TheDarkSorcerer

good luck, Leo.

@Buba I understand your pain. I practically raised myself, and usually felt alone in my head due to trauma, and from the start I was inflicted with a deep hole of a heart, trauma, pain, suffering, loneliness.. quite disturbed, one day, I hope it will subside, but until then, this pain fuels my art, and I have lots of fuel to run on. A child born unto chaos, becomes a fine misanthrope, at least within the modern age.

Existential Loneliness, there was one day where I truly fell in the void, where time ceased, and there was only pain. Ever since then, I have this understanding how alone we truly are, maybe I am missing the truth, I hope I am. Is love real? is it just an illusion? what's the point of all our suffering?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEfS98F89Ho pinkfloyd gets me there.

I think we need to suffer enough in order to become a master, makes me feel psychotic but it's the truth, a man must persevere through the impossible and all alone, then came back with wisdom, in order for me to respect him as a teacher. Life is suffering, let's make the most of it.

The Divine nature of all that is, is God, and if we praise all that is divine and holy, the chance of being shaped by the void/abyss is high, thus illumination of the path, and the build up of the self in its most proper form. Our higher self. The Void, which affects and is connected to reality itself, a mysterious thing.

Imagine yourself not needing anything, it's difficult, I've felt your pain, or suffering. You need an outlet, a hobby, a craft..something to master, be it yourself or a craft, just my advice.

OSIRIS, god of the dead, ruler of the underworld. (pray to him and transform your psyche)

walk and imagine a bird, surrender all pain to the bird, so that you may become the bird, while in the process of decreasing the self, breathing and adapting. Focus on death, so that you may erode in the face of time, and surrender the self to the god head. walk, walk and walk.

seppuku with the sword of love.