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What do you trade? and how do you get into it?

Does any one experience memory changes after taking a psychedelic. Do you notice a change in memory for the better or for the worse? How does it effect your long term memory or short term memory?

What are the best ways to practice self love? Ok I understand. Don’t slack. Still work out, still focus on you LP. Mix the inner Jihad with the outer Jihad. Will give this a shot, thank you so much !

I have had some deep awakenings over the past month. Utterly profound. Even though these awakenings were deep, the aftermath was pure suffering. I realise the devil has been operating my life since I was a teenager. It is so paradoxical because it is apart of oneness. But it feels like it is separate. And now it is stronger then ever before. I have seen what is lurking within my unconscious mind and it is not pretty. All the worst things I could have possibly thought about myself has arisen into my awareness. It is paralysing. It is scary. It is hard to see it as an illusion because it is so powerful. I am scared. I am confused. I am lost. I can’t do anything. My emotions are completely out of control. I have lost my mind. There is so sense of any grounding to my reality. One moment I cry, one moment I am paralysed with anxiety. Taking my away ability to make any desicions. I have lost interest in material aspects of life, and I have reduced me social circle to literally a couple of people and family. I struggle to relate to my family any more because they are so different. They don’t have the same values. It is hard to keep any relationships with this peculiar, intense yet strangely synchronistic experience going on. Heck I am losing my ability to communicate and form sentences with people. The only thing I know I can do is to meditate more. I am in too deep now. I guess I have to continue and work through this stuff. I am only 24, sometimes I wonder weather to leave this work for a later time. But I can’t I have seen some deep shit. I can’t go back to my materialistic life. But my meditation are scary. The sensations get more intense, they get more dark. I have images/thoughts of suicide or killing others. And I never knew I am capable of thinking these thoughts and feeling these feelings. One thing is to just observe these feelings, these thoughts it will pass. Has anyone experienced this after having awakening experiences?

So after my 4 aco dmt trip which I took after 10 day meditation retreat. It felt like the light of consciousness spilt my mind in two with glass. I became the void and saw how everything is arising out of me. Biggest mind fuck. Now I see that there is nothing outside my direct experience, that my direct experience is floating within nothingness, existing in no particular location. It is like a bubble. Then when I look at another person I see nothing in side them. They don’t exist in any location. It is like the present moment is a bubble within a bubble within a bubble to infinity existing nowhere

Has anyone managed to reach states where they have no thoughts for 10mins, for example. There is no thinker, thoughts arise, but is it possible to have no thoughts arise for a long period of time. If so how?

Yeah this was difficult. It can become an addiction to want to stay in these states of altered consciousness. The key is to apply the insights into daily life as it is so easy to get back into the trap of ego/delusion. I think what is helping me is when i meditate at home i combine vipassana with neti neti - makes it a lot easier to see impermanence, no self whilst interacting with others.

So I came back from a 10 day vipassana retreat. The insights I managed to get from the direct observation of the present moment was insane. I saw on the experiential level that there is constant flux within consciousness. There is no permanence and that every moment being experienced is different. That there is no fixed self. Once you realise this your identity merged into the present moment. That the unconscious mind is responsible for the craving and adversion from certain bodily sensations. This creates deep sufffering within the mind. And responsible for all the dualities you create in the mind, like pain and pleasure, hot and cold, dirty and clean. You can break through all of these dualities and live in paradise through this technique. That thoughts are constantly changing, but the story they portray creates a story which has the illusion of self imbedded into it. That the sense of self is an illusory figure that arises within the set of perceptions within the present moment. It is a set of morphing emotions, feelings, and thoughts that create a belief system that it is a person/human inside the body looking out into the world. But this isn’t true they are just a set of perceptions existing with no obersever being aware of it. That there are only perceptions with no perceiver. That this level of equanimity is the source of true happiness. Not that addiction to pleasure-able sensations. You want a mind the is equanimous with the present moment. One thing is that I wanted to master this level of being and was thinking I should become a monk and teach later on. However my passion is also to help wild animals and I am on the path to becoming a wildlife vet. I feel like I want to merge them together. Is it possible of becoming a wildlife vet and help raise the consciousness of society through that L.Purpose. I am trying to think of some ways. Do you guys have any ideas?

This is what I am going through at the moment. But fuck what they think, they like to indulge in the shallower aspects of life. They don't care about depth, they care about fitting in and surviving. That is perfectly fine. Each to their own. You do you, enjoy what you do, let the passion of life flow through you. Follow your bliss, my passions are spirituality and wildlife medicine, I have other hobbies but generally, my focus' are limited. I have this as a grounding and in generall it allows me to connect with people more. Every person has a unique story to tell, be interested in what they have to say. You don't have to dismay other perspectives because yours is so different. Also, surround yourself by people who have similar values, this means you don't feel like the odd one out. Sometimes you can feel very isolated when you only interact with people as stage orange or below in spiral dynamics. Find people who are at your level and above so you have some ideal to work towards and that can guide you. Maybe get a new girlfriend/friends

Wow this is a great way from frame my situation. I find that it is difficult working on LP and Enlightenment work simultaneously. Whenever I do deep enlightenment work I struggle to focus on my LP and vice Versa. I think I am going to focus more on my LP as I am only 24 and will develop a strong grounding in it, this will also enable me to survive in society doing something I love. I will still be doing meditation and psychedelics but not as deep. Once LP becomes mastered will go deeper into enlightenment. Feels like a weight lifted of your shoulders figuring this out but now i am even more scared to start and take action. I guess that is where the growth starts.

Do you think Steve Irwin was conscious of what he was exitensitally or do you think he just has a compassionate identity/ego? It seems that even at the height of his fame he wasn’t corrupt as the profits he made went straight back into conservation and the purchase of land to conserve.

Yeah after this retreat I am so torn between becoming a monk in the Himalayas or becoming a wildlife vet I have never felt feeling this confused before after a retreat

The human species, through the instrument of culture, has become the dominant force of planetary ecological change. Our adaptations have become maladaptive. Moreover, the human species as a whole now displays all four major characteristics of a malignant process: rapid, uncontrolled growth; invasion and destruction of adjacent normal tissues (ecosystems); metastasis (distant colonization); and dedifferentiation (loss of distinctiveness in individual components). We have become a malignant ecopathologic process. If this diagnosis is true, what is the prognosis? The difference between us and most forms of cancer is that we can think, and we can decide not to be a cancer

@Leo Gura is this a big enough vision? It scares me a lot but it is something I know I must do. How does one know if it will be impactful enough from their perspective?

Going to answer the question: Why do you find meaning in helping animals? Well I want them to be seen as the same as humans, from a human beings perspective. Humans use animals only for their survival agenda. They dont give a fuck about them. We have created a stupid idea that we are better then any other animal so we can survive. We use them for our self/survival agenda, and it is it is something I see where change can happen. I want to help them so I can increase the perception of them and bring them to the hearts of people. There is no reason why humans are btter then animals or dersverve to live more then animals. I want the balance. How am i going to do this? Study the art of medicine to firstly provide medical care to animals. I want to allivate the suffering of animals in need, i want to provide a servce through charitable work that will enable animals that i come in contat with to be healed. Then I will use my life and the images i obtain to inspire the world about how much animal suffering there is due to human existence. hopefully this will win people over. Maybe I will start my own veterinary buisness which uses its profits to help stray animals and wildlife. Or maybe I will apply my skills in medicine and go to places in need that require those skills. Or maybe i will go into conservation medicine which focuses on the health of the entire ecosystem. Towards the end of my life I will use the art of speaking publically to bring issues about wildlife health and animal suffering to the public. No animal is more valuable then the other, weather it is a pangolin, tiger, a elephant, a dog. If it is suffering I want to help it. I want to create change of the perspective of humans. I want to bring a balance. No one man can save the planet. But if you are passionate we can all do our bit to make this a better place to live in for all species. Life is utterly meaningless. That gives us the option to create any meaning that you want. I dont matter what that meaning is, as long it is authentic to your personality and values. Your meaning could be to raise the best children. This is the meaning I have constructed for my vision of my life

I got a feeling that the aim of the game is to basically reach a level of complete non-neediness. When you will completely be content if you where locked away on an island in complete isolation. Or you will totally content living as the last person on the plant, not needing anything with anyone and being perfectly ok with the state of your mind and feelings. This will change everything, your relationships, your life purpose etc. You are not coming from a place of approval, wanting, neediness, and will only be giving your gifts to the world. Without caring if you receive love from external factors, without caring you receive validation. It takes the pressure of and you really can just be and love the present moment as much as you can. I can really see the value in it. You won’t care if everything goes to shit because you have mastered being content in complete isolation, fully accepting yourself as an outsider, as an outcast of society. You won’t care if you are hated by everybody, you won’t care if they kill you. The question is what has the capability of taking you there? Sometimes I have a moment where I completely freak out if I feel left out, if I feel isolated, I don’t feel like anyone gets me, likes me or fits in

After I did the pranayama, then went on to chanting om through the chakras. I was focusing on the 3rd eye. Then this tunnel formed out of the blackness It felt like I was on a rollercoaster moving through this tunnel of bright white light. Did anyone experience this? How long is it recommended to do initiation practices before going into the full practices? Been doing it for a whole 3 weeks and it is such an insane practice.

Thank you man, I am in the process too. Just sold my bike, didn't need it any more. Such a relief and actually more freeing than having it. I remember when I was trekking in the Himalayas and came across a 50-year-old dutch guy. He told me the only possessions he owned was the backpack on his back and a bicycle he stored at his friend's house in Europe. He used it to cycle across Europe. I was shocked. Back then I was way more rational, materialistic so I was in awe in how he was able to be happy. Nowadays I really see the beauty in the way he lived his life, it brings me to tears just thinking about it. Been so strange the last couple of days. Been having big shifts in my perspective. I don't feel the need to stand out any more. I have been known to be the entertainer, but I see that was because there was a fear I wouldn't fit in. It came about from anxiety. Now I don't need to prove myself to people I am so much calmer, and can speak only when I want to. I love just being and nobody needs to take notice of me.

Shame he had to go, what a legend, what an inspiration... Miss you Steve!

Profound man

I actually can’t wait for this new substance, is it similar to 5 meo?

Woooooo ! Thank you

@Leo Gura is the substance not scheduled in most countries?

Amazing man! what were the processes that you used in your life to reach this?

Has anyone on this forum reached these levels?