James123

Great, amazing. Thank you very much brother!!!

@Someone here thank you very much brother. İ really do appreciate. İ am taking Wellbutrin (300 mg) and abizol (10mg) at the total for per day.

@Leo Gura what do you think about my situation? Do you think that i am fucked up in the head?

Great answer, thank you. İ have a heart condition and had a open heart surgery 10 years ago. İ think, i suppressed many emotions and feelings there. Moreover, i consumed lots of weed, pychedelics and other drugs, which destroyed my emotions and thinking process. Even if , i recognize that i am nothing. The life is going very though for me. Do you have any other suggestions about having a kid or being a parent?

Thank you very much brother. İ really appreciate. Moreover, i am very happy for you and your kids and your family. But, it is not dark night soul imo. Because, i have realize that nothing is under my control. Therefore, the situation leads to be surrender every moment in order to not the suffer again. Anything can happen anytime, isn't it? Or am I making the situation big deal? What do you think about it?

Thank you very much for your input brother. However, i am already under antidepressants. Moreover, it is not dark not soul imo. İmo it is putting and surrendering the everything to god, which is real me. But doing this is so difficult, isn't it? Can you surrender every moment? İ can, but / therefore no personal emotion left. What do you think about this?

We just discovered at the doctor that my son has a tachycardia. An his situation is critical, he is in icu. i couldn't surrender. The pain was too much for me, finally i surrender and fuck, i lost my all humanly / worldly emotions. I am completely empty. I can't even say what should I do. Fuck man completely empty again. The pain hurts so much, on my chest and in my chest, something is breaking my bones. This pain is thousand times heavier than ego death. Believe me, All bad pychedelics trips or ego deaths are bullshit. İ have no choice but / except / only surrender. Please pray for my son.

Thank you very much!!!! Thank you very much brother!!!

Thank you very much for all the wishes guys. İ love you all my friends.

As death, birth is unbelievable. Literally unbelievable. I saw the ego comes alive, it is crazy same as death. I am feeling same as psychedelic breakthrough.

Before, you think of this, you must realize everything and everyone is you.

Of course, including myself... Thank you very much brother 😊 amazing to hear literally amazing. I am so happy for you.

It is actually my ego, because I am imagining his birth and ego. I am mentioning that dream within the dream.

Thank you very much for your good wishes 🙏 🙏 But, it is the way of starting to the ego. If there is no birth, how come ego can ve created? I mean it is the begging of the ego or how ego will be developed.

Guys, thank you very much for your good wishes. I want to say this again; Ego is not something bad, it is something do beautiful and pure. That's why we are so called born. That's why illusion is still an illusion. Because it is pure beauty. That's what I have discovered. Anything and everything is pure beauty. That's all.

Lmfao. You are damn right. Lolll.

Thank you very much for your good wishes. I hope so too. I have nothing to offer except love.

Guys, thank you very much for your good wishes. Ego is not something bad, it is something do beautiful and pure. That's why we are so called born. That's why illusion is still an illusion. Because it is pure beauty.

Feeling free and peace is possible. Go head man no one stops you try:) what you really are is nothing, not the bliss.

İmpossible. İ tried that with psychedelics, and i fucked up my neurological system. You might completely surrender, not suffer, at peace, free etc... However, i have never seen anyone including any teacher who bliss the fuck out 24/7. Did you?

This is totally right and wrong at the same time. Because, when breakthrough happens, that's where the bliss peak happens. But time is infinite there. However, when you consider the human body, it is impossible. That's how I fucked up myself with psychedelic addiction.. Meanwhile bliss for human being is just to be simple as birth free of any addiction. Cleansing.

Love! Infinite love!

When you genuinely not know, literally not know anything, including yourself, what is left?

What I did realize is, cosmos is pure love, literally pure love.

What can be more deeper / openness than not knowing?