Aakash

@Joseph Maynor thanks that was good information, i definitely will adopt that @FoxFoxFox i will buy it not sure ill read it this year though @Nahm as true as you might have spoken, no amount of crying is going to untie this knot, there are certain absolute expectations should we say, and one is if you come from a background of no poverty then you have to atleast do something with your life lol, the middle way would help and i guess theres no harm balancing exercises i understand these are my beliefs, and that they do not exist but dropping them leads to further non-understanding and thats automatically lobsiding to spirituality, hence its drop everything and go back to normal as the answer i will definiitely be taking it in gear 2 if i ever pick this up again because hopefully i would balance and i actually understand how stupid it is to say this as god,

@David Hammond i see thank you for advise, i will take what you said on board, it will seem important to have a life purpose and i guess since youve suggested twice i will try to meditate without going into self inquiry mode and just be aware of the thoughts thank you for your help, its helped gravely

@Shadowraix Interesting, yeah your not wrong there its the only option i can see going forward, so it has to be the only right answer for me personally as god at the moment , Thanks for the confidence

@David Hammond yeah and i dont trust that peace to sort out my psychological parent issue and therefore i'm at a standstill between choosing right or wrong when actually both answers are right in context, its choosing the one that is more right are my arguments justified and so you recommend to follow enlightenment again after all my pleasures and psychological tendencies are done and dusted

@Rigel how so because you are all bending your realities against the majority of the populations views lol

@mandyjw yes and i'm saying its one or the other because i will always know the truth that it won't make me happy either i completely fool myself and pull a fast one or it won't work out i will automatically lean towards trying to become enlightenment and lose focus on becoming a millionnaire lol does my justifaction stand GOD-MOTHER PUN INTENDED

ohh interesting how soo i would like to think it is for this very reason, without having lived a normal life and going for straight enlightenment at a young age, it doesn't correlate with the flow of normal life, this is a problem alot of youngsters on this forum face,

@mandyjw yes my value system tells me that I should be successful because i came for a family that was well off , my parents have given me ample opportunities to progress in societys way education job etc. but i spent all of them thinking about reality but its not only my value system, it is also in allignment with my parents and therefore it is their expectation that i atleast do something considered normal with my life, not become an enlightened being, that does not count for them

@mandyjw it just sounds like jibberish :' ) law of attraction is your belief projected out and reflected back at you in your reality @noselfnofun thanks bro i'm sure you made the right move, @Jkris thanks bro

@mandyjw shall i tell you something funny, my dad hates actualise.org because i haven't actualised any actual growth only spiritual growth which isn't in the form of materialism, so to them i'm just wasting my time. i get that its spirituality, but you can't live with spirituality values, they're too extreme- terrorist are actually good ??!? ( i know they are but i'm just saying) @mandyjw @David Hammond its like i said, anything that leads to gateway of spirituality will suck me back into my thinking patterns because i want to know enlightenment so badly, its a catch-22 when taking the choice to the extreme, so i can't even meditate because ill be doing self-inquiry lool

LOL, thats power man I want to get a position where society doesn't question how i've lived my life and its simple i can laze around after like a sloth out of pleasure and the easiest way to do that is become a millionnaire :') society loves that shit and my parents won't think that all this thinking about god was a waste when it hasn't been

@Serotoninluv i can't, if i do this again ill end up in this same cycle and focus totaliy on enlightenment, its too dangerous for my survival for me to think about enlightenment at all, the paradoxs take too much time to debate and are too interesting, ill just drop everything and start doing it because i am passionate about it entirely lol, i'll lose sense of reality (as per the work) and then itll take a long time to regroup and itegrate its easier for everyone if i just become a millionnaire and spend life as a materialist believing god is seperate to I @David Hammond i have no interest in normal life and acting normal as a part time job, if i'm going to do it, i'm going to do it until the death of me. i can't balance it. its either extremes for me or nothing . but lets face it that works because you have mandy who understands, my parents don't understand and have no intention to understand @mandyjw yeah i guess they had expectations for me, i let them down because i was interested in this and therefore need to make it up to them. so simply put that just means a normal life that people expect NOTHING to do with sprituality

its not cultural baggage, its moral principality I have spent 6 years thinking about reality, not able to make decisions in real life because of many ethical considerations, perspective consideration, and that has put me behind because these topics are so complicated, it took years to rap my head around them in the first place. I was surviving enough in real life, and doing the bare minimum etc .. that's not right for child of parents lol, because everything should already be black and white in the first place and decision making easier than debating and thinking about everything thorougly, anyway i don't really focus much on the nity grity of life because obviously it doesn't exist and i am interested in enlightenment. which is wrong in itself, because to them the obvious is you should be exploring life, becoming success, making money etc.. like it would be to anybody. i simply don't know how long it would take to become enlightened and because i can't balance expectations,

@David Hammond I am Indian yes @mandyjw lol you can offer me some enlightenment conscious parenting advise, i'll be happy to listen ahaa

@David Hammond I'm 24 , way behind in my normal life 1st year of university, 2nd time - 1st time did pharmacy, now doing business management no job! plus no clue what i am passionate about besides absolute ahah basically all this translates to being screwed in life :')

@mandyjw LOL i promise you , In this world! i am the worst balancer , not belief - FACT. ABSOLUTE TRUTH , NO RELATIVISM WHAT SO EVER but mandy hammond, they don't see themselves as god or the toilet as god :'( to them the toilet is dirty and the atoms of the toilet are clean duality masters so i have to play by those rules!

Anyways Thanks guys

yeah okay that maybe true, but the thoughts themselves don't coincide with what others perceieve to the reality or their ego attachment, simply put: I can't do both because i can't balance so it was wasnt a choice of doing both, but picking one with all factors included, but thanks i hear ya good luck with reaching full enlightenment

@zeroISinfinity LOL my parents do not care about enlightenment or the benefits that come with enlightenment so it won't satisfy them Plus it'll take me too long to get there lol, its as i've said illl probably be homeless (as a joke not literally) by the time i get there IMMM not enlightened, i am definitely not selfless in nature or above all experiences currently,

@Serotoninluv i know right ahaha, it makes me sad not to finish, but alas the degree of uncertainly as to how much time it would take me to become fully enlightened is too time consuming for my mental thoughts which should be spent on survival. i don't know how to balance, which is my problem , because i'm too interested in the true self, so my mental activity lobes sides towards enlightenment when i should be thinking about what type of business i should be making etc .. normal questions for normal life you know, not does good or bad exist in the world and how does that lead to wars :') i could be homeless and still be interesting in enlightenment loool! so i'm too drastic with my actions and therefore its better to take them into consideration and just leave it on a high , i could end up being too much of a burden otherwise

@abrakamowse ahmen

@zeroISinfinity ahh dude it may be the truth but you know any judgement or argument can be backed up with logic that doesn't make sense and so my statement is: i'm happy keeping god as the bearded man in the sky, but my only goal is really to make my parents happy since they prefer me when i'm in my normal form (mental activity wise) and not searching for the god and its understandable loooooool, because it means i'm worried about my survival instead of chasing in their eyes what is a belief ahaha

@SriBhagwanYogi the i is not localised to the body, but it feels like it's in the body, that i is aware of the body because it is not the body. don't get what you mean here

i see yeah i just intuitively got that and felt that, its like secret language with no logical reasoning what so ever, because its already detached itself from the other 6 categories thanks man i'm so happy right now lol

@Mikael89 dude , why do i have to throw it in a bin? because its a concept?