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Yeah same I am incapable of talking, talking and language doesnt even make sense to me on high doses

Hey everyone, I’ve been reflecting a lot on a relationship I recently ended, and I wanted to share my story, not just about why it ended, but about what I’ve learned from the process. It was one of the most intense, loving, and transformative relationships I’ve ever been in, but ultimately, it wasn’t aligned with the life I’m building. How We Met I met her in Serbia through a cold approach on the street. I work online so have been travelling around the EU doing pickup. We struck up a conversation, and something about her energy and presence just pulled me in. We exchanged numbers, went out for a date shortly after, and everything just clicked. From the start, there was an intensity in our connection that I hadn’t felt before. It was natural, passionate, and effortless. We fell for each other quickly, and I was willing to put in the effort despite the distance. I began flying to Serbia regularly to see her, and those trips became the highlight of my life. The Beauty of Our Relationship She was incredible, affectionate, passionate, and deeply loving. For the first time, I experienced real emotional intimacy. We were vulnerable with each other, sharing our fears, dreams, and the parts of ourselves we usually keep hidden. I loved our closeness, our intensity, our sex, and the way we made each other feel seen and cared for. For those months, it felt like everything I could ever want in a relationship. But as amazing as it was, there were challenges that started to surface, hings we couldn’t ignore forever. The Challenges We Faced The first big challenge was distance. Flying back and forth between countries became exhausting. It felt like I was always uprooting my life to keep the relationship going, which started to take a toll on me emotionally and physically. She couldnt come to the UK and was planning to move to Barcelona for her PhD. I was planning to move there with her there for a month. The second challenge was misaligned goals. She wanted marriage and kids within the next five years, while I wasn’t ready for that, or even sure if I wanted kids at all. I respected her for knowing what she wanted, but deep down, I knew I couldn’t give it to her. The third challenge was support for each other’s growth. I’m someone who’s deeply focused on personal development, working hard, meditating, and building a life that aligns with my values. While she supported me in some ways, I often felt like my goals weren’t fully understood. For example, when I expressed wanting to work long hours, she protested it instead of seeing how important it was to me. These differences became harder to ignore. Why We Broke Up Eventually, I had to face the truth: our love wasn’t enough to overcome the misalignments in our goals and lifestyles. As much as I loved her, I couldn’t give her the stability, family, and future she wanted. The final straw was realizing that staying in the relationship would only delay the inevitable. If we stayed together, we’d either end up resenting each other or holding each other back from finding true alignment. I told her, “I want you to find a guy who can give you the family and life you deserve.” It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever said, and she didn’t take it well. She cut me off afterward, and as much as it hurt, I understand why. What I’ve Learned Love Alone Isn’t Enough You can love someone deeply, but if your core values and life goals don’t align, the relationship will eventually hit a wall. Love isn’t about holding on no matter what, it’s about knowing when to let go for the sake of both people. Emotional Independence Is Key At the start of the relationship, I felt like I needed her love to feel complete. But as I grew through meditation, self-reflection, and personal development, I realized that my love and happiness come from within me. This realization gave me the strength to walk away, even though it hurt. Respecting Both of Our Futures By ending the relationship, I allowed both of us to move forward. She can find someone whose goals align with hers, and I can focus on building the life I truly want. Staying together out of guilt or fear would’ve been selfish and unsustainable. Closing Thoughts This relationship taught me so much about myself, love, and what it means to grow alongside someone. Even though it ended, I’m grateful for the time we had together. It wasn’t a failure, it was a chapter of growth, vulnerability, and connection. For anyone struggling with similar decisions, remember: staying true to yourself and your goals isn’t selfish, it’s necessary. Love doesn’t mean sacrificing your future or pretending things are okay when they aren’t. Sometimes, the most loving thing you can do is let go. Thanks for reading, and I’d love to hear your thoughts or experiences if you’ve been through something similar.

But Leo... How are you able to do that. In my last trip I lost control and now scared of taking psychedelics again for my own safety.

So after watching this video: I dont understand how Leo doesnt seem like he is tripping hard and seems generally composed. I seem other people take 5 MeO and they are writhing on the floor and out of it. Is it the ROA?

It was 35mg, and oral. Yeah I am only going to trip solo from now on. I never trip with people. I am just worried i will blackout and still be moving my body. Its the first time this every happened. I have had about 20 trips in my life

Yeah was fucking weird

They told me they did it because I had no control. I would walk into things, pretend they weren’t there. From my perspective, reality had become completely hollow. There was no physicality, no substance, no solidness. I felt like I was just a collection of empty colors, sounds, and sensations floating in a void. This was just before everything slipped away, and I couldn’t remember anything. When I finally woke up, my hands were tied behind my back, bound with ropes, and I was completely shocked. I don’t trust them anymore. When I woke up and saw my friend's face, I didn’t even recognize who he was. Reality outside of the phenomena was nonexistent to me. My friend was really angry. I then just ripped my hands out of the rope and tape

Hi everyone, I wanted to share a powerful and honestly overwhelming experience I had recently with 4-AcO-DMT. It was a breakthrough trip that left me with a lot to process, and I’d love to hear your perspectives or if anyone’s gone through something similar. The Setup Before the trip, I was in a fairly good mental state and felt like I was ready to dive deeper into myself. I’ve done psychedelics before, but this was a whole new level. I took a solid dose of 4-AcO-DMT with friends I trusted, thinking I was prepared for whatever it might bring. What followed completely shattered my expectations. The Experience At first, it was beautiful waves of color, the sensation of being connected to everything, and a profound sense of unity. It felt like my ego dissolved completely, and for a brief moment, I became one with the universe. There were no boundaries no “me,” no “them,” just existence in its purest form. But then, I blacked out. My friends told me I was still conscious, but I don’t remember anything after that initial unity. They said I became uncontrollable completely disconnected from reality, speaking and acting in ways that didn’t make sense. To keep me safe, they tied me up with rope and tape, which I only realized when I came back to myself. Coming Back When I “woke up,” I had no memory of who I was, where I was, or even who my friends were. It felt like being reborn into a reality that made no sense. There was no context for life just colors, sounds, and a floating sense of being. When I came back to full awareness, I was shaken. I saw the rope and tape and i broke out if it, and my friends were clearly upset and confused. One of them, in particular, was angry and wouldn’t let me leave the room. I didn’t know how to explain what had happened or what I had experienced because I didn’t even fully understand it myself. I remember looking at one of my friends and, in that state, I couldn’t recognize him as a separate person. Instead, I saw him as a reflection of myself. This overwhelming feeling of love came over me—not a romantic or sexual love, but an unfiltered, universal love. I wanted to express that love in ways that, looking back, felt unusual and deeply vulnerable. I even tried to kiss him and had the impulse to masturbate in front of him. This wasn’t coming from a place of sexuality or identity it was like my ego was completely stripped away, and all that remained was raw energy and a desire to connect with myself through him. Aftermath Since that trip, I’ve felt scarred by the memory. The lack of control, the blacked-out moments, and the vulnerable expressions of love that went far beyond what I’d normally feel—all of it has left me questioning: What does it mean to truly lose your ego? Was this experience trying to teach me something about love, connection, or boundaries? Why did my physical body act in ways my conscious mind doesn’t align with? Lessons I’m Trying to Take Away I think this trip was a reminder of how little we actually control. When the ego dissolves, what’s left are primal instincts, raw emotions, and a deep desire to connect. But it’s hard to reconcile those instincts with how we live in the “normal” world. It also left me wondering about trust both in myself and in others. My friends tried to keep me safe, but the intensity of the experience and their reaction added a layer of trauma I’m still working through. I’m trying to process this without judgment, but it’s been tough. Meditation and journaling have helped, but I’m still searching for clarity. Questions for the Community Have you ever had a similar experience with ego death or blacking out on psychedelics? How do you process moments where your actions don’t align with who you feel you are? What lessons have you learned about love, boundaries, and connection from experiences like this? Thanks for reading and holding space for me to share this. I’m open to any insights or perspectives you might have.

What video does he explain protocol?

I have 0 kids and dont want to really

Nice and is the come up less scary? like its easier to surrender and not resist?

How different is rectal administration to nasal? It is more smooth?

Would you ever like to move to South east asia? Thailand, Vietnam, Malaysia. I was living there for several months last year. Was incrediable, so cheap and great service, beautiful nature

This doesnt look like 5 MeO Oxalate do you think it is a bad source

Are there significant differences between boofing 5-MeO-DMT and insufflating? Is boofing gentler on the body during the come-up?