in2deep

And thanks for the input. Will definitely explore this.

Feels like a type a waiting period. Or incubation period. A waiting to act towards something. But what I don't know. So I've been practicing, observing, and waiting. And getting impatient lol.

I need to sit with this: "why do I want to do"?

I sometimes struggle in these moments when I feel a strong desire “to do”. But there’s no specific feeling of what to do. I guess the question is…. When you’ve limited the grasp of the ego and its desires. When you’ve freed yourself from many societal constructs and obligations. When there’s nothing that you HAVE to do. What do you do? In trying to answer this question, I feel like the answer is “to be”. And in most cases, “being” is wonderful! It’s what I might call the essence of Life. But during these moments of a strong urge “to do”, “being” feels lacking. Incomplete. Confusing. And the idea of “being” feels almost absurd. This strong reaction has to be the ego but this realization doesn't provide much clarity. Well maybe it does....but this feeling remains. Does anyone else wrestle with this?