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@Leo Gura Do you mean the insight that you are to powerful and alone, everything is you, thats the reason why you created the ego, because of purpose of duality is satisfaction and love. God loves to see its duality to satisfy itself that it is not alone. Love is the bridge between duality to non duality. Thats why all is one, because both sides complete each other. If god side never realize duality, It will never be understand that it is god. Thats why we created ourselves as a human now. God must create something separate from it in order to be a god, because in non duality everything is god. Such as , if cold is not exist warm can never be exist, if evil not exist goodnesses can never be exist. Thats the reason why many people must not know about they are God, because if everyone knows this knowledge it can never be duality. Because of that evil must be exist in entire civilization? I was the universe, my head was at last top of the infinity and feed was bottom of infinity. These were all the insights i got as a god on shrooms. Maybe i am so dramatic. Lol

@Leo Gura Thanks a lot. I am very cautious about the situation. Thats the reason why I haven’t use 5 meo dmt. Even if i do, for first time i will go either Mexico or canada to do it in professional hands, which will improve my concentration for the direct experience.

What about Buddah boy in Nepal, who doesn’t move, eat or drink for days? He just talks about love.

@Leo Gura you are %100 right. 10 gr shrooms was too much. I will check out 5 meo dmt again. I take blood thinner medication (warfarin, if warfarin level goes high i can have internal bleeding or low can have stroke, because i have a mechanical valve). I used shrooms because they are natural (Normal mushrooms, just includes psilocybin) . Additionally, i spoke with a clinic, which is located at Vancouver/Canada, they told me 5 meo dmt could be dangerous for me and advice either lsd or shrooms. Thats the reason why i have done the shrooms as 10 gr. Thanks a lot for the advice. But I really want to do 5 meo dmt. I will deeply search it again.

@Leo Gura Unfortunately, i had open heart surgeries and pacemaker. I heard that 5 meo dmt boosts blood pressure and puts big pressure on the heart. I will be stick with the meditation. I have got still some ego, this Body might die lol.

Is it the reason why after eating 10 gr shrooms, the next day, i know the knowledges that i have never heard before (I understood i am the god and creator, purpose of life, ego, god, duality and non duality in one night)? Because, felt like that night i lived millions of years and went even before the big bang. However, the breakthroughs with meditations comes with in the moment, does not include much feelings, and makes it very clear the experiences of psychedelics. Experiencing non duality through meditation made me speechless. It feels like meditation can bring us state to non duality (all is one, one is all and no feelings whatsoever), but psychedelics mixes everything together such as, knowledge, god, evil, life, duality, non duality and love.

@caelanb just look at the body where are you? If you open your head is just brain there. So where are you? Try to concentrate your right arm, you wont feel your left arm when you concentrate only your right arm ( If you are body, you must feel all entire body). Additionally, normally you dont you feel your stomach now or head, you just feel them when you have pain or overeat vs.. Therefore , you are not the body, you are the thing that is aware of the body, and you exist as nothing. When you look at the body you are nowhere but you can feel. Thats why you are nothing. Shapeless, which can be anything .

@Nak Khid Peter Raltson is talking about bottom or final or just the truth, which is you feel that there is nothing Within the body, you are nothing, but everything is you and exist as nothing. You walk on yourself, breath yourself, eat yourself, words are even you, everything is you but as nothing. Thats the reason why you are not here and nowhere to be. If you are not in the body where can you be? You are not here. You realize or become it when the experiencer and experience becomes one. All is one and one is all. You have to have direct experience, because words cant describe it. How can words, me, you and walls can be same? But it is all you as nothing. Because, you can feel the body, BUT YOU ARE NOT INSIDE. How can you feel? Body or ego is a tool for non duality to feel duality now.

@Leo Gura It should be hard for him to imagine and be it at the same time. Enlightenment is more easier At least you are just it.

@Jahmaine Deeply Enlightened people usually just tell you the truth. Everything is one, if i died, something else born, there is no dying, helping or born in non duality, all is perfect. However, when you look at from human mind, if you goodnesses, love and God is the most significant way to be less selfless. Because of that helping other definitely will be helpful to understand or reach at the non duality more easily. Some enlightened people do help others dont, because enlightened people are the most simple human beings, they mostly dont hurt others but maybe not need to help them either. Additionally, the person( who is enlightened) have a personality before the enlightenment. I believe according to prior personality or new personality that they created after the enlightenment can determine either they will help others or not. Additionally for your question, any action should be based on love, because you are the creator and all is you. If you want to help me you will help yourself but some people dont like to help themselves. Therefore, helping is based on your perspective. Maybe the person you helped to save, will kill millions at the future that shows that saving one results with killing millions. Thats the reason why whatever you do is perfect and just do with love. Because, anything is inevitable and purpose of life is love.

@Dutch guy i want to see the truth. Because i had nothing left to lose, my life was terrible and had suicidal thoughts. After realizing the truth, it was so funny that i was exist only as a thought, real me can never die or born (I laughed about 10 hours to ideas about killing myself lol). And of course i feel my ego now but i know that i am nothing. Less fear, less thoughts, more love and fun but not from my egoistic perspective . Ego is something so small, scared Of everything and never happy. And i want to kill it

@StarStruck i did 10 gr dried shrooms. And i was traumatized for 6 months. But, in the experience you realize that you are nothing, not in the body, everything is you but nothing there and just exist as a thought. Trust your experience, contemplate and meditate. It is hard for ego to except the truth. But you have to overcome from your fear. You have to know that you can never die or born and have to accept that you are nothing, which can never die or born. Don’t forget these all words and sounds, we are just barking. When you accept the truth, monkey mind starts to slow down, You can focus more easily the moment and feel love or laugh all the time lol. That what happened to me.

@Mert you must not try to merge anything, because you are already it. In order to reach that level, i believe, sitting in completely darkness, silence and focusing on the breath are the one of the most efficient way to do it. Because, you think you are human, have a family or job vs.... You learned these informations and believe in them. Thats the reason why you are thinking now. You are alive in your thoughts and in order to reach non duality, firstly you have to work on slowing down the monkey mind.

@Jahmaine Anything that makes you worry or overthink (the circumstances can be ending up with positive or negative results) is based on fear.

God, enlightenment, evil, these are just words and sounds. All is one. When you call something as non dual, non dual loses of meaning of it, because it has no differences them you or me. It is unexplainable, it is just It is. This moment right now.

I have already contacted with some of spiritual teachers. I am doing good now. Only way to do good is, i am not real and just have fun lol. Otherwise, it is very very hard to handle it.

I am just so different. My eating habbits (just eat whatever body needs, such as boiled eggs, cheese, vegetables and beans, cant eat any meat, because i get angry), working out (i used to lift and do mma, i am just doing mma now), friends (i almost lost my all friends and gained few friends, and we just talk about concisnouss), my goals (i currently live in jersey city, but i will move to small town asap), my relations with girls( i used to love one night relations, but i cant have sex with the ego, i just can have sex with the girls, who are positive and spiritual and its very hard to find thats why i just had sex with 2 girl in 6 months), anytime of the day i fight with my ego, which is me (anytime i complain, i know that i am not real and try to decrease my level of complaints, which kills me, i am my own enemy), cant go bars, clubs or wherever the egoistic places, i have a super simple life now, meditate 2 hours every day ( i feel like i am hungry to meditate like eating food), i feel super alone (its super difficult to handlw for my ego very very hard), i cant think too often and just usually act with my feelings. Most importantly, at nights, when i look at around me there is nothing to percieve this is so called life, because we created it by words. It is impossible to know something. Knowing is not real or my eyes, or perceiving or experiencing the world. These are all words. We are neither alive or death, because both are not exist. I see we are at nowhere and not real. Real and unreal is not real. Because, whatever we know is all existed by words.

Sure. Shroom trips are not trips. You can see only the TRUTH. I became an completely different human. I dont even want to say human. Because, its just a word. Enlightment is just a word. When expriencer and experience are stopped. You see can see the enlighment. We are not experiencing anything nor experiencer. This is not a joke.

I took 10 gr dried shrooms with fresh lemon juice about 6 months ago, and still cant come back. I am completely gone.

@Shaun Of course, its everything it suffers at the deepest level and enjoys at the deepest (or infinite) level. Because of its nothing, it can be anything such as god (all powerful), evil or a looser anything you can imagene. But all the meanings are the same. I could be anything that i concentrate at that moment. It does a have ego and at the same time it created the ego. Otherwise it cant find himself. The ego that has been created by it, which is you as a human and me now.

Hello everyone. Last Saturday around 12 am i ate 10 gr dry shrooms with fresh lemon juice. The shrooms affects started to come up so rapidly and i started to feel complete emptiness, which is coming towards me. It was a total complete infinite emptiness than got in my body and i became complete nothing (felt like james was just a habit), i was just nothing no mean whatsoever NOTHING. At that time i was looking myself (everything looked the same but i felt like i am seeing myself on everything), breathing myself, talking to myself walking on myself and nowhere to go run away from myself, which is full emptiness. It started to talk to me, but i felt like i was talking to myself, givind advise and knowledge to myself about it(real me). After that i got a feeling that i have never felt that real, which is it is just so alone, everything is it, it iseven scared of its own self (because of how powerful it is). It is just so alone thats why emptiness create us to lie itself that its not alone. And that infinite loneliness felt like too heavy that could broke my molecules into billion of pieces, and I was talking to it (Myself), saying (human body cant handle this thats why i created ego in the body(whick mean is felt like we will see it either when the body dies or our ego or fault self mentally dies (because rule of the world body cannot function without a brain). It started to teach me like a father (teaching morality) that how become a better person as a ego. Knowledge s were going to my empty self with billion of light years speed and felt like the existence of ego world is based on satisfaction. We create us to just satisfy ourself because we are too alone and all powerful that we cheat ourself that we are not alone. Around 3:15 am it was gone within me, however between 5 am to 2 pm , i was a super concisnouss human (completely same body but different mind and person that have different ability and habits) such as i could communicate with my energy, heal myself, but it was so scary that if i dont concentrate, life was too much, fast and busy for me. I was saying that by 10 pm if my old personality wont come back, i will leave my house, job, and go somewhere very quiet and slow. However, around 3 pm (15 hours later taking shrooms) my ordinary consciousness came back but not completely. When i talk sometimes i feel like i am barking or it has no mean whatsoever, feeling alone and emptiness in me, me ego and god side is too sharp (any of them can come up so quickly but i can feel the compelete differences between each other), wakinf up 4 am every morning, knowing and living that i am nothing, when my ego came back, i was feeling major emotional trauma for couple hours(because my ego was killed billion times and being nothing is so scary and beatiful. Because of that my daily emotions were destroyed, and i thought that they will never come back). It felt i was in the hell for years. Additionally, i got a insight that destiniy is real but at the same time it is so fare and honest it gives itself right to make a choice in this life too. I started to get too many dejavus (at least 6 a day and feel that emptiness sometimes makes me feel completely alone or happy. How can i manage this situation? Does anyone experienced these side affects after psychedelic trip? Additionally, i am under medication of 1000 mg keppra (heard that keppra enchance brain activity). Thanks everyone.

@Shaun No. It feels like, you are in the complete black hole that you cant even see your body and stayed there billion of years. After that you forgot that you have a body that emptiness and you become one, which is emptiness again. Its just so big nothing has a place in there just you, which is endless and beginless existence. Or just close your eyes concentrate do you feel something that you cant see or touch but you feel it, it looks nothing but you feel it, multiply that feeling with billions, it completely takes over you and your concsinousness leaves this body and be ifnite emptiness(nothing is left within you). But the crazy part is when you (not this me) realize this , you understand that there is no word to explain this, because words restrick meaning of this. Its like real and unreal is exist and not exist at the same time. Like you are exist as nothing but nothingness cant be exist. I cant really describe it. Its empty but infinitly heavy and now itself. That felt like final stage, bottom or ground.

@Shaun we are just nothing, ifnite nothingness, it is not real or unreal, just nothing. Beyond the meaning of the word of nothing, it is even before the word of nothing. It has no name, but its you and you are it.