electroBeam

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  1. What you're dreaming of already exists: psychedelics. And when neural networks get to that stage, if ever, people will make them illegal saying it gives people schizophrenia and delusion and insanity.
  2. blowfish didn't reply because he's too busy expanding
  3. Is wanting only, enough? I've got some shit on my dream board, but I have absolutely no idea on how to get there especially in my circumstances. Thought about it for 3 days and just gave up because its too impossible. Should I spend more time trying to figure out a plan?
  4. Hey, around the 30 minute mark of my meditation, my heart rate sky rockets. I have the sense that I'm going to have a heart attack and die. Not sure how to overcome this. My family has heart issues and so large heart rates tend to induce fear. Has anyone gotten a sky rocketing heart rate and fear of death and overcome it?
  5. You mean if I'm not a billionaire lol? Otherwise losing a billion dollars would be horrible lol
  6. @Preety_India Yes yes definitely I think that's what meditation should be about. For me personally, the fear actually comes from letting go too much. You let go so much that you forget how to get back into control, and that's when the panic happens. But in general I agree that forcing meditation is actually a trap because what you're doing is assuming you already know what you're looking for before you start! In meditation you need to drop everything even the idea of non duality because how do you know non duality is true? Or how do you know your awakenings in the past were non duality or something else? How do you know oneness is the same as non duality, etc. But I don't generally get panic attacks from forcing too hard, I get panic attacks from letting go too much hahaha. Because when the whole universe starts to fade and disappear, and you're starting to forget whether you're in control or not, that's when anything can happen. You can go insane
  7. interesting because it really feels like I'm gonna die hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
  8. @Shiva99 Yeah that's what I've come to aswell. Maybe just let my heart rate go up and trust in god that I will not have a heart attack. Or just fully accept the possibility of a heart attack.
  9. It does just elevate out of the blue. it generally comes on when a lack of control happens. During meditation the world starts to wave and warp and compresses and my ego bends all over the place, but I'm still in control. Around the 25 minute mark I surrender completely and just let the universe warp and distort and bend and wave and go crazy but then around the 30 minute mark, there's a sense that the I and the universe gets so warped and retarded that even if I wanted to stop the universe contorting all over the place, I couldn't and the universe will be in an unstoppable distortion free fall to... lol don't know and that's when the heart rate goes up when the lack of control or the sense that there's no pulling out, no point of return (like sex) is about to happen. And by that point I wouldn't be able to control my heart beat which means I might have a heart attack. Because I'll be completely out of control, completely.
  10. Ultimately the earth isn't flat or round, its Nothing. Its not even an earth. Its not even a. its not even. its not. There's no point arguing whether its flat or round, because in reality there's no answer to that question, because its impossible to directly verify or observe that answer, because the assumptions the question relies on isn't there in the first place. but what you're not appreciating is, within the relative domain things don't happen based on your imagination. Just because relative questions can never be verified or observed, doesn't mean you can fill the gaps with whatever you want LOL. The fact that when you go into outer space and the earth resembles a curve moreso than a flat line (you can't just say ohh curve and flat line are made up so I'm going to say its a flat line, NO LOL) is important. And its not up to your imagination. That comes from understanding reality. You can say all you want that women are imaginary and therefore all orgasms are imaginary, but just like how you don't dictate whether you see a curve or flat line in outer space, you also don't dictate signs of pleasure of a woman. There's more to it than imagination, you can actually study what makes women orgasm and have a knowing of how it works. You'll never empirically verify whether a woman orgasm for real, but its also wrong to say that whether a woman orgasms or not is based on your beliefs or worldview. The truth is its somewhere inbetween. Woman orgasm is not entirely equal to your worldview. Trust me if I believe hard enough that women like small penises, its not going to change the signs (or the curve in outer space for that matter!) that a women gives about sex. LOL Yes we are all living in parallel realities as Bashar says, but don't take that too much as dogma, we are all living in parallel realities, but at the exact same time we are all living on 1 earth! Don't forget the latter! Don't forget, yes the world is formless, but that doesn't mean its not form! form = formlessness. There is a REAL difference between a line and a curve.
  11. Nah got it checked out multiple times. I'm just worried that after the 30 minute mark, I'll loose control and my heartrate will go up and up and up till it explodes and dies.
  12. I don't know for sure but my guess is its a bit of both. Fear of death causes high heart rate which causes more fear of death LOL
  13. No that's not entirely true. you can imagine the earth is flat all you want, trust me it wont be when you see it in space. And flat earthers really do think the earth is flat, and it is from our experience on earth. The world is not entirely what you imagine = true. There's more to it then that. Room needs to made for inquiring not what you imagine, but what You imagine, what's going on in the Universal Mind's deep subconscious, the subconscious deep in outer space. Whether a woman orgasms or not depends on more then what you're imagining.
  14. That's a movie, she's an actor, ordinary women can't fake it like that.
  15. why are robots designed? To automated highly repetitive tasks in our lives. Repetition is for robots. Indoctrination? Now that's where repetition is useful! How to indoctrinate someone? By repeating dogmas over and over again. Critical thinking, meditation, turquoise... this isn't the space for repetition, this is the space for thinking for yourself, which means uniquely contemplating each new topic for yourself, not repeating stuff others do. Its about feeling for yourself and doing what you feel. @Monkey Mind Yeah Leo continuously treats his audience as if they just came out of a highly rationalist science class. I have no interest in critiquing him or bringing it up, but I totally get what you mean. If you don't like his videos, don't watch them. I use to love his videos, but stopped watching them about 2 months ago because his videos were getting to rational, logical and repetitive for me. I find talking to some of the moderators much more valuable than talking to Leo or watching his videos, some mods give you a highly integrative, highly feeling based advice which is super useful. Maybe check them out.
  16. @Camerong for you, I would suggest doing 2 hours of meditation a day. Yes I was tripping balls at 30 minutes, but 2 hours is where it gets interesting. Make sure you hard core focus for 30 minutes on the I or who you are. Let infinity flow after the first 30 minutes. Then rest in it for the rest of the time.
  17. Well Well, look whose getting a bit jealous over there
  18. currently at the 4th tier trying to reach the 5th tier.
  19. I already won because I don't consume caffeine ?????????????????????????
  20. Had to share. Funny orange-green(orange just at the tip of emerging into green) video on COVID-19.
  21. Didn't know whether this went into self actualization, health or this sub group, but because I'm using these drugs for meditative purposes, makes sense it goes here. For a lot of drugs I take, both prescription and non prescription, I need to take a very large does for it to be effective. For example, I tried taking 2 tablets of pharma GABA a day for a week and dismissed it because I didn't feel anything. Out of the blue, I thought what would happen if I took 5 a day. I did that and finally felt results. Now I take 5 tablets of pharma GABA whenever I feel a bit ADHD or am having extremely bad concentration issues during meditation. Its the same with melatonin. If I take 1 to 2 tablets to fall asleep, nothing happens. I need to take 4 or even more tablets to feel effects (I of course don't tell my doctor I take this much). To get drunk I also need 16 glasses, below that and the effects are tiny. This just strikes me as a possible health condition. Anyone know of any resources to look up to see how to overcome this issue? This also suggests that I will need 4x the amount of psychedelics as the average person to get the same effects. So when I try shrooms, if the average person needs 2 grams, I'll probably need 8.
  22. easy fix, just stop identifying as a woman Who says you're a woman except for yourself? And other's projection of your gender is their own bias? Even easier fix: realize SoonHei is you. Why trust SoonHei when you can go to the source directly?