David Turcot

@Leo Gura Took me a minute or two to understand how "Everything i say is a lie" is a paradox. I get it now, it's a very good one I'll try to remember it Would Energy/Matter exists without the mind creating this paradox? I don't think so, if something makes 100% sense, no need to be any energy, time and space would disappear, so consciousness would also disappear. Nothingness would be. So when you say you become god when you are on a 5-MEO-DMT trip, I'm not sure I get you. In my mind, If you were truly god, you would not be aware of anything, there would not be any "observer" with his limited perspective to observe anything and report the trip to us later on. No? I think the closer to god you are is when you sleep without a dream, that's true death, true enlightenment if I can say. But you are right, I've got to experience awakening to know what it is.

@SgtPepper Of course the fear comes from not wanting to live bad feelings. I know I am a very emotional person so I try to avoid those feelings all the time. Alcool is a pretty good way to avoid, but a pretty destructive way. In fact, all the methods of avoiding my feelings are destructive in the long run. You are right, I've got to accept that I am very emotional (and also very rational at the same time, it's tough to reunite both parts of the brain in a harmonic and sane way). Most importantly don't feel ashamed to show my emotions to others, it's tough it's not very encouraged in this society I guess to show vulnerability I got conditioned not to maybe. Thanks!

Lol, thanks! It's my favorite video of Leo, he describes me perfectly in this video. I'll watch it again! Also I do affirmations, my favorite one is: "I don't care what other people thinks of me". It helped me doing that, but I've got to persevere doing it I do it less these days. I'll go back at it today!!

Thanks for sharing your experience. Myself I don't do any of those drugs. I took weed 4 times in my life and it was 4 very bad trips and I'm scared I'll become skyzophrenic or paranoiac permanently or something doing these. I think it's because I'm a very anxious person and I tend to think in a negative matter. Maybe when I've taken care of my "mental issues" I'll try dmt, but for now I think it's kinda dangerous for me, I'll probably go straight to hell like you.

@SgtPepper Thanks! But for LSD I'll pass, no drugs for me, my brain is too sensible for that. I had my fair share of problems with alcool in the past I stay away from drugs, especially LSD I may go crazy!

Even tough memories seemed to have happened in the "past", a memory is still a thought happening in the "now" as Eckart Tolle says.

I like this expression. First because I realize I did a lot of that in my life, and second, I realize I've got to stop doing this. I'm new on this forum and I don't think Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality is a good topic for me right now, it will make me mental masturbate more. I AM NOT SAYING THAT IS WHAT OTHER PEOPLE DO HERE, I'M JUST TALKING FOR MYSELF. It's the mother of all topics don't get me wrong, although for me I guess I will benefit more from other topics at this point in my life. Meditation and spirituality has to be something I do and I live, not something I talk about.

That's a nice poetic way to put it yep it's similar.

If you have the money, I suggest you buy Leo's Life Purpose Course to find something that would fulfill you.

You decide what attitude you have towards life. You can see magic and extraordinary things everywhere or nowhere. Beauty can be found everywhere, in the small things, like watching a bird fly or looking at an ant carrying a fly on his back. Or Beauty can be found nowhere. YOU DECIDE how you see the world. Maybe you are depressed a bit, Creativity is a good remedy for depression:)

I dont think "god" remembers a single thing. But that's another story...

That's interesting. Like for the dreams, if you remember one dream, it's because there is still something not fully "integrated" about it I could say.

What is the past then? And dont say that it's Memory lol

All right I'll meditate on that. What is the mind? And what is a paradox? What does it mean to be awake? I think when we try to discuss those kind of subjects, we should take a few hours just to define words to make sure we have the same definitions of what we mean by those words. I find it very difficult and almost impossible to really discuss about the nature of reality cause it cannot be defined nor understood with words and that nobody has the same exact definition of the words used when trying to describe the universe. I'll try to look back at your videos revisiting what definitions you use. Thanks man!

Everything is subjective. You could also say: "Everything is relative." Like Einstein said. Although humans we are "subjects" that tend to experience things in a similar manner (so similar taste) because we are at a similar point in the process of evolution. Let's say the taste is probably very different for a bee for example.

Yep. This last sentence reminds me of the way this old sage Jiddhu Krishnamurti talks. I don't know if you have ever listened to him?

Well said!

Infinity is a NECESSICITY, although it's IMPOSSIBLE at the same time. This paradox is what "I" is and it's the only thing there is. Consciousness and the creation of ever changing illusionary boundaries in time and space is "how this paradox can be dealt with" as we could say. This paradox is the most fundamental one and you can derive anything from that.