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@Sahil Pandit thank you. I'll look up the yoga. The doc said the first three days it just gets worse before it gets better... I feel so much worse than yesterday.. one more day to do... Yay...

Yeah he knows that. Idk why he doesn't want something else. But idk.. my chest is starting to hurt again.. so I guess I'm gonna try to go to sleep... I'll be back, of course. Goodnight.

Lol I already smoke I think I'm adjusted to it. But I went to a chiropractor and he gave me some advice. I like the extract and essentials pills though thank you. Any other advice is welcome. I need to start physical therapy and I wouldn't mind any advise at all to help it be a little less painful without resorting to heavy drugs. I'm really not a big fan..

The texts were from his Co worker/friend. I'm sorry.. I had something else I wanted to elaborate on but I suddenly can't seem to recall...

Scaping! Landscaping Jesus... sorry..

Landcare@SFRL

Omg!!! You guys are killing me ??? I love it!

I am trying to figure out how to handle that situation carefully... But right now I think I am aloud a day or two without that stress... I've only been at my job for about 2 1/2 months. I still have a few weeks before I can apply for Heath insurance for us then we can consider it...

@SFRL yes I do. I work for a law firm Although, I'm wondering if you guys could help me with finding a good simple breathing technique. I feel really confident and content with allowing things to unfold the way they will because I know I was not at fault. And I have witnesses. I'm just leaving things in God's and my lawyer's hands. Also, working for the lawfirm, I have seen a lot of worse case scenarios.... So I know how bad things could have been. So I feel nothing but greatful. But my body seems to still be reacting to it all... I didn't really sleep last night.. just kinda layed there in the dark tossing and turning... can't really sleep right now either My heart will just race for no reason and it can be overwhelming... I feel like my chest tightens up like a panick attack... I know I need to lay down and just breath and concentrate. But it's really hard to stay in one position for too long it can be distracting... I also had trouble concentrating when I was talking to the chiropractor.. I'd start answering his question and then stop halfway through and just completely lose track of what I was even talking about. (I had to stop and read this post a few times to know what else I was trying to say) He noticed, of course, and he said it's pretty normal with trauma like that. But I feel fine. Not physically, but... Well you know Any thoughts?

@SFRL i have been his only support through his shit... We don't have the money for a therapist.. I'm only getting a physical therapist because of my car insurance.. I try to be there for him..

hmm that's tough, it's hard not to want what others want. But what do you already have? just think on that. You might see that you have more than you expected. (I don't just mean material things) Are there traits and/or talents that you pride yourself in? is there a way to go for that as a career path or anything? You can't stop being compared to others unfortunately. That's just human nature. You can stop being phased by it. I'd like to believe your parents harshness comes from a good place. They want the best for you and for you to succeed. Maybe try not to take it personally? I know it's easier said than done, but you are the one who decides your path. They can only watch as you succeed of fail. But it doesn't matter if you aren't enjoying the ride. Hope that makes sense!

@Monkey-man wow From what I have heard, "Thought is movement" and now I will refer you to my good friend, @Faceless to explain what that actually means

@Nahm thanks, i'm trying

@Nahm Thank you. God made us all strong. I will trust Him to see me through! Just gotta keep saying that! I just need to say thank you one more time. You guys are just the best. I feel like I have been able to handle my problems in a new, better way lately. It's been tough, but I feel capable. I've got a long way to go on this journey, but I'm happy I decided to start walking Thank you!!!

As for my husband, I just have to wait and see what happens there too. He said he won't touch the shit anymore. We'll see...

@Nahm @phoenix666 I'm trying to keep that in mind. I think what I've learned so far is there is just no point stressing. I am pretty calm overall because I know I had the right of way and the other lady was wrong, and I have witnesses to back me up. I filled out the necessary paperwork to get the process started, so all I can do is sit back and see what happens. Hopefully it doesn't take too long, but if it does, oh well. Just trying to stay in that kind of mindset, you know. Not like I can do anything to change the outcome by being pushy and impatient, right? Just got to remember that.

@John Lula lol, thank you yeah.... it's been a pretty shitty few weeks to say the least But I'm ready for the next one! Week that is, not the shitty part. I can do without that for a bit.

@phoenix666 thank you, I will. It's so wierd.. the whole thing.. didn't even seem real. I don't even remember seeing her turn in front of me. I can imagine it, but it's not a hard memory you know. Just weird.

lol you guys are silly but thank you. I am stuck at home for a few days now which kinda sucks. But maybe I need the break. @Arman I agree. Hopefully this car accident will be enough, because I don't know if I can deal with something like this again. But I'm glad that things seem like they will be ok. The other lady tried to say I ran a red light but there are witnesses that know it was still yellow and she took the turn in front of me, but it's ok, I work for an injury/accident law firm and they are going to take care of all the ridiculous stuff for me. Man am I sore though... Hurts to even sit up...

Hey guys.. thank you for the support. I really do appreciate it. I got into a pretty bad car accident after work yesterday... Got back from the hospital a little bit ago.. Nothing's broken, just really really sore... My husband was at the hospital with me and he kept apologizing to me.. he said he loved me and he won't let things get like this anymore... We had a long talk and I told him this is his last change.. that I will leave him for good if he does this shit again.. My poor car is totaled... ???

I texted a friend... she is said she was gonna talk to her husband to see if I can stay there for a few nights... I feel like I'm slowly losing energy though... I'm trying to stay strong.. but I just want to crawl into a ball and just fall asleep and never wake up...

I feel you @Applejuice It can be hard ((((hugs)))) You are not alone in feeling this. Trust me. I don't know if that helps any..

@phoenix666 Yeah.. knowing and doing are two very different things though... I'm trying to hold my ground... but it's easy only when he isn't in front of me.. you know...

It's just an outward exclamation of your love. Like Baptism, you don't need it to get to heaven. You don't need a wedding to be married, some prefer the courthouse deal. However, like Baptism, it is a way to let everyone you love know that you are taking that next step. If that makes any sense.

@Nahm lol nice