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When you realize that life is an illusion, you really live it fully.

It caused me a lot of uneasiness, when I didn't know anything about self actualization, enlightenment, etc... It was so scary to be nothing that I ended in the hospital. I had my dark night of the soul really. It was fast but necessary. I wouldn't be talking about this if I didn't pass for that period. My (the) mind went crazy for sometime.

A lot of sense... thoughts have to keep creating that idea of a person constantly, there's no person in reality. So nice!!! We are free! :-)

Cool lyrics! Good one!

I know what you are talking about. When we act more in the way our true self would act is not so much as a fassade. That could be the difference to know who is really faking it (like some religious people that are always happy but they didn't transcend it, or judgmental, etc...) and who is really closer to what he really is. Right? I know what you are talking about. Thanks! :-)

You are winning an Oscar! here you have it Lol That's a good one! But notice that anyway it's a chaotical fassade hehehe... Thanks @Serotoninluv I'm going down the rabbit hole, but I think I still didn't even entered in it. :-P Thanks guys for the comments!

Thanks! Finally I did them in the oven, it took like 15 mins.

Medium size sausage

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I went to the hospital when one day I woke up and I didn't know who I was. If you see that from the perspective of the ego, you will think (what I thought at that moment) I am having a problem in my head, I am going nuts, etc... That's why I went to the hospital. If instead of panicking I knew what I know now, I would stay quiet, in silence just being aware of what was happening and it will go away. Because as Buddha said, everything in the "world out there" is temporary and that experience will fade out and you will remain. If you see from the point of view of "the absolute" or "awareness" you will see that that's what you are. You are, just that... without stories about being born, being in a body, having a mother, a father, going to school, etc... Hope this helps.

Maybe is like taking the red pill.

@MsNobody this is the video I was talking about, not sure if you've seen it...

What I was pointing to is that maybe he's already talking about nature, the only thing is he doesn't call it that way. When he talks about the absolute, the connection with your true self, etc... nature is implicit in that. But that's my way of viewing, I think what you and @MsNobody are saying is good for the forum. I never noticed that, really... I will pay more attention in his next videos. :-)

I understand that hehehe... I never paid attention to that. I think that is implicit in his message, but maybe it's me. When he went to a meditation retreat he spoke about being in contact with nature, going out to meditate. I feel is his way of doing things. Maybe you can post it on ideas for his future videos, so he address and talks more about nature.

@MsNobody What's the difference between "God" "The Absolute" "Brahman" etc... and Nature?

An eye for an eye will only make the whole world blind. Mahatma Gandhi

A lot! You know that you are helping me in that I didn't notice how it goes to the "most important worry" position. Lol.... You are right! Thanks! Money is "real" problem for sure! hahaha.... Thanks again!!!

@Shin Totally agree! ?

On a second thought. This is what happens. I feel the character of me more and more like something that is not really me. I am most of the time observing my body/soul/whatever how it acts and reacts. But I don't see his worries as mine. But anyway sometimes I am caught in the illusion and fear arises. For example, I am having some problems with money (who doesn't right?) and I am worry of not being able to pay the rent, etc... things like that. Mostly money problems. Lol... I am trying to open a business online to offer services and solve that problem. But as I said, there's a part of me that is not worried about anything that happens. And sometimes seeing what my "character" does can make me get caught in the game, but every moment that passes I feel more like an observer of him with his worries and anxiety... there's a pain in the chest (not a pain exactly, like a discomfort let's say) at the level of the chest. Like angst that is trying to get out but it can't... I think is all money related.

@Jack River thanks, that was a very helpful insight. Thanks a lot for that. @Shin I think you are right about that. It's as Jack said, the ego/thought that thinks it has to get or achieve something in "time". @Nahm Do you know that fear is more and more disappearing and I am finding more and more trust in what is. That it doesn't matter what happens everything will end the way it is supposed to be. This is happening lately, I think it can be a little bit of spiritual grow in that sense. Not being worried about anything, but anyway I continue working, and doing stuff that my "character" is supposed to do.

Maybe that's what I have to do. I was trying that too, but maybe not enough. I try to see everything like new, no labels. I was practicing that lately.

I don't have a plan really. I know that to do something will go against what I have to discover. So, I only have to wait for "grace" or a non-event to happen that is not in my hands. That's one part of the thing. The other part is that I know that stories sometimes can help to get liberation, so I meditate... pray... I don't really know what I am doing really. Maybe I have to be quiet the whole day Lol... :-P

@Jack River @Shin Thanks a lot for your comments. I was reading the book that @Outer posted Happiness Beyond Thought by Weber and what he says that enlightenment is I have that. I had that insight long time ago. Maybe the ego still needs to surrender more that's why I am looking for more. I will post part of the book here so you see what I am saying: All this, I know beyond doubt. But I am still looking and seeking. People who is enlightened say that once you are enlightened you know it without a doubt. Why I don't know it? If all these that Weber says happened to me. I know without a doubt that I am not my thoughts, that I am not this body that the only thing I am aware or that I can be sure that it is IS awareness.... so why I still have doubts? Maybe it means that as they say, enlightenment is only the beginning. And I already know what is needed for enlightenment, but I only need to discriminate more to know what I really am.

@Nahm I just want to know or "see" directly what I am...

I am meditating on this. But I seem to be blocked about that. My intuition tells me that the desire to become is because thought says that I am not that. So, it wants to become what already is. I understand that, but I can't seem to see it clearly... I don't know why. :-P