your TF is 'a mirror to you,' that this relationship has existed across many lifetimes and there will always be a connection between these two souls. Supposedly a TF is very very similar to you and reflects back all of your positive and negative qualities, the truth of who you are; also, being with 'another version of yourself' or 'your mirror' causes us to get triggered by one another very easily and to thus work through our emotional issues and evolve very rapidly. This was my experience with my ex and many of the ideas presented in YT videos seem to resonate with me, I'm just skeptical of this idea as a whole and am interested to hear from the actualized community. I'm curious if this is just a romanticized idea that has gotten traction throughout YT or if there is validity to it.

Just got a response back from one near me, past life regression and a recorded hypnosis session with predetermined questions to ask.

Has anyone here ever done a session of Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique? If so, what was your experience with it and would you recommend it?

I've had plenty of these. Mostly it's me being killed or someone else, not myself killing someone though. I'm no expert but that's a normal enough thing so I wouldn't let it freak you out. Try working on lucid dreaming and becoming more conscious whilst dreaming. When you 'wake up' to the fact that you are dreaming, some of the answers you are seeking will naturally reveal themselves (aka why you're having these dreams). Personally, I think this is just the subconscious mind or ego or whatever you'd like to call it throwing shit at you to try to wake you up (not literally wake up, but become conscious of the dream).

Okay so I've heard a fair amount on youtube from a guy named aaron doughty about dolores cannon, soul contracts and other new agey ideas. Not really sure what to think of it all but Dolores Cannon has written over a dozen books (I have yet to read any) about beings from other galaxies/solar systems coming and incarnating here on Earth to help awaken the planet. Also suggests that there is some sort of 'soul contract' that gets formed before one incarnates and we then forget. Dolores Cannon came to these conclusions after performing thousands of hypnosis sessions and having similar responses from people all around the world. Would love to hear others thoughts on Dolores Cannon, soul contracts, and whether any of this is true or just wishful/delusional thinking. My intuition is telling me this is true, just having trouble wrapping my mind around it all. Here is the description for one of her most popular books: In 1945 when the atomic bombs were dropped in WWII, our “protectors” and “watchers” in outer space saw that Earth was on a collision course with disaster. The prime directive of non-interference prevented them from taking any action, but then they came up with a brilliant plan to save Earth and assist her in her ascension. They couldn’t interfere from the “outside,” but maybe they could influence from the “inside.” So the call went out for volunteers to come and help. “Earth is in trouble – who wants to volunteer?” The native souls living on Earth were too caught up on the wheel of karma. The only hope was to ask for pure souls to come who had never been trapped on the karmic cycle. Dolores in her hypnosis work has discovered three waves of these volunteers. Some have come direct from the “Source” and have never lived in any type of physical body before. Others have lived as space beings on other planets or other dimensions. Because all memory is erased upon entry to the Earth dimension, they do not remember their assignment. Thus these beautiful souls have a difficult time adjusting to our chaotic world. These souls have a vital role to play as they help all of the rest of us ascend to the New Earth.

The deeper question comes from a realization I had today. I previously believed there was me exerting my will/desire on to the physical universe creating and interacting with matter, but the line between me and other/the universe/external world is becoming blurred. This is something I've been feeling for a few months, like I was literally mourning the loss of my own life/existence as if I had just died and left the Earth, very emotional experiences. Was struggling to understand if all the grieving/depression was just repressed stuff from my youth or literally having 'awoken' to a certain degree beforehand and these emotions were the integration process. No way to describe it other than just feeling like something/various parts of me were dying and going away. And then this ego mind comes in and just creates all this confusion (both in a literal sense of being confused about a specific thing and just a constant, underlying energy of uncertainty, as if I'm not in control). Is there a way for me to proactively understand/realize and integrate this or should I be patient? Do I need to seek the Truth to find it or will it force itself upon me now that I've seen so much? Even as I type that I intuitively feel the answer is that I need to want to know the Truth and be willing to accept it. This is the first time I've really been able to see clearly what has been happening along my journey the past 3-4 years. What I initially asked about manifesting is just a feeling of being blocked by life. Pretty much every step thus far of trying to start a YouTube channel there have been issues. Buy the tripod for my phone, gets shipped and is broken and returned. Buy another and my credit card doesn't work. Two weeks later have a tripod that works, record some videos and iPhone storage supposedly all full so I'm unable to record any more. Difficulty or confused more than I should be trying to upload the videos to my laptop. Then downloading the new iTunes software, password won't work and I'm just getting this intuition telling me to stop and come back to it later and that it will work, go and sit down and have a super meditative experience, come back and figure it out pretty easily. Also, physical muscular imbalances within my body and weird little postural kinks, like I can't stand comfortably or feel fully balanced. I am learning to trust the language of my heart and gut/intuition and follow it even if it goes against 'how I think it should be.' Like progressively surrendering control of life and struggling with trying to exert control, having some success, then sabotaging myself which feels like both my individual self that I think I am sabotaging and life around me (all the stuff listed above) conspiring against me. Guess the resolution is realizing that life and I are one, and not focusing on the intellectualization of this idea but the deep knowing and experiencing of Being. The question becomes, how can I deepen this knowing and fully experience it without using 5meo or other psychedelics. Once again, first time grasping this but my apprehension with 5meo and general confusion, lack of direction and just feeling detached from my intelligence and unable to think intelligently like I normally do seems to be just the ego doing what it can to stay active. I've been lost in my mind trying to intellectually understand this all when about this time 3 years ago I had become deeply conscious of myself as the witness of my talking ego, would merge with the silence and energy of my campus, and felt this deep compassion and connection with life. Like that time period doesn't feel like a series of different events, its just feels like a certain 'season of expansion.' Then using psychedelics a fair amount over the past 3 or so years after having 'forgotten' these realizations. Had multiple realizations of being within a dream, feeling scared shitless at first glimpse, got this physical feeling of terror like I was going to die and had no words to describe it to my friends at the time. This was the biggest thing its felt like I've been integrating at a deep deep level. Is this literally all just consciousness dreaming the formlessness of consciousness into form and experiencing itself as such. It seems as though writing this all out here has given me some pretty good clarity as to what's been going on. Its like the mind will have this expanded sense of consciousness and then the everyday mind, everyday experiences, the 'story of my life' and all the particulars cause me to 'forget'. The mind just wants to go on living and forget about it and distract me in whatever way possible from knowing this. Seems like this may be the reason for my self sabotaging behaviors, just ego trying to activate. Like it will create whatever story or rabbit hole or thing 'I need to do' rather than just accepting whatever the present moment entails. It feels like I'm ready to 'fully awaken' or to fully experience myself as God and really surrender to my own death. If you read this far, thank you. Just typing this out and fleshing out my ideas have given me tremendous clarity.

Not sure how to ask this question but I think you will understand the gist of what I'm suggesting. Lately as I've been trying to work it seems like all these little external blocks are getting in my way that really should not be/don't fully make sense. It feels partially like I am self sabotaging and making things more difficult for myself but more interestingly it feels as though 'life' or something external from me is blocking me and basically telling me to wait and to spend more time simply being. I guess my question is can life/god/spirit whatever you wanna call it literally create/manifest problems to get me to stop doing stuff? Could just be that these are regular technical issues that I have to work through, but my intuition is telling me that these are manifestations telling me to slow down and be with myself. This stuff has been happening a fair amount for the past few months and it feels most like the awakenings I've had are 'forcing' me to acknowledge the truth of reality and to integrate all the various things I've realized. As if Source won't let me progress with my life/business as I would like until I acknowledge it fully. Not sure how to reconcile this. Any thoughts greatly appreciated!

It's irrelevant whether it is scientifically provable or not, does it help you? When you have experimented for yourself by using this technique, do you feel better? Do you feel as though it is helping? Whether there is anything quantifiable at play here is not really the question. If all it does is make your emotional state a little higher, isn't that useful?

Hey man I can relate to this. I actually decided to drop out after finishing my 3rd year of school and realizing the BS of school and much of life in general. What your going through makes total sense and many many others on this forum have gone through similar experiences (myself included.) Its difficult as fuck, no denying that. You'll be good though, you've got this. Just put one foot in front of the other and keep moving. This chaos, emotional tumult you are experiencing is testing your faith. This time period will be the foundation for your life moving forward. The more you fight this process, the more difficult it will become, surrender and embrace whatever arises. Would highly recommend you read/watch some videos to comfort yourself that no you are not going insane (although it may certainly feel like that). Leo's 'Dark side of Meditation' video, 'The End of Your World' by Adyashanti, and "You're not Crazy, You're Awakening". We get in to this work thinking its rainbows and butterflies not realizing how destructive of a process it actually is. Everything untrue, every illusion must be let go of/die off before Truth can be revealed. Keep going.

There are a whole bunch of different trainings, certifications and specialties that one can receive. Just do a quick google search. Some potentially useful places to look are: A 'yoga therapist' with training beyond the traditional 200 hours, a somatic therapist focuses on trauma release, bioenergetic analysts, meditation teachers, holotropic breath work practitioners, Reiki practitioners. A more traditional/Western therapist with some more Eastern/esoteric training is a 'transcendental psychologist.' Good luck in your search.

@Nahm @Leo Gura Does God/the Absolute lose any of its magnificence over time or is every trip and recognition of God as beautiful as the first glimpse?

Why does existence existence in the first place? Why does anything exist (or seemingly exist) at all? I'm going to take a guess at this and say its not some logical/rational reason but moreso just for fucksake, just for pure happiness, enjoyment and play. Why would God spawn himself, and thus the entire Universe in to being? I've come to understand life on Earth more and more to be analogous to a school where we come to learn various spiritual lessons and develop ourselves more and more. Beyond this though, why would God need this experience? Why would he want it? I think the answer is just to simply marvel in his (its) own creation. Let me know your thoughts on this. My guess is I'd be able to reconcile this with some direct experiences of Absolute Infinity, is this the case or are there any non 5Meo ways of understanding God's motivations?

Do you personally have any 'regrets' about awakening to this? Are there any 'negatives' you've experienced when realizing the Truth? Once again, I know I'm viewing this from the ego/unenlightened perspective but that being said, do you ever wish you just lived a normal life and hadn't pursued this all?

@joeyi99 Selling physical products

I'm getting ready to move sometime within the next 3-6 months as my online business/savings are now allowing me to travel. I'm looking to meet, interact and learn from some saintly type people. I have no desire in engaging with priests or any dogmatic religious folk. Any suggestions on how to connect with people who embody love, service and deep spirituality?

@Emerald Really appreciate how open you've been with your story. Do you think slut shaming will ever really fully go away? It seems as though this is something that is evolutionary wired within both men and women. As a man, you want to be cautious that you don't raise another man's baby. As a woman, you don't want to seem promiscuous, and thus untrustworthy for then men will not want you. Clearly there are some serious issues between masculinity and femininity that need to be worked out. I believe most of this is just a collective mirroring of issues held within most individuals i.e. most men and women have not healthily integrated both masculinity and femininity within their psyche. Women are 'afraid' of masculinity and men are 'afraid' of femininity. Seems to me that for society to evolve towards a healthier, more balanced existence we need to focus on our own personal integration. Many men deny their emotions and try to be rigid and stoic. The pendulum is swinging the other direction now, however. Its pretty clear to see that there are a lot of 'soft' men who have lost some of their masculine edge by venturing in to their feminine/emotional nature. They've become overly passive, lacking the assertiveness, confidence and purpose of mature masculinity. On the other hand, there are a lot of women who would love nothing more than to be a nurturing, loving mother but are told that this is detrimental to the female cause, that this somehow enforces a patriarchal system. What if a woman just wants to be a mom and feels that thats why she is here on Earth? I agree with many of the tenants of feminism but this incredible weight placed on 'I'm a strong independent woman who don't need no man' seems to be causing some issues. Women can certainly have careers and masculine pursuits, but similar to men becoming overly 'soft' it seems as though many women are overly 'hard.' Many businesswomen are unable to turn work off and return back to the spontaneity, compassion, and connection that is the feminine. Both the softness and hardness in men and women are creating these plutonic, friend like relationships rather than a truly polarized, passionate one, hence the absurdly high rates of divorce and the rise of casual dating that is Tinder. Just some food for thought, figured you'd have some interesting thoughts on this.

This envy goes away when you realize that hot girls who never have to work for anything in their lives later end up being screwed. They've been complimented, validated, given love, sex and money since they were very young. All of their confidence is externally based and they are not forced to develop their character from the inside out. When their looks start to deteriorate later in life, this is super difficult for many of them as this is their entire basis for their self worth. A man on the other hand (regardless of his looks) must develop himself if he wishes to move up the social ladder and attain a higher caliber woman. Not being given everything on a silver platter is a blessing. If tomorrow you woke up rich as fuck, super hot girlfriend, enlightened, etc etc everything you ever wanted...you'd enjoy those things for sure but you wouldn't feel any different looking in the mirror. You wouldn't appreciate those gifts the same as if you'd earned them through hard work. You as a man get to go out and earn your life, to be the main driver of your success, nobody else. That's pretty awesome if you ask me...

The basic underlying assertion that you are making here essentially is that depression/suicidal thoughts are somehow bad. On the contrary they can be incredibly transformative if viewed in a healthy, mindful way. What you are speaking about is mostly complaining, having a negative outlook on life, and feeling sorry for oneself, this is different than depression. So yes, what you've said about making your life a service to others is very valuable advice and will certainly help a large number of people to transcend their own negativity. Spiritual depression on the other hand is a different matter. It is often a sign of tremendous spiritual growth. As one progresses along the path and develops a deeper understanding of their ego, their emotions and their unconscious behaviors, they begin to detach/dis-identify with the voice in their head. This is a slow dying off of the ego, which the ego hates and will do anything to prevent. The ego acts like a toddler and throws a temper tantrum to try to get you to re-identify with it. So feelings of depression, lack of meaning or hope in one's life is often times an ego backlash, the ego throwing some nasty shit at you to get you to identify. It wants you to say "I am depressed" "I am this I am that" blah blah. Its just grasping at straws as its tyranny fades away. The key is mindfulness "Ah interesting there's some depressed feelings inside of me, let's explore them" all the while realizing that this depression is not you but merely a fleeting, temporary experience to be worked through.

Hey guys/gals, recently just had a breakup with my GF of a year about 2 weeks ago. Loved her very much and she I, probably would make a great mother/wife in a decade or so. She broke up with me and at first I was totally cool with it and honestly thought it was the best thing for both of us. Since then, I've had what I think are ego backlashes. Like in the grand scheme of my life I recognize this is fully necessary for both of our individual development as well as the potential for any sort of relationship in the future. Logically I know this breakup is a good thing. I keep getting emotional and needy and like trying to reconnect with her though. I also have this weird desire to create drama with her, its like this powerful urge to just text her shit I know will trigger her. I don't know how to explain it any way other than an ego backlash. Is this just my needy, insecure, lonely, etc. thoughts/emotions being brought to the surface by this event? Is this just me ego failing to let go (even though I know on a deep, intuitive level it is for the best) and trying to grasp at what once was? Is this my ego feeling a sort of loss of self and trying to strike back? I'm being as introspect and mindful as possible right now, if anyone has some experience/thoughts with this let me know.

'Pickup' is neither inherently good nor bad, its all your mindset and behaviors to it. Is sleeping with a bunch of women a way that your ego just masks its deeper insecurities and inability to really connect with a woman on an emotional level? Is this player lifestyle a bandaid from a lack of connection with your mother? Don't think I need to say it but these are not good. If you recognize that you are socially anxious, lack confidence, and have a genuine desire to connect with and understand women on a deeper level, that's an entirely different situation. Consider why it is that you are interested in this in the first place. If everything went perfectly for you along this 'pickup journey' for the next 2-5 years, where would you be? What type of man would you be? What would you be proud of? What behaviors would you have learned to integrate in to your personality?

Thank you all for the responses! @Nahm I've listened to him some but its been a while, guess its time to listen to 'Ask and It Is Given' again! Thanks for the suggestion.

Aside from merely achieving a higher income and a greater degree of financial stability, what are some practical ways that one can reduce any fears/stresses around money? I understand that having more money will never fully solve this issue. Right now my thoughts are using affirmations, using grounding exercises/bioenergetics and visualization. Any other techniques would be greatly appreciated!

@TheAvatarState I've had many deep realizations of not being my ego/realizing I'm just playing a character over the past 4 years and will reside in this state for a few weeks but then I inevitably fall back into daily life and get tricked back in to identification, I'm assuming this is part of the process as the ego will do everything it can to fight to survive. Is this par for the course? It seems over time as I move through these cycles and become re-identified that I gain a deeper understanding of what the ego is and how it operates.