Anna Konstantaki

7564 Ok, let´s just copy-paste what I wrote in the editor earlier in the day... A green lawn can dry out in day, a couple of hours... The warm can become hot... The ideas one liked can become anecdotes... Nothing is stable. After all I think that maybe these months are the last proof that I gathered to see that there is no satisfaction in a non spiritual or halfways spiritual life. I better go empty my wardrobe... Get rid of all the "skins" I wear to pretend that something is different one day from the other, even though it´s just the ego´s mood. Even by getting the peak of joy that fast life can provide, it just can´t touch the way inner peace makes me feel. Yes I am young but only because young people in my country do other stuff at this age I have no reason to not go my own path. What else I feel is that the negativity can´t touch me anymore. I try to listen, to give some love, to share my smile... And it works. People respond differently because I changed. I am free. It´s really just a feeling I´d like to share but feeligs can´t be shared. It´s nice... Warm, cosy, safe, soothing, relaxed... I see mistakes but they are just mistakes... I see ideas but they are just ideas... I see smart, dumm, big, small, deep, surface, speculations, facts... But it´s just words, rated words of which half of them we want to hear and the other half not... I can´t say I don´t care, just that I do in a different way. Does it matter where I live, does it matter what I do my mental masturbation (i.e. job) about? Does it matter who I spend time with? Really just to a limited degree... Can I stay alone? Can I be in peace? Can I feel good? Can I accept everything? The bigger changes happen rather slowly so one just has to first accept how things are at the moment. I could work my ass of, study like mad, train like mad, oh yes and... GO mad? Can you lean back, being all chilled and say: Let´s work, knowing that what you do is rather insignificant and pointless but feel awesome? Or can you tell stories you gathered throughout your life to someone with all your heart and emotion but be detached and without identifying with anything that ever was? Can you just breath in air and feel like someone just gave you a present? Can you actually be there and feel this endless source of... Love? If you can-hold on to that-if you can-you are over the hill I´d say, somewhere on the way to leaving neurosis behind forever... We overreact so much... Sit on the ground and let the ants and spiders start walking on you... Just do it if you dare... You will discover that you can coexist just fine. And the day you start smilimg at that ant tingeling your skin... That day when the others say you are childish or foolish, that exact day you´ll have gained the best weapon... (° °)

7562 brain dump? Just remembered the how you lie video... When I watched it for the first time there was this point where Leo says something like: And you girls out there... You are not cute... And then I said out loudly: I am a whore. And then Leo said: You are a whore. And then I laughed... You see, there are a ton of people out there to be in a relationship with... Then there is this hand full of really interesting people... I have nothing against having strong feelings for one of them, the system going crazy, whatever... But... Two? That is the point where I am asking myself where on earth this comes from, how serious these ideas and feelings are to take. In the end one can resist psychology and biology... Just let the endorphines pass and do nothing, distract yourself, imagine all their falts... But. What if you are missing out on something? What if this is the opportunity to start a really qualitative relationship? But then again... I don´t want or need it... I just really like the idea, the illusory thought in my head... Then again, how on earth can I waste my time with these thoughts instead of being, learning and acting? what´s going on...generally... Sunday I woke up at 4 and desided to go to the forest to be, meditate and work (yes, I took my laptop to the woods...), Monday I had to re-do some big chunk of work because some data got lost but I managed to do it without even getting pissed or anxious despite the time pressure-Tuesday I had a micro in my face and stood on a podium, had a conversation with a mathematics student (finally found somebody who watches numberphile) and saw one of my parcour trainers in the bus... With a longboard... The same trainer who last week said to us, since tomorrow is a holiday that maybe we´ll see each other... In the suite (suite 15 he meant- that´s a club)... And he did not say that very loud and I was actually closest to him, heading towards the door than anybody else so... So, nothing actually. But he always chooses the music and changes the songs during training so... Maybe he is a DJ? One of his facebook titel pictures is a monk charing food with a tiger... Once I asked the other trainer where they train outside of the sport center and he said that they would even just train by the Danube sometimes. I usually don´t mention meditation but I said: The Danube? Best case I ever go there is meditation. His answer? Oh, meditation is neat as well. (Ok, ok I was expecting they´d at least have a clue about this stuff-I was just testing them-see how much...). What I want to say is that these are "my people". Kinda funny, kinda cool but not show offs, kinda in a couple of scenes, spend time outside, like challenges, need a bit of adrenaline, students (20 something I guess), open minded, bit of artists, sporty (usually indicates they´re into health as well), with kinesthetic intelligence (no idea of psychology I am afraid though?)... Does this have something to do with self actualization? I am not sure. Could be seen as my monkey mind tricking me into thinking I should go for fun... Could be seen as me networking towards a life with people that resonate with me, have more values like mine, fulfill my days by learning from each other? The way we dress, the way we talk, react... Obvious... Some things are just obvious... health Now I undersatnd what my mum meant all those years when she´d say that I had no color in my face or that I look sick and similar stuff. I mean, it´s May and I probably look better and more tanned than in July last year... Now I can go outside without getting either cold and sick or burnt and dizzy. Oh yes, GO OUTSIDE. I am outside, I don´t stay locked up in 4 walls with the thought that I have SO much work, I can´t or don´t diserve the oxygen... Before my grandfather (from the greek side) died, he said: A life in which I can´t feel the wind on my face is not worth living to me. I guess that is why he passed away so soon after realizing that from that point on he´d be in a bed, in a hospital. I look back and the really fulfilling memories of my childhood were not watching TV and videos-that was fun too but what was really nice was the outdoors or at least the creative indoors... If I want to plan my future and be healthy in it, I need to accept that I am a "nature person". That´s just how it is. (^ ^)

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7561 Been... Busy... I feel good about me and the world... So much going on... So many things have changed... I am curious about what´s ahead... I do nothing-time slows down I do anything else-it speeds up ...but I feel... I know how I feel... Know what I need... these good satisfying days... mmmm... (^ ^)

7559 It is so beautiful to see myself finally doing things I wanted to do since ages but I always had an excuse for them. This morning I was just filled with happiness and gratitude. Midday I watched the victim mentality video part 2 to come to realize that this is exactly what makes the difference between how I was and how I am now... Now, I really believe I can reach the goals. What actually buggs me is if the goals are worth it, if they are strategically good and if they really line up with my top values but I guess my intuition works it out for me and trial and error are just part of the game.... I am putting myself out there either way... Let´s see what will happen. summer My parents paid a flight for me and I have around two months of time to get all the work for my studies done since I have no intention to dragg the material and pressure with me. I can´t believe I will go home. It´s a big chunk for me. I am trying to view this as neither negative nor positive and make the best out of it. If I manage to apply my lifestyle there everything should be fine. meditation What I found is that it is best if I just sit down with zero expectations and let all the thoughts and feelings overwhelm me for a couple of minutes and trust that while I am relaxing and allowing it all, it goes away, not because I force it somehow but just because it does not need to stay there, it slows down, gets more silent... Then the "click" moment comes when I realize why I sat down in the first place... Then I do some fire breath and that is usually when I dive inside for good. Sometimes the clarity lasts longer, sometimes it is really just in the process... I have gotten used to watch monkey mind come up again and again... It is always the same stuff, just in a different form... The less I stress about it, the easier it leaves me with each exhaling... Mindfulness? I practise it sporadically and inconsistently. What I find interesting about mindfulness meditation is that this labeling as seeing and hearing and all that creates kind of a mental photo and sound album... Now don´t get me wrong-it´s not like a photographic memory but it definitely supports recalling. love and good vibes-whateva... (^ ^)

@Extreme Z7 I think if I had described it differently you wouldn´t say that. But it felt free. About that I´m sure...

7556 Library... Hours in the library... And then I meditated but it started to rain... So I just let it rain on me... Then I went to training. It was such a nice day. (^ ^)

7555 you are never alone I catched a big fly by its left back leg (don´t ask how-I just did it- it was hindering my meditation). It wanted to escape so badly that it actually pulled out its own leg and flew away (came back though-could have killed it but I didn´t)... And I was left there holding its leg... Have you ever mindfully looked at a flys leg? And have you ever asked yourself how far you would go when fighting for survival? Then this young guy showed up again (I was in the forest sitting on a cut off tree (there were several). He asked if I was done (with meditation-he had passed by and waved earlier) and I gestured yes by moving my head. Then he said in pretty bad german that this was the best place for meditation in this forest and he does it here as well... I think I gave him some agreeing laughter or smile or something like that... He sat down, I jumped from my cut off tree to another and left... Maybe we meditators are more in number than I thought... I know I could had spent the time after classes by doing homework but I felt like going to the forest and I did it and I don´t regret a single second of it. At least I´ll die knowing that on day 7555 I participated in class, learned, enjoyed water and food, felt the sunshine on my skin, filled my lungs with fresh air, got in touch with what is there all the time but people don´t care about because they are waiting for the weekend or are thinking of what they will wear when they go out tonight, or how much beer they will drink... Who needs that when paradise costs nothing. Only time. (^ ^)

7554 I slowed down the pace the last days. My biggest distraction has become music for some reason. I am somewhere in distraction/stimulation valey of sound... Things have gotten... Well, not out of control but flexible, fluent... If you allow yourself to introspect when you want to, rest when you want to and work when you want to you might find yourself creating some handout for uni at 3 in the morning... Sleeping in the afternoon etc... I did not see or talk to many people the last days and tried to keep it silent. Just yesterday I was journaling offline about the fact that I have lost the ability to stay silent which I quite mastered as a child and early teenager where I would even set goals for myself for how long I would not open my lips (must say that this had evolved of a rather neurotic background though)... I tried yesterday to do it and failed. It was clear to me that I would have to gravitate towards a more monastic life if I want it to live really extraordinary (=fulfilled=emotionally fulfilled) but this is actually exactly the period where I was about to speed up, or speeding up, living fast and forgeting about it... I have been breaking my head over which activity I want to quit or cut down in time... I have stopped watching many videos on youtube, I don´t have a TV, I don´t play video games, I watch no series, sometimes I even get by without music but it looks to me as if 24 hours are still short... Another struggle I have is thinking about relationships. All kinds of them really. What will happen to my friendships, how am I going to treat my family in the future and yes, should I start dating again? I am aftraid that I will have to go through some mild depression when unplugging from everything and I am afraid to take the time to do it. I have been dreaming around and I don´t regret it. What I regret is not making all ideas and creativity I have inside me into something real. I was thinking of changing the strategy... Of evaluating each by listing the 7 points I was taught in the lifestyle minimalism video. But... That would be a commitment of a new level... Enlightenment and life purpose would get zero all the time. SLOW, deliberate action? Pff... I have realised that everyone is there and trying to catch my and peoples eyeballs. I feel like I have to choose who I am going to be/character traits/ego. This is a little bit like a double life. On the one hand the practise of blank nothing and the other moving smartly amongst people, "selling" them your vibes and thoughts and all the "good" stuff the person they and you think you are. In the beginning I liked the idea of the undercover monk but the transitioning is over and things are more serious because with all honesty it´s time to plan in the sacrafices or it´s all never going to be as fruitfull as it can... I have been feeling great, enjoying the time but monkey mind did some big party in my head from time to time... Sometimes I listen to what it says or remembers, it really makes videos and shows-it makes me laugh. You see, a self entertaining ego can be harder to throw away than some other... I have not dealt with this contradiction yet, self acceptance and love, not being needy but then really saying that "I" do not exist and trying to get rid of its perspective... Higher self, lower self, existential nature... My head is a soup... I am not in real worry though. I feel calm right now. Yes, satisfied, yes... And it is nice... Mmm... So nice... Sometimes the answers pop up loud and clear, just like that... After some good emptying... In the last video one of the last things that were said was " ...if you DARE...". I have come to the point where the information is all on the table and I know HOW, I know WHY... I know... But making plans... Doing... Even for me who wants this badly, it is a hard, if not the hardest commitment. Cravings, stimulations and... Success. Success is just the worst... I will try to let go of these though. I can do it. It will be hard but I´ll do it anyways. That´s It/it. (^ ^)

7548 7549 7550 productivity preparation - creativity reading meditation nutrition exersice nature satisfaction On 7549 I meditated behind a window corridor while it was raining heavily. I had some great moments in that small session... Some great worries came to find me on Wednesday but I have come so far, I´ll find a solution to them... Especially now, that I finally built some habits and reached much more psychological stability. And in the end, it´s just the moments when I forget about reality, that these negative feelings can affect me. Speaking of reality, there is so much less to say about it, once one starts to digg in the illusory power of thoughts... I don´t know how many I have written down yet, I stopped counting but I have not reached 50 yet, I think... I don´t know how constant I will be writing the journal in the future. I think it is enough if I evaluate each day in some editor. Most of the thinking/writing is really not relevant-there are better ways to spend this time. I start to get it how they do it, the people who get a lot of shit done... I am getting closer to that life I wanted. It is a little overwhelming though and still fragile. Even if you have stopped living so much in past, you are not protected from any consequences of any choices ever made. Dispite however, the in my case financial problems ahead, I can say that "I" am "happy". This kind of "happy" is opening up posiibilities that amaze me... And YOU, yes you, reading this... Get up now and start doing something you want to get done before you die. I´m dead serious. (^ ^)

7548 preparation productivity reading - exersice nutrition meditation nature creativity satisfaction what a day... I meditated on a hill near/belonging to campus. Wrote some more illusory thoughts... VERY interesting... So many images... But I won´t extend on that... Went out near the forest to practise jumps tonight (I still suck at them but it´s fun so who cares?)... Just came back indeed... In my first course today I did not hear half of the stuff the teacher said because she was further from the mic than usual... I guess I should cut down on using hands free... I don´t know what to tell you really. I hope I´ll fall asleep soon... (^ ^)

7547 I managed to do 5 illusory thought analysations but 1. I did them on paper and 2. the feeling part involved in "what it is" is a little unclear and I think I might re-do my sloppy work+ I wrote a dozen of thoughts still to analyze. I might transfer the exersice in the journal... We´ll see... preparation productivity this makes me worry... I really need to write more. reading listened to some informative vid though exersice nutrition had to try the v. ice cream I found... meditation Kundalini yoga got me in the right state nature if someone could just vacuum clean or do the groceries or cook for me... creativity made a pretty sketch but I don´t think I´ll turn in a painting satisfaction 100% present in class and fun learning So stuffed. 7547. Was. So. Stuffed. But. I loved it! (^ ^)

7546 (08.05.16) productivity preparartion creativity exersice nutrition reading nature meditation satisfaction What is this error code EX0? I can´t change my password each time I want to sign in the forum so I need a permanent solution for this. I will just stay online untill I know how to fix it so that I don´t have to change pw again. I watched "the illusory nature of thought" video by the way... Looks like professor Leo gave us some homework. Need to relisten to it anyways... the end/start/not really (^ ^)

7545 (yesterday) For some reason I could not logg into my account yesterday (some error code ) but today I reseted my password and now I´m back in... a trial I did a meditation special yesterday. Downloaded enlightenment 3 amongst other on my mp3 and sat at a lonely spot by the river. Ok, maybe not that lonely because a fisher decided to come there as well but I just closed my eyes and went about my business. All I can say is that this session had quite an impact on me for a couple of hours after its end. I finished it and everthing around was... Strange. I remember having felt alienated in the world before and I remember asking people if they don´t wake up some days or leave the house like seeing everything the first time. It was very similar to that only that it lasted much longer. It did not make me feel good or bad, just. Neutral... I was walking home but I was feeling a little disabled to for example dance or jump because I was... How can I say that? Soaking it all in? I couldn´t stop having my eyes as open as possible (I hope I did not scare anyone) and my thoughts about what needs to be done or has been already done were very minimal, I was indeed barely in understanding why my feet carry me where they carry me. Another thing was that I lost my sense of time because I took no clock or cellphone with me, all I knew was that it was getting dark and cold, which cold by the way left me almost unaffected (back home the clock revealed it being 21:50) and I had this carelessness about it. I was constantly feeling this urge to look upwards to buildings, lights, trees and the sky- things I usually don´t notice that much. This was after the session, during it I can say I had some moments of panick and almost shock weirdly embedded in a state of peace and relaxing. I don´t really have the words to describe it but be sure that it was hard and that my ego did not like what was going on. After this I see how easy certain thought streams gain way too much size and I, myself, give everything its dimension. If I am not carefull this balloons into neurotic patterns but this clearing process of meditation takes it all away, making it small, making all problems small, making the thoughts themselves small, making ME small and eventually, one day I will disappear. It is like guessing that the ego is really an illusion, it is like your intuition saying: Oh, you know where this will lead, right? You know it is possible. And then there is "me" firing with all my weapons, the insignificant kind of thoughts and sensations, to make some noise and distract from that... I guess this is just a slight experience, a tiny bit of work in the direction of enlightenment but at least I took some action... meditation preparation productivity reading nutrition exersice creativity -* nature satisfaction *As you can see creativity suffered a lot this week but at least I got in some more spiritual practise and nature. See you later for journaling the present day. (^ ^)

Hey Lyle, I wonder... I wonder, what will happen...

7544 productivity creativity reading exersice nutrition nature preparation meditation satisfaction Spent some hours outside today and did my reading and note taking there. I love the thought that summer is ahead because that means I can do this more often. Live like it all matters but feel like it doesn´t because it doesn´t. I will never be more or less than anybody else. Is it what I have or what I don´t have that magnetizes new people in my life (mindsetwisely)? Or is it all just coincidence? Am I in a silent conversation with the world? On the street, in class, on the internet? Or am I maybe just paranoid? Or is this maybe just the beginning of (extra)ordinary life? (^ ^)

7542 (social day) 7543 productivity creativity reading - exersice nutrition nature - preparation meditation satisfaction The mediation of 7541 was succesfully completed after the post by the way... There are so many things I could talk about but I think it all boils down to the unpredictability of life as well as my mindset transforming everything I knew... These are really interesting days for me. -The proof I needed to see what is possible. I am. Just. Glad. It´s insane... Just insane how I used to go about my days. But let´s not write, let´s live and go to sleep in this case-goodnight. (^ ^)

7541 productivity creativity reading exersice nutrition nature preparation meditation I´ll do it now before going to bed satisfaction My existence is konstant-eh I mean constant (^ ^)

Take a day off (and feel good about it).

7540 productivity creativity reading exersice nutrition nature - preparation meditation satisfaction (° °)

7539 summary of the weekend On Friday I went to sleep very late because a good friend of mine was leaving for a really long time and we might even never see each other again so I had a really long conversation that night which made me get up late on Saturday on which other friends asked me out and even though I was of the first people to leave I lost some time there which could had been spent more meaningfully (one hour of nature was maybe the best thing I did yesterday). Today was the first of May and since everyone was free and most us are busy for the next weeks or month I spent this day almost entirely with my friends in cost of productivity, creativity and reading. I watched the neti neti video though before meeting up to at least stay on track with my self actulization basics. I did not have an enlightenment experience but I am not surprised about it. It did something to me though and I think one important thing to discover was that even I, as an open minded person have difficulties to bring up such RADICAL open mindedness that is required as well as to hold it. If I stick to my plans then I won´t digg again into spirituality before Thursday... I´ll keep doing my meditations of course... I wonder if I did the right choices over the last days... It´s not like they dragged me down or that relationships are useless or my friends bad. Quite the opposite actually-I am lucky to have them and they have evolved to be quite qualitative but I am not sure for how long I will keep spending time with people doing things that don´t give me what something else could give and I know that this sounds so egoistic and advatage oriented but my time every day is limited, my energy is limited, my whole life is actually limited, so why not get more out of it if possible? Why not live up to the full potential? I am really curious of how, where and with who I will end up in the coming years because I can already feel big changes coming up... (^ ^)

7538 Just wrote the journal and then the internet went offline and now I´d have to rewrite the post but I am just to tired. Might tell you more tomorrow. Goodnight. (^ ^)

7537 productivity partially collab work today creativity more next week satisfaction nutrition exersice don´t mind me but I did not move much reading keepin´it basic meditation * nature finally some good weather preparation *Have you meditated ON something because it is the only thing that pops up in your head ALL time? Did that today and successfully released it. Here is an article I found about mindfulness: http://bigthink.com/21st-century-spirituality/buddhism-and-the-brain-mindfulness-in-modern-times?utm_campaign=Echobox&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=Facebook#link_time=1461879744 Ok, see you next time! (^ ^)

7536 Could life be better? It couldn´t. Feeling great. productivity creativity satisfaction nutrition exersice reading meditation * nature preparation *I feel this need to do more of it and I hope I´ll have some more time on Saturday maybe. So let´s not comment anything and leave there ´cause it´s getting late... nighty (^ ^)

same day emotional cocktail and thoughts on spirituality What is this I am feeling? Happiness and thirst for life while being stressed and frustrated? It´s like a little voice saying: I will not die, I will not die! Mindset is really powerfull... I remember being around 7 or 8 I think and I did not want to do my homework and my father said: Now, you will "eat the wood" of your life and you will remember it forever. (Eating wood means getting beaten up). And this scene is quite funny in my mind right now because as children are I answered: No, I won´t! And guess what, I managed to forget it for many, many years and if I had not searched I would probably walk through life as if it never happened. I think it is the same with everything, we can condition ourselves for anything if we just really, really want to. I have a problem with dropping even this side drives me and fights for survival only because it is part of the ego which is afraid to... Die in the worst case. Is it really possible to have a motivation and drive in life without resistance to something or neurotic clinging or negative motivation? Untill now I had pretty much always been searcihng for perspectives which served me in order to make life more sufferable even if that meant trying to believe in lies at some points. For example back on Rhodes one of my best friends believed in a few supernatural things (for example she always claimed that her necklaice is answering questions and guiding her and I have to mention that she has evolved in an intelligent and logical person, surprisingly good at solving problems) and constructed a sort of own reality (she did not have an easy life by the way) and was really successfull with her strength and love for life (one of the most influential, inpiring and happy people I ever knew) through that, so at some desperate points in my own life I tried to do the same. Is not trying to save our lives in every possible way really better? Is believing in existence and nothingness really better? Where do we draw the line of what we want to believe, rational or not? Can´t we just create our own portal to the higher self and wisdom? Is meditation the only way? Multilingual brains are by the way better at inhibition so I guess enlightenment should be a little easier for us since it is a kind of inhibiting certain kinds of processes and thoughts? mind games Before the class starts the is this little time gap where the proff is already there but the lesson has not started yet and I have started using this this time for either scribling on my noteblock or mindfulness meditation. Anyways, so having done some meditationand being told about this "sign proccessing" one can do, which is basically looking around and asking oneself if something is a symbol, an icon, an index or a variable I got kind of reminded of consciousness work... I thought that this could make up it´s own kind of meditation, this sort language filtering so to speak, that makes one realise that most of the things we perceive are so automatically interpreted in our minds that we are completely unaware of how much abstrahation there is involved in what we simply amd effortlessly decode and understand of our every day input. small talk and self talk I think Leo has already mentioned this one at some point as being another form of monkey chatter and just today indeed, I learned that one hypothesis for the evolution of smalltalk is that monkeys would pet and groom each other (you know, get rid of lice and stuff) to build up and keep their bonds and social interaction. A funny thought. And a little degrading to every day life and the hours of life we have spent with small talk and such. It also made me think that if it is so important for keeping relationships to do this then what about self talk and the relationship to ourselves? Could there be a life of not taking care of these thoughts and analyzing? I talk so much to myself that when I don´t do it for a while I feel confused or deppressed and go into autopilot. But... Would the ego starve and die if I stop taking care of it? I guess it is not about hearing oneself talking in ones mind, I guess it is more about what is talked about, right? But let´s face it, I can´t only have higher self thoughts, I will always think a little about the weather or if I should wear a braw to go to uni today or not (I do these kinds of social experiments by the way-they are... Entertaining [if you don´t care so much about what others think of course])... But seriously, we could use full brainpower if we did not spend any time thinking of how we place the self in the context, caring for the self image and status... Guess that´s why Einstein for examle had such great concentration but messy hair... Hehe... we cannot not behave So this thing came up again in lessons today, from Matslawick(?) (too lazy to look up how he spells)... And it was about us always exhibiting some sort of behavior and the others always being in the position to interprete it, most times wrong by the way... My thoughts immediately went to ego smaug and how we project our needs and such onto whatever we see. Not only that but only now that this topic came up again I realised how much of an impact this problem has in my/our lives. I just have to think of last Thursday and the way my trainers interpreted me vs how I was seeing myself in there. So this actualozed school of thought or should I say non thought (or you better define thought first) melts away not one, not two, three, 50 problems we have but all... Every new concept I learn here on actualized.org has such great potential to change lives, places and the future... finding some meaning I was thinking about the fact that people who can´t identify with family or their job or friends, you know... That kind of people who are in the air and have it somewhat rough, that these people like to get into fanatism of something that gives their lives meaning and create some sort of hope and identification, a feeling of belonging. Reminds me of the german movie Die Welle. So, that something can either be a religion, or a subculture, a music, a political party, even a football team... Can´t that also be self actualization though? It is difficult not to make this thing here into some sort of cult. But then again, wouldn´t it be better if people were onbsessed with enlightenment and such than with something else? That is the exceptional thing about self actualization, that it teaches non identification so that as awesome of something that one can add to ones life purpose it is, it can´t become preachy or distructive, absolute- if done correctly. Haha, can you imagine self actualization gihad? "I will kill you or you and me if you don´t do your meditation!". #the ego must die... Whoops... I think I drifted a little too far here... Ok, ok ... You are right... I am procrastinating right now- let´s do the evaluation... productivity meditation that was almost entirely thinking today nutrition exersice - yes, I was a lazy bumm today, what´ya gonna do? nature - Back and forth between buildings was the only fresh air I had today creativity satisfaction as long as you are flexible and don´t let all the bad luck ruin your day... reading I had enough verbal input today and... eh... Let´s not overload the system? And another day is gone... Goodbye (^ ^)