Anna Konstantaki

@Marc Schinkel I get a little upset when even people who like this cartoon or any other good story don´t get the higher messages embedded in it or don´t try to use the information in their own lives... As for what you said about Zuko... His growth is definitely of the most depicted and visible ones. I don´t think he surpasses the others but I agree that he is emotionally of the most if not the most challenged one since he is both psychologically and physically left with a big scar. It is not just that he decides to help the avatar save the world in the end but that he saves the world from the development of his own psychopathy first. All main characters face their shadow sides and grow from that but he doesn´t even know anything else rather than his shadow, his identification with what he falsely believes to be his destiny is all he has. He is a good symbol for all the suffering one causes to oneself but also to people who could be allies by operating from a place of ignorance. Still, it is easy to relate to him because all of us are ignorant and many of us start from a place where we thought we are justified to act and feel like we did because it was all we had learned nearby surviving. But I can relate to Aang as well because he procrastinated his Avatar duties out of fear and because of his playful and childish approach towards the world. Plus, having to be the bridge between worlds is like self actualization after all. You have to balance and lead and decide what suits every situation... You have a spirit world and the world you where born into.... I find it interesting that he decides not to become a yogi master and sacrafice his own spiritual needs in order to save the world and to... Find love. Human love with Katara. (I was actually disappointed about that because I´d rather be alone forever -hehe). Then there is Toph Beifong... I like Toph because she has this problem with the strong, unshakable girl identification and I suffer(ed?) from that too. She loves being autonomous and finds relationships challenging because her parents showed their love in the wrong way. Also... She is fucking beautiful and does not know because she is blind. But even though she is blind she sees and understands more than most. Her bending abilities are of the strongest and coolest and her teachers were animals, instinct and nature. People underestimate her because she is small and cute. Used to happen to me when I was younger... She is definitely of my favourite characters. Sokka. Goofy... Yeah I can be goofy. I think his role is a bit that of the outcast. He can´t even bend. He has to keep up by facing his weaknesses with Humor and creativity. In the beginning I was wondering why he is even part of the story but then I tried to imagine the story without him and I think he is a nice symbol for the fact that we need everyone in this world. Everyone contributes what they can. We can´t all be benders but that doesn´t mean we can´t work along with amazing people on amazing goals. Aaand... Katara. I know this care-bear motherly drive one can have. She is fully feminine and very mature. She reminds me of a part of myself I have tried to kill. Because I thought it was weak. Maybe I am jealous that she gets Aang in the end... Who knows... Gotta think of that...

oh and... Leo mentioned Escher... I ran across his work in 2014... This one was of my favourites... Don´t get me started talking about it... He also (finally?) mentioned Carlos Castaneda... I started reading some in summer but gave it up. I am taking it up again... It is so strange how on some days everything somehow fits in together with itself. It is so strange how life (or however you want to call this mystery) gives us puzzle pieces here and there and we can put them together and form a picture. I always complain about life not giving me direction, not knowing where to go but that is not true. It is revealing ways to walk all the time, it´s just that at the moment it happens I am blind to it. Oh, Leo doesn´t drink coffee? Me neither. Even though I am developing a tea addiction lately... I think the last video was a bomb dropping. I have already planed the study of psychedelics into my life but now I am thinking that there is much, much more to do here. MUCH, much more. Also... That placebo affect, that self fulfilling prophecy... Reminded me of something. Once my best friend lent me a book. If you translate the title it was called "Mum´s marihuana is the sweetest". The entire story was based on the placebo effect. In the story some people were falsely made to believe that getting stung by a scorpion makes you get super high or something like that... Downfall was that homeopathic medicine hasn´t worked once in my life since hearing more and more about the placebo. Speaking of scorpions, those creatures taught me a lesson from early on. You would expect that a house built in the middle of a field surrounded by the gardening of a woman´s dedicated green finger would be rather safe, right? You would expect your children to be more safe inside the house rather than outside? Well, think twice... I was around 6 years old when I was playing with my brother in our bedroom. At some point we were laughing and chasing each other around and he chased me I was sort of falling backwards but he stopped me and said: Anna, don´t lean against that wall, there is a strange looking animal. Let´s go ask mum... Mum tried not to show panic... A nice, I think around 11 or 12 cm long scorpion was silently coexisting with her kids (god knows for how long, maybe it grew up with us...) in not just any room but their goddamn bedroom. Dad had to come and kill it of course... So that is life´s lesson on safety... Exactly: What safety? Take some risk. If you die, you die and if you are lucky nasty nature or nasty human ignorance will spare your life.

This is part of how my school desk looked like when I graduated: I am familiar with this feeling... This feeling of insanity. When you´ve lost it. When you´re like: Oh, I don´t believe any of this. Oh, this is all crazy and how the hell does or did A and B or C happen? And why? And you know what? I am just happy to be alive somehow. You tell me how the world is like and what I should be doing? And thinking? This is all crazy. You´re all sick. Me too. But at least I know it. I don´t know what is right but I know what is wrong. I have stuff. So much stuff. Stuff in my head. I don´t know where it comes from. I want to follow it. It´s telling me stuff I have to do and you, you rob all my time. And I can´t do it. I can´t be "myself". You can´t tell anyone though. There are things that make perfect sense when you have gotten lost in the details of insanity. Your intuition makes you continue along the smaller parts of something that grows so big and complex that when you step back and look at it you think: Oh, that escalated quickly. Speaking of school... I have had this secret desire to write finals again. I did not do so bad (for someone with my background in that fucked up, greek school system and infrastructure ). I know that school and examination in Germany, where I am now aren´t exactly paradise either but... I feel like fighting for a second chance... It won´t just be handed to me. That´s for sure... Oh and... Not all cartoons suck. I was... Dating? Dating a guy and he showed me this cartoon called Avatar, master of the elements. There is this scene where the character Zuko is trying to help himself in a situation by asking "What would uncle Iroh say? (Uncle Iroh is a wise old man). He comes up with this: Hahaha... Sounds a little crazy but it´s pretty accurate, isn´t it?

Yesterday Leo mentioned that he suffers from cold hands and feet and I bet he´s not alone. I have a rather mild version of this and I found this helpful, so give it a shot:

"luck symmetry" Ever been triggered into PTSD, had to resolve it with a lot of emotional labour, see how it´s attached to ego, sedona to release etc...? Ever shortly after felt like testing your luck for some reason? Wanted to take a risk as if you had this deep inner desire for luck symmetry in life (trauma=bad luck, winning sth, money for example= good luck). Ever felt like gambling? Well, the real "luck symmetry" is in our hands. YOU create it. VICTIMS RISE! What trauma and even PTSD can teach the limits of our minds/bodies at different ages, circumstances and stages of development prevention of new trauma deeply understanding human behaviour in different contexts consciously "altering" a memory by adding information and perspectives to it drawing knowledge from memory without feeling that it predicts how the world or our sense of self has to be like conscious construction/deconstruction/reconstruction of meaning around events kindness and compassion towards our and that of other (once) ignorant parts understanding (amongst other) the sense of self as an accumulation of pleasant and unpleasant experiences understanding the world as an incredibly diverse place where the feeling of safety is something YOU construct and give to yourself how to regain trust in the world/yourself understanding the value of trust and well being how to seek trust and well being how to handle a situation by having subsequently learned how to process and mindfully re-experience a dissected by thoughts and senses version of an experience that at the moment perceived you could not deal with how much time healing takes how much healing pays out how our psychology rules our lives and how we can rule our psychology how humans and the world can change if they want to how to eventually help others That´s how shit becomes gold. Amen. (it is at least the perspective one can take on good days and I know... I know it´s so, so hard. So feel free to feel whatever. I am just trying to make the best out of life. Much love, A.S.K.)

And the snail/me is like: Holy cow... +strategic thinking, money psychology, success etc...

yes, give us poor monkeys some love, truth and light, hahaha

Enlightenment and dealing with it As far as I understood Jeffery Martin there are 2 ways people react to the permanent non symbolic experience or enlightenment...( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azYF3EFpZ4g). 1. There are those who feel free and at the peak of pleasant and 2. Those who feel desperate, fall into deep depression and maybe even commit suicide. I guess that is why Leo once said something like: If you want to get enlightened and then kill yourself, then fine. We can´t know in which category we´ll fall, or do we?

4 different investments Wisdom, cognition, sense of self and the life purpose that suits it. These are hard to loose or loose track of once you have figured them out... I can finally work through a day knowing that my time is not wasted. Now it´s just all about balancing these out. In the beginning I had no clue how some things should fit together with each other but now I see that this whole balancing act is very related to a flexibility of motivations that come with the deep understanding of how these make you functional on all levels that life in the first world allows you to play in. Building infrastructure I like it how actualized.org provides the vocabulary to talk about what we are doing... "Infrastructure" sounds neat I have to say. I don´t think that the infrastructure was ever my weakness point. My weakness was all those psychological burdens I had. And some big lack of the right information to solve problems or help myself. Of course he´s right about getting lost in building that and the danger of making your emotions depend on the outcome of what you´ve built. I am glad to have been warned... the search I felt encouraged to look at who I was before I conformed to culture, before I bended for a state, a friend, morals, beliefs and my family. So... What kind of child was I? Well, going back into childhood I found many, many crazy memories. "Anna ist frech= Anna is naughty", that is something I remember my mother saying a lot. Of course I denied that but now I look back and... It´s the truth. Here is a story I keep on laughing my ass off about... I must have been six or seven years old when my godfather gave me one of those cabbage dolls with the big cheeks that have a plastic head with wool hair and a soft body as a gift on easter. Lea was her name. She looked a little like this: just even funnier... These dolls they have the cabbage doll tattoo on one of their butcheeks so that you know they are the original (who would fake that thing?). But the front of the doll I had was even better... It had a big belly button, standing away from the body, sort of like a pimple which would divide the rest of the down part in two halves... Long story short, it looked like a micropenis. Production has changed that by now so that it looks more like a belly button... One day my mother and I were driving away from schoolyard (that is before we moved to town so she had to drive us to a nearby village to school). I see my doll next to me, I see my teacher standing in front of the building watching us... I am just trying to imagine this from the teachers perspective. That little, nice and usually rather quiet and respectful 6 or 7 year old girl, opening the window, pulling that strange looking dolls dress up-underwear down and driving away, obviously highly amused. TWhat a troll I was. I don´t think my mother noticed me doing that. Oh and I think that after the exposure I had one hand free to wave him goodbye.

understanding us (young people) I wish I had more time to analyze this one... So, my peers and I have the job to make technology from master to servant again? Okay... It can´t be much harder than doing the "dropping the roles you play-Worksheet"... Right?... Maybe I should start a new topic titled: What´s easy? Or no... What is not complex? Or how about: Why? Do I care. So much. Questionmark. -Uh... You just spent all day in symbolic reality Anna... That´s why you feel this way. Just take a break...

@STC I say your haircut as to its influence both on you and on others is limited. Just like this conversation I´m afraid... Look, if it helps you to shave your head then do that... There are enlightened people who pay a lot of attention to how they look and there are enlightened people who don´t. It´s not a measurement for how serious you take spirituality or how wise you are. How attached you are to looks won´t show by your looks or the meaning you give to them but to how you feel about them. You titled this topic "your stupid looks"... Looks are just looks. Peeeeace ... (hey, why do I sound so hippy when I´m happy? )

@STC What do you mean with spiritual light?

@STC Good question. If non attachement is the only meaning one wants give to their appearance... There is some symbolism and practicality coming with this. That is all a monk needs... But you and me? We have to find balance between the spiritual and rather selfless side of life and the side where you have a personality that people register, where you have some job and some relationships. Nothing wrong with looking in the mirror and looking at something aestheticaly nice. Or sharing some sort of art or being a symbol for certain self care to others... But if this whole haircut thing has taught me something it is that a haircut does not make you more or less spiritual... I mean... Our friend here just said that we can be spiritual with a dildo in our mouth... It´s just a little reminder... A little help... Some life practicality... Some playing with peoples perception... Rather unimportant...

@STC Same philosophy... You shave everything short or rather short except from the edges, the hair line around.? If you don´t want to look like an idiot ( that monk cut is an absolute aesthetic kill if you ask me), that ligher version will be what people will do. Also, if the hair grows back to some level you will look very similar to that. I just want to warn people from looking like a nazi bride.

@STC haha yes but that actually comes very close to the classical nazi bride haircut so ladies... I would not recommend that.

@Whywolf niiiiice... I do find the skull tattoo idea rather genius because if you want to move in conservative, non open minded territories of people, you can still investigate in a good wigg... Or just regrow your hair if you get bored of it... I have wasted hours of thinking of how I would make such a tattoo look like for me so that I will never regret it. Maybe one day I´ll do it. One day when I will have perfectionized the design and won´t rely on appearing serious and professional ever again. Actually... Living a double life was a plan of mine because in the eye of the mainstream (mainstream beauty standards) attractive people still get many benefits, why miss out on that? On the other hand I want to be free. So that has always been an issue. Pleasing and teasing vs not giving a single fuck, embracing "ugliness", maybe even be a little arrogant...

I toped it by taking an eyeliner to draw and write on my shaved skin so that people think I have a skull tattoo... MOst people responded positively... Only thing that changed in my relationships is that my brother would always either call me Billy or Fungus before. Now, that is reduced to Billy.

@Empty ...

Potential Some months ago I was thinking about the enhancement of human senses [electricity enhanced seeing ( human became more night active and productive), same with television and the internet, microscopes and telescopes... Hearing was enhanced by getting all this information from afar, not just visually but sound guided, then of course there are headphones and telephones... Nothing new. Human senses were globaly expanded by mainly single mind developed technologies and the world never was the same again. I was wondering what the next step would be. What sense is it that we have not expanded yet? What an idiot I was not to realize that scientists do not work on figuring out the human connectome, on mapping the brain just for tasting the knowledge. It´s all about the use. It is our very cognition they want to enhance... The very core of all senses. They are essentially trying to hack their own system and copy it as an unorganic version (Artificial Intelligence). After having figured out not just the human connectome and also the human genome... They will be playing creator. If we trust Michio Kakus predictions at least... (Unless... Consciousness destroyes their plans...). Unless consciousness is more than just a number of feedback loops... So... This is the potential of figuring out consciousness... Scientists need it to create the perfect AI or... To complete a theory of everything or... To create cognitive enhancement. They will implant some chip, or manipulate genes before people get born... No matter if an enlightenment chip, pill or surgery, or glasses, or smartphone... Once the mechanics are put into equations, they will make the access to a state of well-being by no (at least egoic) thought an everyday comfort in a matter of time. Actually I don´t know if it scares me more if they make an AI or if they start manipulating our bodies... Oookaaay... Artificial wisdom? On the other hand... If people get rid of their suffering and achieve better well-being by this then... Fine. We might as well end in a world of modern sages... Unless... They do not care so much about enhancing us by creating well-being. Also: Who says there is a correlation between well being and compassionate action? We might as well end up in a world of zen devils ala mount hiei style! Shiiit... Or what... What if they do not care about well being and manufacture a technology that will make us better thinkers, hyper focusing geniuses, prodigies fall from the sky but without tasting the pleasure of being... Sounds rather autistic or at least like a competition about who will come up with next scientific breakthrough or about who will breed the next generation that will create scientific breakthroughs? Or what if something goes wrong? Or what if it does not equal out in its functionality/result fluctuation? I think we should start asking ourselves if we can create artificial wisdom too and not just artificial intelligence, or if one can at least contain the other. There might happen some sort of "update" for humanity. Even if water, food, getting rid of trash, producing clothing and using transport etc gets automatized by robots and drones, if all humans can live out their geniuses by juggling around with abstract thoughts and flood the worlds labs etc the world will have its problems. There are lessons to be learned and experiences to be understood. Are we really too short of time to allow humans to build their own intelligence and wisdom by changing the god damn education systems or teaching them and their parents psychology and philosophy... Okay that is far fetched... Well, why would I get upset about this? I can very limitedly change the outside world. I have a mixing board to tune... If I could just decide what kind of song I want to play though...

Sage like Life Version 1 (hardcore version) Ramana Maharshi style... Or Jesus? Buddha... That kind of guys... Everyone calls you lazy, hates on you for years, you attain enlightenment and... Bliss out! Then you develop deep self mastery and become a teacher experiencing true worship from you drop out of nowhere disciples. + supermind or clear light whatchamacallit, perfection, edge of human experience and self mastery - (highened mortality) bad finances and health, you won´t reach a really broad audience (unless your disciples do the marketing for you and create a youtube channel or somethin´), no paper written qualifications therefore no status in the mainstream sense (might stop many people from taking you serious) Sage like life Version 2 making a living while nearby working on enlightenment, on deepening and making it constant. Doing research, gain insights and then write books (have you noticed how many sages are authors?!), maybe give seminars or do arts.... + you will have a social presence, reach and inluence many, you will be able to consider the multiple perspectives that out of ongoing discussion with others you will have access to, your studies will materially supported, there will be room for all kinds of relationships if wished - you will not have much time for really intense and close teaching (unless you get paid for it maybe), you will ahve to keep a sense or function of self and personality, you will be very surrounded by peoples suffering, your spiritual practises might suffer under your bussiness or family or whatever responsibilities, you will have to handle critics and competition Sage like life Version 3 the scientist sage, life devotion to a double life where you study similar or very related but seemigly never unifiable aspects or functions of consciouness in a spiritual and a scientific context/understanding. Your bread and butter is both meditation and testing hypothesis... On the one hand you embrace the state of not knowing and on the other you constantly expore and try to understand what does not seem to be understandable. You get enlightened sometime between earning diplomes, writing and reading papers... + gaining an audience won´t be that hard (unless your theories are crappy), perspectival exchange will be an everyday phenomenon, you might actually discover something that might spark great change in the world or at least be qualitative considerable knowledge and food for thought for others... - you will be surrounded by knowledgegraph phanatics, especially naive realists like no where else, you might get very stressed, you might understand the world but go crazy. Time will always be against you. You will be alone. The spiritual people will call you a materialist and the scientific people will call you a mystic... Well okay, who cares about that... Okay, I´m tired... YOU tell me where the heck balance is supposed to be found in this opportunity mess.

Here is an alternative title for last Sundays video: DJ Lion Guru and his new track "balance" featuring Santiago and the King of Egypt. #mixingboards... I had a hard time accepting that I still have a long way to go for optimal balance but... No master ever fell from the sky... Right Leo? "shut up Anna, my ear is bleeding... #backfiring mechanisms..." Now, let´s get happy everyone! Cute and cheezy music brought to you from MC YOGI! (Yes, I just stole JP Sears backgroud music...) MC YOGI has a song in which he tells his life story called "Road home". It inspired me to look at all the ways you can go about making your life more sage like...

names are temporary... forms are temporary... put this full screen, lay back and then YOU tell me... what´s going on? what is going on right now?

Choices The more time I investigate into finding out what is possible for me to experience, the more I am confronted with the question: Do you want to let go of suffering? It´s possible. Also, I kind of get the taste that I have the choise for doing the 10.000 or 20.000 whatever hours of work to get there and actually STAY there constantly but I don´t have many more other choises in the game of life. My state is a choise, the how of my being is my choise but all the rest is just the universe throwing situations in my way and my brain responding, solving problems... Before I have even gained awareness of it! (as far as I have heard at least). Who pays? The other thing I had to realize is that the one who pays all the time for the fuzz going on in my head, thought and emotion that would be, is the body. The ego weakens the very thing that makes it possible as a brain function outcome. From goose bumps, to heartrate and gut feeling, everything responds immediately to my thought and emotion. The body has already enough to do to balance things out with the environment but it´s being put under tremendous unnessecary stress by bla, bla and ever more bla... Monkey mind is really just pushing me towards a feedback loop between how I physicaly and mentaly feel and this loop has a tendensy, as it is so used to, become negative. It goes so far that sometimes, even though the memory knows there are ways to break this, it just does not want to. How stupid is that? Of course this is a homeostatic mechanism, acquired over years, it works for survival but not for full potential well being. It´s also an ego defense mechanism once one starts desolving that one... When there is no thought and actually a peaceful or even more pleasant than that state, all the energy can finally be used where it is really needed. I think I can really say by now... Ego is so stupid/ "I" am so stupid. It backfires at itself with all tools available. It´s incredible.

You only read this because it´s in bold, right? Titles... Meh... I meditated alot today. I am shocked about the time lapse effect. This remembered me of something I once did as a child actually. I was a child that thought a lot about death and I think I have mentioned that before but I was really, really curious about how it must be like to be dead so I closed my ears and my eyes, held my breath and tried not to think... As you can imagine I did not last very long... I remembered this today because the seconds of nothing I earned me back then occured today in a much more stretched version. Should I tell people about my distant future sagehood/ mystic aspirations? I´ve been focusing more on the mind lately and not so much the body... So, I decided it´s time to drop by the good old parcour course.... Just for funs sake... The trainer introduced me as a shaolin human because of my... "Haircut" I guess? (I thought it was a joke). I have a list of reasons I made before cutting my hair but converting to budhism is not one of them and I have absolutely nothing in common with these people... Except for the meditation and sleeping on the floor and other strange places maybe... I went home and realized how hilarious this situation must have been... I´m getting the feeling that they had some special expectations. That would explain those acrobatics they started doing before even the warm up? I guess they wanted me to do something cool to? hahaha I can´t even do 30 pushups in a row at the moment. Yea, whatever... On a existential level this does not matter. It´s still funny though... Something insignificant... I remember when I first discovered actualized.org and logged onto my account for the audios and saw this:and spent like 5 minutes thinking about how cute this monster is and that this must be the right place for me. Haha... Now that I think of it... I used to have a T-shirt when I was younger which said:" Monsters: my favorites:" With little cute monsters all over... Really loved that shirt... You know what is cute too? The diagramm Leo made to explain the clash between theism and atheism and how turning inwards will lead you to realizing that god is nothing. The insights thread is actually really nice... Psylocybin wine anyone? Past... Streets... Nights... Freedom (maybe too much?) I wrote my brother an instruction manual for how to interprete and verbally support me... My wall is stuffed with laws and systems I have not yet started using... I wrote letters to my future self... I catch myself craving spring... I sold my high heels some months ago to a high heel fetishist who sniffed on them really hard... Some peoples perception of the world is just... Different. Very. Different... He just could not take his eyes of them... I don´t know... People just trust me. It is as if they smell that I know all the crazyness out there . Why have I been so much "out there?". Mainly because my mother hated it when I would stay at home and where I grew up there was nothing to do for young people... But clubs. I remember how the mothers or fathers of the other girls would always call them to ask where they were. I was free. My mum would not do that. She still doesn´t... We have not spoken for weeks now. I could try make my family more family like but I have other things to do. I remember when I was still going to school, on some Sunday I was making a long face and because of that she was accusing me of not being out enough and not having enough friends and I replied: Are you kidding me? I came home at 4 this morning (she either did not notice or forgot it), how about next time I don´t come home at all? She said: Yes! Next time you don´t need to come home at all! She was angry and dead serious... Just as serious as that time when she told me that if I get pregnant she would kick me out. I am a smart girl of course and never intended to get or got pregnant but what was it that she was just searching opportunities to get rid of me? The last two years before I left I was the one who´d wake her up in the morning before I went to school? Anyways, here they take the underaged peoples ID and throw them out at midnight or something like that. Where I grew up we got into any place we wanted unless it was hyper crowded and we just stayed... We stayed untill whenever... I remember new years eve when I was 16 when this friend I used to go out with left me alone in a club (I had no exact idea of where the hell we were?), it was five o´clock in the morning and she came back one hour later (thankfully?). Where was I going with this? A yes... Sometimes I feel as if I have lived for 50 lifes and that the roles I´ve played and places I´ve seen and ways I´ve felt about the world are too diverse to fit into one past. Sometimes I have no clue how I made it to university, or Germany or how I am still alive. On the one hand I know that my mind wants to identify with something and it tells stories over and over because it likes drama, I know "I" don´t exist... I also know that it was kind of fun to climb on the boats/ships at the port in winter with my retarded boyfriend his friends when I was 15... And all those drugaddicts... On my graduation picture Í´m wearing one of the clothing pieces from Julia. I´d really like to know what happened to Julia... Or actually... No, I don´t. You know what? At least all this... Has lead here.

how to save/create intelligence There are alot of different people on this planet, aren´t there? There are highly educated, knowledgable idiots, there are to the learning process crippled people, there are pretty wise people with little wordly knowledge... (In my eyes) highly intelligent people have three things (knowledge, emotions, wisdom) and those I see on the peak of it all do have those in an specific order (by now). 1. wisdom > emotions > knowledge / 2. knowledge < emotions < wisdom (majority stars this way to reach a function like in 1.) (oh, and... For funs sake... How you won´t reach high intelligence: knowledge > emotions > wisdom) The ideal would be to first move from wisdom, the philosophical foundation of thoughts and beliefs to form the right emotional approach to learning (true curiosity/understanding and not competition or definition of identity) to learning, to knowledge. This way you can absorb many rules and fixed belief systems but can still think out of the box and be highly creative as well as filter out belief systems that are dellusional, useless, incomplete, outworn etc... The less ideal path (still leads to the development of intelligence though) is that you stumble upon a piece of information (knowledge) which makes you change your perspective and emotional approach to learning and to beliefs and start the wisdom and general further information seeking process by that. Obviously it is less ideal because it contains a realization of time loss and because the process of acquiring knowledge or research methods was emotionaly overshadowed by neuroticaly rooted motivations the whole time untill you decide to change it. Not only is it harder to change the motivations, the approach to information this way (usually one has a certain age when this happens and the patterns of thinking have been cemented over some years) but it is also confusing to fill the emotional gap by getting rid of anxiety and fears with joy and thirst to know. It is hard to accept paradise after hell, so to speak... Not to mention the loss of creativity and inspiration seeking that has to get restored if it is not an already lost or never had mechanism. I know that there is nuance to this, like there is for everything and that we can be mixups, depending on which domain of life we look at but all in all I think there is one and best way to go about this game. I think we have quite a lot of schools and quite a lot of teachers but people have so many problems and the world has so many problems and they somehow just can´t solve them on their own, so what is wrong? This is what is wrong. This is how potential gets lost or only met by unnecessary suffering. Going down the rabbit hole should be exciting and meeting the mad genius of this existance is reallly cool. Everything is easier when you feel free. When you allow yourself to.