Aakash

@winterknight okay i can do that easily now , its so effortless its sorta funny i thought i had to hold onto it. really thank you for your help although , since the seperate "i" is an illusion, the being is the chair and is the table. i don't have any further questions, i can answer all the rest for myself

@winterknight not to do with me specially but after "self-realising" which actually sounds so funny when you understand in your opinion why is this process so difficult when the answer is so obvious? AND this "i" is the same in every person and animal, but what about a chair?

@winterknight it feels like me, it feels like the true me, i can't even overstate it enough, it feels like the me who is aware of EVERYTHING that is happening and will ever happen, it feels like the only thing that could ever be me like it would be impossible to dissolve it further, because you would be itself the one you are trying to find its really weird its like the most obvious thing in the world when i was in silence with completely no thought it was the presence (me) that was aware it is the one who is aware of a thought

@winterknight it hasn't changed! the "i" is i! THE SEEKER the one being seeked is the seeker , it is i! i is aware of being aware i is aware of the thought of i i is! i am sure that is me because that is me!

i will answer you tonight , i need to do some self-inquiry

OMG is it "no-thing"

@winterknight it would still be there in the background of course aware of everything. but that is not the problem, the problem is "i" wouldn't be conscious of it and therefore be able to be it by holding on , i meant BEING SILENCE it was like a dimension of BEING, but i was infact holding onto it and therefore i probably went wrong there. @SoonHei yes but there is one who is aware of being aware! it doesn't just stop at being aware of the story called aakash and witnessing the characters life.

ahh man, silence trying to keep hold of silence? basically after a thought ended and there was silence, i held onto that, but i never asked myself who is holding onto silence because its just what was being done

i have been trying my best to hold onto the silence, i rejected EVERYTHING else why does it feel like i've been transported to another dimension? i've started to stop using the term "i" because i am holding that silence everything like being aware of things i.e birds chirping, food being cooked is happening outside of the silence

@Jkris thanks much love!

@purerogue LOOL thank you

@purerogue what is next! loool there's a next! but seriously i'm too direct to be a teacher, i don't have it in me.

@purerogue loool well i do love talking about the absolute, hmmmmm i guess there's no harm in talking about it my teachings would go something along the lines of, "shhhhhh, be quiet ... see that , hear that .... shhhhhh, right there" that that is only 50% of the journey the other 50 is "silence"

@purerogue ueghhhh i can't lol, anything i say is not about it, but ill try , this might be my posting days over lol

@purerogue yeah i realised how close i was, now its time to just be,

OMG I'M EXPERIENCING SO MUCH HAPPINESS NOW! EVEN ENLIGHTENMENT ITSELF IS A CONCEPT LOL! the individual that says he's enlightened is only a thought HAPPINESS LEVELS (10/10)

@ajasatya @purerogue i'm not gonna lie lol, the last thing in the world across this whole spiritual journey i wanted to do was identify with the wrong thing lol, its okay, its SILENCE! SILENCE IS AWARE OF BEING AWARE

@winterknight it is silence itself that is aware! even if you say "i am silence" that is a thought happening in silence. you can't even put your awareness on silence because you are silence itself! such a strange loop paradox.

@purerogue actually i couldn't until now, i couldn't put my awareness on awareness of the world itself until now,

OHH MYYY GOOD I AM AWARE, IT IS AN OBJECT! I AM AWARE OF BEING AWARE HOW DO I KNOW I AM AWARE, BECAUSE I AM AWARE OF BEING AWARE SO WHO IS THE ONE WHO IS AWARE OOOOOHHHH MYYYYYY GODDD THE ANSWER IS NOT A VERBAL ANSWER thats why i can't answer it, or get you to answer it for me BUT WHO IS AWARE!

@winterknight what about the question, where is the "i" coming from i never seen the find an answer to this, it's like the "I" is an illusion, therefore theoretically it should not even feel like an i it is like i'm the one who is aware of a self i called mine and then it comes from silence and nothing.

@purerogue Yes in other words i can detach from anything in existance, that is how i reached this point, its the same as putting awarenesss on existance itself.

i have had extended periods of being able to be the one who is aware of thoughts, sensations, identifications as a self, anything to do with being human but this itself still feels like an identification in my direct experience when i inquire into who i am? who is the one having these thoughts, sensations, identifications as self, even the letter "i" the answer is always silence, because whenever i go to the "i" feeling, it comes and goes, it comes from silence and goes back to silence my question is, why do i feel like "i" am still this silence? how do i get rid of it? (again i count up in a strange loop, because the one who is asking this question is also the coming from silence, so it's not "me" who is asking the question")

" What exists in truth is the Self alone. The world, the individual soul, and God are appearances in it like silver in mother-of-pearl. These three appear at the same time, and disappear at the same time. The Self is that where there is absolutely no “I” thought. That is called “Silence”. The Self itself is the world; the Self itself is “I”; the Self itself is God; all is Siva, the Self. He who gives himself up to the Self that is God is the most excellent devotee. Giving one self up to God, means constantly remembering the Self. Whatever burdens are thrown on God, He bears them all. Since the supreme power of God makes all things move, why should we, without submitting ourselves to it, constantly worry ourselves with thoughts as to what should be done and how, and what should not be done and how not? We know that the train carries all loads, so after getting on it why should we carry our small luggage on our head to our discomfort, instead of putting it down in the train and feeling at ease?"

@purerogue There is only silence, the "i" thought arises from silence and goes back to silence @Jkris i'm not sure because if i say "am i the one who entered" its wrong, if i say any words, they aren't that, because nothingness is before words, so i can't answer your question in a way. basically any answer i give you, is not it.