Bodhidharma

It seems preety safe, it's with a shaman and with a group, but I am still a little afraid of going absolutly nuts or having a bad trip. I've been telling my self that whatever comes, comes, still...

I have this sound that comes from my right ear, I cannot describe it very well, the frequency is high and I can hear it only when there's at least a mild silence, it's called tinnitus. So, you can imagine it does not disturb me very much and it doesn't, normally. The problem comes before sleep or meditation, it's only in one ear and it's high pitched. I just toss it aside most of the time, but when I give space just to listen to it or sleep with silence, it drives me mad.I mean, imagine not hearing actual silence, just a shhhhh and nothing else. The solution that comes to my mind is just to observe it and the emotions it brings, but that is quite diffucult at times. Perhaps that is the reason I can't go to sleep without a OSHO talk in the background and that since my childhood I always listened to stories in the CD radio to sleep. Although I don't know for how long I have this sound in my ear. So the reason I'm writing this is because I was reading a book and the author was talking about silence and I cant hear silence. Perhaps it's an inner silence. Even so, Any advice or thoughts? P.s: Be mindful of forceful advice and commandments, I wan't to hear your honest advice and thoughts about it. Thanks

Ask yourself that, and tell me your opinion.

Thank you for your thoughts, very interesting points, later today I'll just lie down on the ground and surrender to the sound. I've been making peace with it for a long time. I surely didn't fucking know it could be a consequence of raising consciousness, that's new. Could you give a source where I can know more about it @Leo Gura? @RickyFitts Interesting as hell, never saw that.

@Leo Gura I have a question. Ok, after you finally landed a girl you want to commit with, you still have to be a delusional confident ass? I imagine that keeping someone is rather different, but I have this doubt.

I know this topic is a little off the forum category but since my topic on the "Book Reviews" is getting unheard I've posted this here I've noticed a strong addiction with a video game and I'm wasting my life playing it everyday. I need a book about addiction so I can understand and solve this problem in a efficent way. I'm not asking for Leo to add a book to the list necessarily, I'm just asking for a quality book about addiction . Thanks!

I've noticed a strong addiction with a video game and I'm wasting my life playing it everyday. I need a book about addiction so I can understand and solve this problem in a efficent way. I not asking for Leo to add a book to the list necessarily, I just asking for a quality book about addiction . Thanks!

Well, it's not necessarily wrong dude, it's just not how I want to be. I want to make music, study, meditate, exercice, be a better boyfriend and son, but it gets in the way. Of course people can play and do all that, I can't, it robs my day.

It is. Lmao you guys really do see Leo's videos, he said that in that Life Advice series I think, let's try it right? Also, do you guys have the same or a similar problem?

Holy shit man I will! I also think a lot about becoming a therapist and for sure this is one of the topics I will cover, because I know from experience how it is to spend quality time playing. Actually I'm already looking it up, it's a youtube channel, right?

DOTA 2 and in just that I've wasted 8000 hours!

I think a book will explain more profoundly on the matter, I'll watch the video as well, thanks.

I know porn has been discussed a lot in the forum but I didn't find nothing on regards to this. My girlfriend and I got on a big fight for this and I'm questioning my values here. I personally don't think it is, it's only natural to have sexual desire but if you think about it, it gets tricky. If you took your dick out in front of a woman trying to seduce you and masturbated to her it definitly seems like cheating. What you guys think about it?

We've discussed it a bit. The thing is that she is very jealous person and porn gets in the mix of that, I'm trying to be compreensive about it, but at the same time I notice that I have a high libido and porn just helps. It just doesn't affects my personal life, I think porn is fine, nothing wrong with it, with exceptions of course. Repressing ain't the way, until I understand my desires for what they are.

I actually thought about this saying. as I can see right now, no . But for me it's just a way to release sexual energy bro, I dont view it as right or wrong

you know that this is a metaphor right? lol I didn't do that

my inability to identify such perfect sarcasm is making me frustated right now

Maybe it's time for a change of view in the world, war is not the solution. I wish I could say more about this but I still don't know much.

@Fede83 Hey dude, if you're that curius about the mighty "dark night of the soul" search for the book @Matt8800 mentions, it has a session about it, it's a pretty fucking cool book.

Hello, past 2 weeks my conciousness got intriguingly higher and for 3 days life was wonderful, full of color, full of love and the interconnectedness of everything made me cry, but for some reason I got depressed for about 3 other days after that. After those 3 days it happened again, I got surprinsily awake and now I'm depressed again, I'm dying of boredom and sleeping everytime I can. I remember being so pacient and loving towards others, now it's rather the contrary. WHATS GOING ON???

Shit, conciousness work is so sneaky. You can't hold on to anything, maybe that's the whole point, stop identifying.

I cracked on this one Sweeeeeeeet dude! Sweet insight. The whole(not whole, of course) problem with tripping is that is has to be done right! Irresponsible tripping is so elusive.

Yeah man... I see it now. You are only able to experience the highs if you experience the lows. If you're in the lows it's a good thing to appreciate this, be thankful that this is only the mechanics of the proccess and exists for a reason.

@Nak Khid Yeah dude it's the following: in my view I'm in a comfortable position with them, women have a good time with me and I consider my self pretty confident( I even give some credit for my height), but sometimes my confidence is a little disturbed by this and I ask my self if I could be better. In my experience when you're a pretty short dude it's like getting out of a fucked up neighborhood, either you come traumatized (most of the cases) or you come as a badass. Of course it's not so black and white like that but I find it a good example. Also in my experience your height is a factor if you let it be that way, you create a whole reality behind the insecurity and it becomes obvious. Self acceptance and a little bit of humor is the key. I throwed this question here because I wanted to hear from you guys, there's a lot of wisdom around here.

Hey, I'm 18 yo and I always wonder about this, I don't struggle with women, but do you guys think it's a major desavantage and why?