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I agree with that, the ones which more impact or attachment produce are the ones who try to keep our idea of identity and separation. I will try again tomorrow and I will post about it. @JustinS it's a technique were you study the thoughts that arise and try to see where it came from to find out the falsehood of thoughts and how unreal they are. But I think @Huz88 can explain it better than me.

Sometimes is easy to see the thoughts as unreal, but some other times is so difficult. It seems so logic that it is difficult to not be engaged in overthinking.

I was always curious about I Ching...

The mind creates the illusion of an ego through though, IMO

You can try walking meditation

I began to meditate again and it was difficult. It's incredible how easily we lose our routines. It was 5 minutes of meditation and I was looking at the timer as is it was too much, crazy. And finally I just meditate 20 mins and I have to stop. I think tonight I will be back to my 30 mins meditation as usual. So, I am back to Day 1 - 20 minutes meditation

@Huz88 Thanks!!! Much appreciated.

@Huz88 Thanks, I got you know. I was confused with a method to see reality as it was 2D, with no volume as it if were a painting. I don't remember if I saw that on a Leo's video and I don't really remember the purpose hehehehe... And I think he talked about it as a flattening technique, like watching things as if they were projected like a movie. Thanks again! I will try to do it again, I understand that I was making a judgment. The idea also is to become aware of how thoughts are created and the mechanism why thoughts appear, right?

@Huz88 Question: The technique is supposed to see the thoughts as they are, no meaning to them, they are unreal. What is hard to me is that when I saw something, for example a red cup of tea. I think, "that's a red cup of tea" and I don't have idea how to see something unreal on it. I understand if I go to a level where atoms are part of the cup I can make it, and if I think atoms are really mostly empty space I can make it... but what I can see is a cup of tea anyway. How can I make it unreal or flat, or with no meaning. I am confused if flattening is also watching the objects as if they were a 2D drawing or as if they just make no sense. I mean, trying not to label them and watch them as if they have no meaning. Any hints???

I was trying today to do it but I still can't accomplish anything, I guess I need to do it more frequently. Thanks for posting the topic, it's good to make a practice of it.

Jesus said on Mark 9:19 And he answered them, “O faithless generation, how long am I to be with you? How long am I to bear with you? Bring him to me.”

@Huz88 I felt like I had holes all over my body

I think is for both reasons, they are being motivated by their emotions, feelings, their wrong thoughts, etc.

I think when you began with self actualization work, you realize there's no purpose in life. And that realization is so liberating that you understand that you can do whatever you want, and you really find purpose on life.

Maybe this articles can be of help. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-good-life/201108/there-are-no-accidents http://www.lightascension.com/arts/Therearenoaccidents.htm

Interesting stuff that trypophobia thing.

I think @Jani that SDS is a kind of meditation. You have different types of meditation and SDS is one of them. I am not an expert but I think is a good idea to do self inquiry too.

I agree with that, the idea is to challenge your comfort zone. :-)

I think you did a great job. You accomplish a lot, most of the people can't stay quiet more than 15 minutes. I think that is a great beginning. The idea is really to get bored, so... you bore the hell out of your ego until he leaves you due to boredom hehehehe... The ego is always looking for something exciting, interesting, funny, etc. In this way of meditation you bore the ego to death. :-P You will notice advances in your path, even if you are not aware of them. It happened to me too, everyone said strong determination was so hard, I expected it was going to be very difficult, I could meditate 30 mins. straight the first time. But that's our imagination at work, better not pay attention to that thoughts and not expect anything, just experience the now. My two cents.

The best thing is to continue meditating and waiting for the experience, anything we say is not going to help. I think it was mooji who said that we (our ego) can't be excited by being enlightened, because enlightenment means the dead of the ego. And the realization that there's no one to be enlightened. But I am still talking from my ego perspective.

This is going to be a philosophical idea, I don't think it's true but it just came to my mind. What if we are one consciousness? And we experience everything, the conscious part is the one that we see, feel, memories we collect to the physical mind and body, and the rest we experience it but at a subconscious level that we are not aware of, we are really unconscious of that experiences because the conscience decided to experience duality. Enlightenment would be when we become aware of that and we experience oneness again. But probably this doesn't make any sense, IDK. :-P

I am on vacation in my country, I´ll be back this weekend. I had great experiences and I´ll be more active in the forum next week.

I think you are answering it in your same question. There´s none (true self = no/self = none = nothingness). But when you truly realize that there´s nothing, at that moment you will see reality without distortion, ergo you will be enlightened. And for truly realizing I don´t mean being understood by logic or reason.