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That was beautiful I love the attitude I can't believe how talented she is

Holy cow!!! Those were amazing

Thanks guys. I'll have to listen to these later once I get home. (don't want to interrupt the music my friend's mom is playing) Things are a little awkward right now (we haven't really talked to each other since we got here) We are just packing up his stuff at his house to put up into storage. It's a little weird seeing pictures of him.. His mom cries at every one she grabs... I don't know how to react to it right now... so I just hug her till she stops and keep packing... It all feels so alien to me right now... Neither of us wants to go near his room right now... so I think we have both non verbally agreed to leave it for last... But I'm feeling a little better today, being out of my house.

Same here. Things keep going crazy in my life and the world.. I want to understand it and learn how to handle and deal with it all. I've gotten to meet some of the most beautiful and interesting people while I've been here. And I can't see that as anything less than a bonus

I've gone over to his house and I've known her about as long as I've known him.. I guess I'll try... It's better than laying in bed another day, I guess... I'm not sure what I can say to her... I just wish things would just freeze for a little while...

@egoeimai it didn't really hurt... I don't want to get the cops involved... Things feel complicated enough... And my friend's mother wants me to go over to her house a few times this week to help her with things.... She wanted to come over and talk but I told her it wasn't a good time.. so she texted me that she feels like she just wants to be near me because her son cared about me so much... I don't want to respond to her.... Everyone's making a big thing from nothing! I don't want to be responsible for all of this... But everyone is acting crazy... Why am I the only one seeing it?

I feel like I'm just losing all motivation... I don't see the point in any of this if it's just going to keep falling apart... It feels like I'm using all of my energy just to breathe... It's so exhausting... I don't want to do it anymore...

My husband just stopped by for a little... He was still pretty upset about the whole thing... I tried to beg him to just drop it and please be with me... I told him I was scared to be alone right now... He stopped and held me for a little, but then he wanted to have sex and I told him I really didn't want to right now.. that I just wanted to lay there for a little and he got a little agressive... He tried to say that it was because I was thinking of my friend... I told him it wasn't that but he started to get mad so I just did it.... I don't know what happened... I wasn't thinking about anything but I got overwhelmed and started to cry in the middle of it and he got so pissed... He started to yell that "he knew I was thinking about my friend" but I wasn't.. it just happened.... He kept calling me a liar... I yelled that he was being so selfish and ridiculous... I told him that I supported him wholeheartedly when his friend committed suicide and when his grandfather was dying but that he can't get over himself long enough to see that I'm fucking hurting right now.. that I'm scared right now... He smacked me on the cheek.... He yelled that I had no right to bring that shit up because it wasn't the same.... He said the difference was that he didn't fuck his friend... I stayed where I was as he left the room... He was going through shit and started to walk out with a box... I asked him what he was going to do and he said that he thinks we need some time a part from each other.... The box was full of knives and shit and I asked him what the hell that was for... He just said it's because he doesn't trust me not to do something stupid... And then he just left... I didn't do anything... But everything is falling a part.... I don't understand why this is happening.... Why is my husband being so stubborn..? I've never done anything to make him think I would cheat on him... He's just blowing this all up...

He's not doing coke... He hasn't been doing meth for a while... I love him.. things were getting a little better with us...

@John Lula yeah... He didn't say anything to me anyways... it feels completely out of the blue...

@egoeimai yeah... I've just been lying in bed... I don't really want to move right now... My friend's mom called me and asked to come over and talk to me... I don't know what I could possibly say to her... @John Lula his parents found him ODed on pills... What else could it have been..?

He never acted suicidal... And things with my husband were getting better until this happened...

@egoeimai yes it was the same guy... I tried to not think too much about it last night... But how could I not..? My husband kept asking me about it.. I kept trying to tell him that there was nothing between us.. and he didn't believe me... So we got into a fight last night... He stormed off to his friend's house.... He won't answer my calls or texts... Last thing he said was "you can call me when you're ready to tell me the truth" I don't know what else to say to him... There was nothing... He was a friend that I knew since high school... He was a good friend... That's it... My mom is keeping my daughter for a few nights... I just don't feel good right now... I know I didn't kill him... But I didn't help him... He was acting weird the past week... But I just focused on myself....

Lmao that gif is perfect

It's all jealousy they can't stand that we are okay and love ourselves so they have to try and throw a rock in our peaceful pond lol

@okulele i agree. Just let us be with out shaming us! Lol

Man... I usually eat 2-3 times a day depending on if I remember to bring a snack with me to work lol I usually skip breakfast, have lunch at work, and then come home for dinner but then again, my family is always picking on me for not being thick anywhere. So maybe I should acknowledge that and try to eat more lol

He's Buddhaful! lmao

@cetus56 Yup that little moment of happiness is over, and now off to the next one Such a cute baby how can you not feel happiness looking at that wittle fayce >_<

Dropping all of your negative attachments and just allowing yourself to be in the moment Staying open to what the universe wishes to throw your way

@cetus56 The key to Happiness it's that easy lol

lol

Wow, it seems you have a lot going on right now (lots of posts) Maybe you need to just stop worrying about the rest of the world and work on yourself. As far as the 30y/o lady, that's not weird. Friendship has no age limit and your parents are probably just goofing. Don't take it so seriously. As far as your "weed friend", who cares how many people he knows? I'm sure this one man is not the gate keeper to the world of friends you can have lol If you don't like him then just move on. As you get older, you will see how your path will grow away from the ones around you. It isn't a bad thing, you guys just developed different interests over time. It happens. I think I mentioned in another one of your posts that you should try to travel if you are able. There is a whole world out there for your 17 year old self to discover nothing is holding you back (kids, career, relationship) so just go for it! Carpe Diem Man! lol

@Zane Like what @Dali Llama said, what job are you looking for? You need to be able to stand out among the rest when it comes to the job market. Things like wear a suit to your interview, even if it's for a job where you will never touch one. Research the company you are applying to. This can give you an edge. It's like reading a girls diary to find out what kind of guy she likes and becoming that lol A creative and unique resume doesn't hurt either. lol Another great tip I learned in Business school was to make a list of questions that you have for the company. It's a little trick that will make the interviewer believe that you were invested enough in that company to research and prepare your own questions even if you are not passionate about flipping a burger. "What does the potential to move up in this company look like?" is one I my teacher brought up It gives the idea that you plan to be with the company for a long time and want to grow with them, even if you only end up staying for less than a year. It's all a part that you have to play

This really hits home for me Can you not just talk to them? In my personal experience, I chose my husband over them... But they were always the kind of people I could depend on. If everything fell apart for me, I do believe they would forgive me for the years I lost with them. That's how amazing they were Just talk to them. They might just surprise you. If you hurt them, apologize and don't try to explain it. Just be sorry. You can't force them to do anything, but you can at least do your part to mend and keep the relationship. If they don't return the sentiment, then just let them go. Be strong and swallow your pride. Nothing will happen if you don't try!