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@Javfly33 just go to sleep. That's enough.

How can one make or create the clarity? Surrendering, or empty mind?

Definitely brother. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Definitely brother. I believe purpose is the hardest the suffering gets you get more close to Truth. Break your heart untill it opens. Rumi. Therefore, many religious people say that if bad things happens to you in your life that makes you more closer to god or truth.

Guys after suffering days due to my child condition, MDD and anxiety hit me, I couldn't sit in the chair. I had very bad feelings for days. I had lived terrible days, hours, minutes and seconds. And last hit, which is the pacemaker surgery of mine came to the surface and I had a surgery. I had no choice left but surrendering. It was the point that I lost my all hope, literally all hope. Now I surrender, I have no expectations, pleasure, pain, questions ( which is created me). Now, I am just free, because I am death. I don't give a fuck whatever happens to me anymore. That's all. I accepted fundamentally, deeply that nothing is under my control and therefore surrender. Fucking everything is in my head. I felt like I just shot my head like movie fight club. Now I am done. Whatever happens let it happens.

I think, trying to stop is the hell, but letting go and surrender is the key/heaven. And in order to do that self must be gone or surrendered so to speak.

Have you ever heard or do you know how to use this seed? According to Sufi and shaman sources Rumi and many shaman's used to use it.

@What Am I sure man, great. Thank you very much for the explanation, your help and time.

Have you ever done it?

Wow. Thank you very much. It says, real name is peganum seed. Have you ever done maoi? If it is not done correctly, it seems like very dangerous stuff, because it affects as dmt and Ayahuasca at the same time. I don't know what should I do? I gotta learn from someone, who is professional I think. What do you think?

What is that?

It real name is Üzerlik Tohumu, it is way much powerful than dmt ( if you know how to use it). I have it, but I don't know how to use it. It will drive me crazy, even if I stopped pychedelics.

Of course! Volunteerly, I killed myself many times. Therefore, I was addicted to pychedelics, just stopped consuming them. I love to kill my mind or myself, because I (self) hate the self too much.

I definitely agree about the soul. However, as a body I am just a flesh meat for lion. So it does show that I am just a poor human for him, therefore not important.

You can understand your importancy when you face with a lion in jungle.

Whatever we say is not important, just a personal opinion. We are not important.

Hoe do you even know that there is such thing as self? Who told or teach you? Imo, self is just a word, and any word is an illusion. Because, it can be toughed and learn. Truth has nothing to with mind and nor understanding.

Moreover, i have no idea what is an i.

I have no idea.

Have you even wonder, how can the one who ask these so called questions can be real?

Mind can successfully shoot itself. Have you tried? İ liked it very much. You should try. As die before you die. Rumi!

@creativepursuit why not, let's do it.

@Javfly33 nice explanation. But, why do you even need to understand it in the first place?

Yeah yeah right.

İ really don't give a fuck anymore. İ let go. No more purpose, nor question. Just freedom and being. That's all.

Even if there is no light, I don't even care anymore. This is the end of ego, fuck it, fuck the mind, fuck the controlling.