TheSomeBody

so what happened? that what happened, it was so harsh, even painful exstacy, but i was sure about it

i have an analitical type of thinking, i pursue enlightenment and i really dont like to go out (except for being in the moment stuff,like going to the beach , nature) , i mean it is fine to go out but the value for it is little. if i go out i do it to talk to other people so i could get another perspective about life and about my thinking failure. getting a girlfriend just gonna be a distraction of my goals, take my time. sex is not as valuable as enlightenment or meditation. i see leo's videos and i dont get it , why he pushing his audience to get into a relationship? what is the goal?

because i can

killing the depression and live fully? i am just in my baby step i think i get it? i just need to want it?

so what should i do? i have to be in relationshop to get enlightenment?

so i should not care about it? but if i dont need her, why should i do it? our ancestors didnt have a phone

superhuman levels of mastery in meditation, yoga, level of enlightment... ummm when you get older you get less and less innocent and this beuty in the relationship pretty much gone. im still innocent and people my age still innocent. when i had experience with a relationship ate age 15 it was so beautiful. now it is like mehh. i mean, she want a relationship to cuddle with me , have sex with me, go out with me, feel being loved by me and so on... if i dont give it to her the relationship do not has a balance. she probably wont get what she wants because now it is really unimportant thing in my life .

she is a human too, she has needs and feeling. i cant deny it. i can have sex and dont be in a relationship. i also learning alot about it and i have a job so it mosly take my time for now. for now i dont have really a life purpose, i want to take leo's course but i have to do some stuff and then i will buy it. superhuman levels of mastery sounds for life purpuse for me now but it can be only a fantasy in my mind and not my real purpuse. im 19

in his video of "Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs To Self-Actualize" he is kind of encourage it.sometimes he doesnt but he have lots of videos about dating so he kind of does i think,maybe it is to attract people?. it is still taking lots of time and messing with your feeling in his video of "Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs To Self-Actualize" he is kind of encourage it.sometimes he doesnt but he have lots of videos about dating so he kind of does i think,maybe it is to attract people?. i think that knowing how is being in a healthy relationship helps you to know how to balance emotions and how does people influence each other and understanding the oness. i didnt think about it deeply so there is more to it. ^

but it would hurt my health and i should be alive to experience enlightenment.also, i can shower and think about enlightment... i want also to build skills to get the enlightenment easely. relationship would take almost all of my time the main point is, why he is pushing for this ? if it would happen so i would study about it. thats why you need to be careful...

yes because i will have other projects to work on. or all i will do is just taking care on my survivel and just being.

should i do it now or after i will change my diet?

i saw it. he is not really 100% scientifice about organic food but i get what he was saying after how much time i can feel the difference?

so only organic? i read about organic food and it is sounds like a myth

uumm i will try i remember the days after i took a magic mushroom , i was really alert and i could feel what food is good for me and what is not. i ate chicken meat and it felt like i ate a crap, and fruits and veggies felt so good to me , i wanted to be a vegan but it was too early for me to do that because i wasnt sure if it is just a confusion or a real thought. i dont know if it is a good way to choose your diet because if i read that gluten is bad then everytime i eat bread it feels bad after and i dont know if it is a placebo effect or a real effect that i have just noticed now.

wow , this is like heaven diet . but after mystical experiences i had , my whole prespective of life changed and now i see the importence of spirituality and i want to maximaz it.so better off deliciuse food , mystical experience much better. a caveman probably eat whatever he finds i guess... lots of vageis,fruit,nuts and sometimes meat.maybe insects?

if i want to make yogic diet, how many of fruits should i eat? what kind of fruits are the best? what about nuts? what about nuts and fruits that the ancient yogic didnt know about? are they good? bad?