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Working on it. I feel like "I" observe the stream of thought, but the attachment to the idea that "I am thinking" is making me see that suffering. I was also thinking is the reaction of the ego that is noticing how I am more and more less identified with their tricks and construction of an "ego". I think the problem is the psychological time now that it doesn't let me "transcend" for once and for all.

You didn't do anything. Is not your fault. If you feel strong enough, talk to him and explain that this is not Ok, and if he continues you will have to tell your family. And wait to see what he does, maybe he stop... if he does not stop I think you will have to talk... Just my 2 cents.

I think that's the problem... it's thought saying it sees the illusion. Nice... Thanks @Faceless (again)

Hehehe... yes, I will do it tonight. I am going out with the family and I'll be back in the afternoon/evening... I let you know.

@How to be wise @Faceless I have a doubt about dukka :-) I feel free of suffering in the sense that I don't feel anymore that is me that is suffering. I observe how suffering appears but I don't feel identified, but suffering appears anyway. I don't know why, because I don't know any specific reason for it. But is is observed and I really don't feel affected by it but it bothers me that is still there.

I posted some sketches here, I will post pages tomorrow in that thread :-)

Some pencils I did during the week

He is the freak, not you Karin

You are welcome @ppfeiff I was surprised too. It has motivated me to keep trying with my Patreon page hehehe...

Thanks all for your comments! Very interesting thread! Good night!

Cool, thanks @Faceless :-)

I see that in the intention. Right now I am trying to do everything without any intention, just by doing it because I enjoy it. But that's also an intention too... I think this is what Buddhist call the non doing, an action that is not a result of interaction with a cause and it does not look for an effect. I am paraphrasing, not sure it that's correct.

How do you end psychological time? inquiry into it? observation? My (the) mind is always there trying to arrive to a conclusion.

Why do you think that?

@Karin12414 Teal Swan suffered a lot of abuse when she was a child, she has a lot of videos about how she overcome them. Take a look at her youtube website. She talks a lot about spirit guides and other stuff, I try to focus only in what I think she can be of help, like shadow work, she helps a lot on controlling emotions and things like that. Allan Watts has also great videos, but they are more general about enlightenment.

I am reading her book and she says something that I was thinking for a long time... everything we say is a LIE. I totally agree with that.

@egoless thanks for sharing your experiences, they are really helpful. In reality it's existence talking to itself, right? hehehehe... nice!

Yes, I will do that, no problem hehehe... soon I will be doing a webcomic. A writer is working on the script, it will be live soon. Yes, he is... thank to you too... because due to your icon I could find about him. I am following him on twitter and I added it to my patreon and facebook!

I will post some sketches I was doing, probably tomorrow. I posted one in that thread, here it is. I am working on a new webpage, I will send you the link when is ready. I have some illustration in my graphic design website, here http://mowsedesign.com/portfolio-item/illustrations/

First of all, you are not crazy. Always remember that the "you" that is created is just a result of a lot of factors, some are unconscious and probably with a shocking experience like you had, they will appear and re surface from deep within you. And you probably don't know why and that's why you are thinking that is something crazy or weird. One thing that helped me a lot was mindful meditation. It makes you observe your thoughts, as if they are there but they are not "your" thoughts. You are just the observer of them. When a thought arises, you just observe it and let it go. This creates a mechanism in you, that in my case it worked really well. Those thoughts that are negative disappeared like magic when I become aware of them. You feel really powerful and in control. Maybe you can try it and then tell us if it worked for you. Leo has a video about mindfulness and the one that I used was from Teal Swan.

I think is a kind of "killing" when you just observe it detached from it, like if it was a spoiled child. IDK, what do you think?

Thanks @Faceless It's incredible but you (people in general) can learn a lot about yourself by doing art.

I am going to post some stuff in this thread, so we don't hijack @egoeimai thread.