James123

Oh ok. İt is good that you are not in suicidal mood. Because, i was in the rush lol. For me, personally, long trips are always more beneficial. But, it is just a personal opinion. Shrooms, specially high dosage of shrooms are worst than Lsd afterwards.

İ don't claim on anything. İ am just saying what i am suppose to say, either you believe or not. There is absolute answer of all the question, there is no such thing as question. Peace!

The thing is there is no others nor me. Just a game, not even, because game has purpose. Just a play.

There is no such thing as existence. You are trying to get answer from illusion. Lol. If something is not exist, hoe can you get the correct answer lol.

No worries brother anytime. Moreover, Imo, firstly, you should try to look for what You really are. Because, you are not this body believe me, it is just temporary reflection. It is a gift of surrendering the ego, because, suffering happens to ego, not You. But you think that ego is you, but it is not. Therefore, your real answer is recognizing that what You really are. But, this is not an easy path. Because, the one who got hit by construction truck will die. Additionally, do you live in us? Ceremonial 5 Meo includes so much toxic. İmo, you should get powder 5meo, if you can. Or dry shrooms. They will open you up like a flower. Specially, if you eat fresh lemon after consuming the shrooms, which is at least 5 gr within darkness and silence.

Papaji has great answer.

We do not have an ass to surrender completely, risk everything for consciousness. Prophets has died for it. What I am doing is I have recognize what enlightenment is and having fun with illusion. These people, realized that top of that they still chase to spread to world. I still don't know why.

İ am very sorry what you went through brother. I hope you are doing well right now and recover as soon as possible. İ was one of the top model in NY. After work, i had sudden heart pain in my heart. Doctors told me that my aort walve is ripped and i have to go to open heart surgery asap. They gave me 30 percent change to survive. Now i have a mechanical walve, use cumodin, and have pacemaker (i had to stop working out, my job, my entire career). Year later, my dad passed away at 54. Next month i had a grandma's seizure. Now i am on keppra too. These happened between 2015-2017. That's how my spiritual journey started. İ was suicidal, depressed, have no job and no money etc... As you. Than i started to question why i am in this world and what is the purpose of life. İ was watching Leo's videos and about to suicede at that time. When i see his video about shrooms, i started to consume dry shrooms and have pychedelic trips. However, my suicidal depression wasn't gone. One day, i was about to suicede and at that time watched the video heroic dose of shrooms which is 5 gr (if you take more of them, you can die). Than i decided that, either i will suicide or take 10 gr dried shrooms, because, i was going to suicide anyway, these 2 actions will kill me. But, I have last chance to life with consuming the shrooms (but I took the risk to die, because my another option was suicide). After my trip i died anyway. However, I came back almost with different DNA, as different person, old James was gone. I do not recommend to anyone to use such heroic doses. So, my story is pretty much as yours. Years later (2022), meditation, contemplation, pychedelic trips, and retreats, I have recognize that the one who experience these stuff is just an so called illusion or fragment / gift of Divine's imagination. So, you are on right track, keep going. You are lucky that you get bunch of suffering. In spirituality, suffering is gift of God. You can PM me if you have any help or for anything.

Definitely 💯

You are most welcome 🤗 🤗 🤗

Sure, have fun 😊 by the way if you explain this mu h you definitely suffer a lot. 😂 😂 Lol

That's your conditioning and excuse. You are in the spiritual world. You just take so seriously therefore it seems to be real and suffering world for you.

Love you toooooooooooooooooo.

Of course love is dual and can be it. But in this so called human form when You be, all there is Love. Moreover, it has nothing to do with love you mention as hate. That's a personal love what i am saying is love to universe.

You are the love. Self only creates the self. Not self love, i am referring to universal love.

For one minute, forget everything you had experienced, lay back, open the record player, listen the song you love.

Of course. The self is a cloud. Without self, sky is beatiful, pure, bliss and empty. It is the Life. You have to walk the path brother. Knowing will not help you.

This is not correct. Enlightment will wipe you out.

Satisfaction is directly related with our needs such as music, food, sex, astrology, law of attraction etc... Satisfaction is the main feeling of self. Love fulfill us completely, takes control over us, overwhelm us. İmagine the girl or men you be in love so much, which only based on one body and person. Real Love is being in love entirely with Allah, God and Universe, with everything . That's how it feels, overwhelmes, makes you dizzy and burnes till bone to bones. This is the purpose of anything, purpose of being alive. Have you ever be in Love? No one can tell you, But you know you are in Love.

I totally get what you mean. But quite mind is way completely deep, there is no imgination there. I am not denying existence but It is exist as a drop within an ocean. Therefore, not a big deal. All left is Love.

Unfortunately not brother. Deep Sleep=Before so called Birth= After Death=Now are identical because there is no such thing as brain, thought or etc... Only differences is you are attached to so called thoughts, that creates so called life. We are so called living in and on Nothing. Blink an eye of endless and infinite ocean. Because it never begins.

Your true self is already Love. You are Love. Self is suffering and you call it love. Untruthfulness is not love, it is satisfaction.

This is just an imagination. İf there is a snake in front of you right now, if it doesn't bite you at the moment, and you think it will bite you, that's an imagination. Because there is no future. Just now.

Exactly. Therefore, Body is just a thought or a memory.

@Vynce They will never find the Love. Because, Finding the Love is giving up the self.