Theodor95

Hello. I wanted to do 30 minutes of it but after the mark i saw that i could keep going and i did. Laying on the floor with just a small towel beneath my head. 90% of my emotions were motivation and focus to do this. I periodically checked my hands after 20minutes or so to see how i can move them. Let me tell you only after 50mins i had to actually use more of my mental strenght to the point where i don't usually use it (except maybe the gym but i've been slacking there recently) but now i feel much more in control i think? I did something like 55 minutes and i saw the video telling me to wait on the floor and such but i usually like to do it my own way and just got up (not too fast) . I was a bit dizzy , one step was a bit bad then it was better, my vision was a bit trippy for a while tho. I also listened to my own music , the chants and other stuff are just a guide but i have my own one . For sure i'll do this technique more. I just felt more in control with myself , that's mostly the emotion for me. No crying , just a bit of pleasure from the whole activity being actually challenging after like 45mins . My inner voice said to stop and i did , i don't wanna push it too much . Still , it felt like dying , my pupils were getting a bit numb even if i was in full control of my hands (even if they move a bit in slow mo ) I didn't see anything weird tho , maybe a little light for a second or a feint image of someone looking over me? Nothing too serious . By the way , focusing felt like when entities "enter" my "dreams" and i need to mentally focus my invisible energy to control the invader and make it go away , sometimes i couldn't move so i could only use my mind. Sometimes i wonder what is the point of all of these