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Only once for about a half hour should be good. After that, when you did the visualizations, think of how the situation could be resolved based on your current perception of how that can occur in your reality. For example, wgen imaging the depressed feeling, think about how you are really just a tiny part of the universe, yet have been previously an essential cog. Then "see" how everything and everybody fits together to make any individual's reality, regardless of whether it seems positive or negative for them. IOW, something for greater than yourself, yet you are a part of it, always. Then, it will not be harmful.

Sounds like some anxiety or catastrophizing about the grades. I found some (temporary, for self actualization, but then again, so is school. thank goodness, lol) visualisation strategies that may be helpful to you: If you believe you can cope with negative events, anxiety will be much less of a problem. The common types of catastrophes people tend to imagine include: - Imagining yourself losing control of yourself. For example, an individual withpanic disorder predicts that if they go to the mall on a weekend afternoon, they will have a panic attack. They predict that having a panic attack would be a catastrophe, rather than it just being significantly unpleasant. - Imagining yourself spiraling into a deep depression. - Imagining yourself never finding love, and imagining that if this happens you will be plagued by intense feelings of loneliness 24/7 from now until you die. - Equating some type of mild to moderate social rejection with being totally shunned by all desirable people. My comment to you: However, if these get really depressing, it wouldn't hurt to do 20-30 affirmations each morning, as long as you keep in consideration upon what I wrote in parentheses, above.

Calling yourself anxious and lazy sets yourself up to activate failure (in your perception, not truth...), if not on this test, than on some thing else. It cannot help you to attach your self to connotations.

No, no meed to do that. Simply don't get attached to them, because if you get an accident in which your creative pursuits become altered or possibly even gone, this would be a backlash to your spirit. Any perceived ability or advantage you have should be as little concern to you as possible.

The ol' Justin Hammer fake-out? (Iron Man 2 villain/salesman reference)

"I think that grief and sadness are the tickethome...to Nothing."-on this video

I don't know why you're thinking lying down meditation is such a cardinal sin: it is usually associated with visualizations, but as long as you don't relax into something other than awareness... that sounds like it works to moi. Maybe you could switch it up some days with some yoga, so you can focus calming of your body.

I don't know if it has to do with enlightenment... but yes, this happened to me after many years of mantra meditation and observing thoughts. Be careful with feeling that there's no going back to that mode of experience, though. Are you getting security or comfort of some kind originating from this thought? Or is it originating only out of the silence of awareness? Also you can ask yourself these 2 questions for other thoughts and feelings. That's probably all I will write, and thank you (and everyone on here)

@Shan Yes, if possible, I agree on learning the meaning of mantra(s) one chooses to recite. This deepens the initial strong concentration needed, because ideally, you have to focus on a specific imagined action between you and the focus/deity (until effort is not required for concentration, and that's merely the beginning of another part of the journey!)

I can tell you how the subconscious works within the time cycle many are stuck within: Using game feature to escape game by copying image of preferred section of game. It's a tad symbolic, it's true...(if you observe, you may find this is occurring on the conscious level at times, which tends to be just as helpful as knowing the nature of the subconscious).

Sounds like the salvation in the nightmare.

I see, well then here is a new question. Yay: Then wouldn't that mean I make the truth, then? If I'm just ego, I believe this. And nothing could make me otherwise.

I guess the real question is, are they/is it using you? Or are you using it?

How is this the worst nightmare ,again? Are you joking? Maybe are you fighting using the ego mind, as well as intruding concepts? (that's a nono, lol)

Well, depression is (admit) one condition, enlightenment is (admit) one priceless. And despite everything it is.

@pluto Thanks, pluto! I admire your posts, uh, I mean,I conceive your shits. @How to be wise

@NoSelfSelf Depression is not suffering???! Are you not suffering, or are you just thinking "I am not suffering"'?!

@Joseph Maynor To who is it/unbridledtruth scary?

@Rilles Both. Yet the peaceful overwhelms (oversees) the less "positive" feelings. Of course, it's possible that, or everything varies, so always take what I say with some salt.

You can't be broken...the ego tells you you are broken. The perception of it can get worse and better (relatively) but because it is only you, there is not really anything broken. There is a space in the cracks; the space of awareness.

What places/things is the light illuminating?

Well, the ego is a very powerful thing. I don't know about that shaman and demons, but what can bring the lasting relief except to be in harmony with the ego (that is to say, you and ego, then you, etc. etc. change to get along with eachother). There seems to be not way to get rid of ego or any of these things you talk about because all of this happens in the present moment; you are, egos are, experiences are, in the present!

@Rilles I hope Outer's mind agrees with Sadhguru's.

If it does not allow you to question/be open to duality and nonduality (or other mind bending (un?)realities), then yeah, you've got a demon, alright.

.@Jack River In Rupert Spira meditation "bringing expectation to an end" he talks about the emotional impulses in mind, a.k.a, pre-rational thoughts that help to separate you and not be pure awareness.....so, the state you refer to is not permanent without being enlightened. One can't adhere to these conditions consistently in another case.