karmalan

I don't know much about this subject but I'd love to be going to Kathmandu. Wish you luck with your meditation. Remember every session of meditation is bringing you closer to your goal, no matter how far away it may seem

That's why we should always be in search of enlightenment. Life is an endless cycle of birth and death. The only permanent end to suffering is to be enlightened

You'll be fine. Have your favourite music ready, I experienced synthesesia my first trip and I could feel the music in my ears, was really cool. Looks like you've prepared for this so you should have nothing to fear. It's always scary when you try something new but if you have good preparation and good intentions you will have a good time. The shrooms amplify what is already inside you, enjoy it and I hope you find some new knowledge (you will). I have social anxiety too, I much prefer to take shrooms alone. Shrooms intensify your emotions so if you are anxious you will feel very anxious. But don't fear it, they won't kill you and you will definitely get something from the experience

I haven't experienced ayuhuasca but have taken a very high dose of DMT. Call me crazy, I am not recommending this because it could have a negative impact but if you use a high enough dosage of ayuhuasca then you will have no option but to submit and let the substance show you what you need to know. Let the substance remove the ego, if you take enough it will happen. This might not be good advice but it worked for me. I experienced the ultimate reality on DMT. At the moment I'm studying the words of Hindu and Buddhist gurus who reached the state of nirvana and they all say the exact same things that I believe after my experience. It's a tragedy that the experience can't be put into human words. It's impossible to explain because it is something that doesn't exist in this realm of "reality"

After smoking a very high dose of actual DMT, I am certain I reached the state of enlightenment. After this experience i researched a lot of Hindu and Buddhist gurus and their version was described exactly as my own experience. I've now started studying about Hinduism and Buddhism trying to find the right path to get to this state through meditation so I can learn how to avoid rebirth