Aakash

@Mikael89 they were two seperate things , but its sorta combined yes, listen lol, i'm reacting that way because i've been trying to break into turquois and get one foot in it for the past 3 months loooooooool! you have no idea how much i hated not understanding turquoise properly.

omg yeah that makes so much sense, its so spantenous that you can't rationally explain it or plan to go turquoise, it's going more deeper into reality and into enlightenment for that matter. yeah i can't see it being anything other than intuition, because there are no boundaries or framework for what turquoise relies on because its about being being so i can't even ask you to describe another room in turquoise because thats logicall

WOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWW THAT MUST BE THE FUNNEST THING EVERRRRR IN THE WORLD TO DISCOVER TO TURQUOISE ROOMS i wonder what other sort of turquoise energy/ wavelengths beings can get on

OHHH MYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDD LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL! OOOOOOOHHHHMMYYYYYGOOD LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL that is literally turquoise OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOODDD THAT IS TURQUOISE, THATS THE WHOLE OF TURQUOISE! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL! LOOOOOOOOOOOL to the power of infinite

I think you made me glimpse enlightenment, its like suddenly a lot of things made sense

Is this what you do everytime you speak on this forum, it's so delicate that i don't even think people realise it i understand the term: ego dynamic now when you talk about it.

I have reconsidered and fully understand with clarity the process, the "I" feeling is god, it is your true self, however, it constantly attaches itself to identifications in world of form, when you go through the self-inquiry to the end, you have no doubts what the "i" feeling is as it has detached itself from all possibilities, alot of the questions i was confused about have no cleared up about how to live etc, the "i" feeling when completed breaks down all duality and then thought and all these things about how to live, don't exist, because only the "i -feeling exists" that is you but your "who you thought you were before" continues going on in the world of form again this part is only an assumption but you have cleared my doubt, my doubt was, is the I-feeling god or your true self and that is what i couldn't understand - the difference between I as an egoic thought and the I as a true self , but i'm clear on it now so i wanted to thank you for all the progress you've helped me made, it must be nice to see things clearly by knowing what that I -feeling is clearly

@Serotoninluv maybe you are right and i'm claiming it to be I, i have foundations for calling it "i" although i must say your post on the body thread, has bought out something inside of me and therefore you might be right about the ego being a slight dynamic to survive, i feel i understand what all these spiritual teachers and masters do to their students to awaken them how you made that guy detach from his identification and how there was also a slight detachment when you said it could be ego clinging again none the less, i never understood the concept of ego fully until i wrote it out @Jkris see that's the thing, that i feeling is NOT seperate, that i feeling is god, because you are god you've just attached and identified to everything in reality or the world of something duality

nope but i feel like my heart has opened up, where ever it is. whenever i go to the feeling of i, my being, love instantly comes up, i mean i call it love, but its obviously not

the heart is not located where the "heart" beats! the heart is your very being! we think there is someone who is experiencing love coming from the heart but the love is itself being

yes until there is no distinctions possible

The separation of self comes into effect when there are boundaries created between the existence of things by this i mean that the world of "something" causes you to create distinctions in your being this is what it means by creating a finite self lets use an example it always starts off with "i am" the true self is like a shapeshifter if it has the thought that it is a body, the "i" becomes a body if it has the thought it is a human being , the "i" becomes a human being if it has the thought it is a human being with a car , the "i" becomes a human being with a car if it has the thought that it is awareness , the "i" becomes awareness if it has the thought that it is the witness of thoughts , the "i" becomes a witness of thoughts if it has the thought that it is sad , the "i" becomes sad if it has the thought that it is a human with a past , the "i" becomes a human with a past what can we infer from this ? it 's a cliche term, "what you think you are is not that" if it is anything in the something of reality it will AUTOMATICALLY create a boundary if you think you are standing 3m away from a brick wall with a picture of a goat on it ... the "i" becomes the distance of 3m away to a brick wall however, when everything is eliminated from something what is left? infinity , space, the lack of identification to being human, the lack of identification to anything in something-ness

@clouffy animals still have seperate selves so they're not enlightened however, to even state there is a concept of enlightenment is not true and therefore there is no enlightenment to which an animal could reach vice versa its kinda the same as saying everything is already enlightened :') mindfuck levells 10/10

@ajasatya i'm a little hasty about using the word GOD i prefer not to name it in a way, but yes i would call this gods soul in a way on second thought it feels wrong to call it anything other than it is GOD

@Serotoninluv another identification to the feeling of i hmmmmm , the feeling of I is only words i have spoken the feeling of I in my direct experience is experiencing no attachment to anything as of currently it is just being itself it also does not recognise what you mean by ego anymore

your ego is a concept used to help you find what you truly are with clarity at this point you will realise your ego was never a seperate thing from yourself and that the ego was itself you the whole time so don't take the concept of ego so seriously that it gets you down about having one just use it as a light pointer to understand that it simply means "the thing i am identifying with" and nothing more when you are demonizing the ego and saying it is the worst thing in the world and i want to get rid of it completely just remember that this itself is another thought and that what you really want is more deeper understanding of what the ego actually is the ego is not the enemy, the thought of the ego being the enemy is the enemy having said this i understand how you feel, i wanted to get rid of mines so badly i would do anything, ANYTHING so in a way i used this hatred i had for my ego as fuel to find the true real self even more

There is no winterknight :') Dude i hope you get enlightened too! have you found the feeling of I?

@winterknight Thanks the doubt suddenly dissolved, it's not bothered anymore for now, thanks for your help

it doesn't matter what thought is thought, what things are seen, what questions are asked, what mind activity is used, it all leads back to that feeling of I That feeling of I is the same in everyone and everything.

I ask because i have a psychological need to seek confirmation biased, i am entirely sure that it is "I" i just need you to say it is the I, this feeling of I i'm 100% sure it is the true self because it can not be anything else But my mind is in the way, it is still this feeling of I which is asking the question, because my mind is telling me that i am always deluding myself to no extent but my being is not my being is telling me this is I so as an enlightened person which now sounds ridiculous lol, it actually makes no sense if this feeling of I is the true self

@winterknight Sorry i added it in the end Is this where your self inquiry ended

FEEL that I... hold that I, grasp that I, pursue that I, chase that I. That I is what i'm talking about okay now were moving forward, sorry about this THAT IIIIII THAT FEELING OF IIIII (that feeling of I is the best way to describe it) THAT I THAT IS the ONLY thing that I is. It couldn't be anything else because its the only thing that you can ever know. that is the furtherest my self inquiry has gone AND it is the truth! my whole being is telling me it! IS THIS WHAT IS THE TRUE SELF

but i'm not talking about an individual ego "i" that is "i- thought" i'm talking about the fact everything exists itself the present moment itself exist existence itself My exsistence itself the statement: THE FACT I EXISTS I IS

Fine , but there is one who exists no? that one thinks it is "i", so is it impossible to assign "i" to that one who exists

i see , i agree then only thing that i could do was remain silent as if it just is.