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@Shiva99 Yeah that's what I've come to aswell. Maybe just let my heart rate go up and trust in god that I will not have a heart attack. Or just fully accept the possibility of a heart attack.

It does just elevate out of the blue. it generally comes on when a lack of control happens. During meditation the world starts to wave and warp and compresses and my ego bends all over the place, but I'm still in control. Around the 25 minute mark I surrender completely and just let the universe warp and distort and bend and wave and go crazy but then around the 30 minute mark, there's a sense that the I and the universe gets so warped and retarded that even if I wanted to stop the universe contorting all over the place, I couldn't and the universe will be in an unstoppable distortion free fall to... lol don't know and that's when the heart rate goes up when the lack of control or the sense that there's no pulling out, no point of return (like sex) is about to happen. And by that point I wouldn't be able to control my heart beat which means I might have a heart attack. Because I'll be completely out of control, completely.

Ultimately the earth isn't flat or round, its Nothing. Its not even an earth. Its not even a. its not even. its not. There's no point arguing whether its flat or round, because in reality there's no answer to that question, because its impossible to directly verify or observe that answer, because the assumptions the question relies on isn't there in the first place. but what you're not appreciating is, within the relative domain things don't happen based on your imagination. Just because relative questions can never be verified or observed, doesn't mean you can fill the gaps with whatever you want LOL. The fact that when you go into outer space and the earth resembles a curve moreso than a flat line (you can't just say ohh curve and flat line are made up so I'm going to say its a flat line, NO LOL) is important. And its not up to your imagination. That comes from understanding reality. You can say all you want that women are imaginary and therefore all orgasms are imaginary, but just like how you don't dictate whether you see a curve or flat line in outer space, you also don't dictate signs of pleasure of a woman. There's more to it than imagination, you can actually study what makes women orgasm and have a knowing of how it works. You'll never empirically verify whether a woman orgasm for real, but its also wrong to say that whether a woman orgasms or not is based on your beliefs or worldview. The truth is its somewhere inbetween. Woman orgasm is not entirely equal to your worldview. Trust me if I believe hard enough that women like small penises, its not going to change the signs (or the curve in outer space for that matter!) that a women gives about sex. LOL Yes we are all living in parallel realities as Bashar says, but don't take that too much as dogma, we are all living in parallel realities, but at the exact same time we are all living on 1 earth! Don't forget the latter! Don't forget, yes the world is formless, but that doesn't mean its not form! form = formlessness. There is a REAL difference between a line and a curve.

Nah got it checked out multiple times. I'm just worried that after the 30 minute mark, I'll loose control and my heartrate will go up and up and up till it explodes and dies.

I don't know for sure but my guess is its a bit of both. Fear of death causes high heart rate which causes more fear of death LOL

No that's not entirely true. you can imagine the earth is flat all you want, trust me it wont be when you see it in space. And flat earthers really do think the earth is flat, and it is from our experience on earth. The world is not entirely what you imagine = true. There's more to it then that. Room needs to made for inquiring not what you imagine, but what You imagine, what's going on in the Universal Mind's deep subconscious, the subconscious deep in outer space. Whether a woman orgasms or not depends on more then what you're imagining.

That's a movie, she's an actor, ordinary women can't fake it like that.

why are robots designed? To automated highly repetitive tasks in our lives. Repetition is for robots. Indoctrination? Now that's where repetition is useful! How to indoctrinate someone? By repeating dogmas over and over again. Critical thinking, meditation, turquoise... this isn't the space for repetition, this is the space for thinking for yourself, which means uniquely contemplating each new topic for yourself, not repeating stuff others do. Its about feeling for yourself and doing what you feel. @Monkey Mind Yeah Leo continuously treats his audience as if they just came out of a highly rationalist science class. I have no interest in critiquing him or bringing it up, but I totally get what you mean. If you don't like his videos, don't watch them. I use to love his videos, but stopped watching them about 2 months ago because his videos were getting to rational, logical and repetitive for me. I find talking to some of the moderators much more valuable than talking to Leo or watching his videos, some mods give you a highly integrative, highly feeling based advice which is super useful. Maybe check them out.

@Camerong for you, I would suggest doing 2 hours of meditation a day. Yes I was tripping balls at 30 minutes, but 2 hours is where it gets interesting. Make sure you hard core focus for 30 minutes on the I or who you are. Let infinity flow after the first 30 minutes. Then rest in it for the rest of the time.

Well Well, look whose getting a bit jealous over there

currently at the 4th tier trying to reach the 5th tier.

I already won because I don't consume caffeine ?????????????????????????

Had to share. Funny orange-green(orange just at the tip of emerging into green) video on COVID-19.

Didn't know whether this went into self actualization, health or this sub group, but because I'm using these drugs for meditative purposes, makes sense it goes here. For a lot of drugs I take, both prescription and non prescription, I need to take a very large does for it to be effective. For example, I tried taking 2 tablets of pharma GABA a day for a week and dismissed it because I didn't feel anything. Out of the blue, I thought what would happen if I took 5 a day. I did that and finally felt results. Now I take 5 tablets of pharma GABA whenever I feel a bit ADHD or am having extremely bad concentration issues during meditation. Its the same with melatonin. If I take 1 to 2 tablets to fall asleep, nothing happens. I need to take 4 or even more tablets to feel effects (I of course don't tell my doctor I take this much). To get drunk I also need 16 glasses, below that and the effects are tiny. This just strikes me as a possible health condition. Anyone know of any resources to look up to see how to overcome this issue? This also suggests that I will need 4x the amount of psychedelics as the average person to get the same effects. So when I try shrooms, if the average person needs 2 grams, I'll probably need 8.

I think its impossible for a woman to become enlightened.

easy fix, just stop identifying as a woman Who says you're a woman except for yourself? And other's projection of your gender is their own bias? Even easier fix: realize SoonHei is you. Why trust SoonHei when you can go to the source directly?

I had some challenges with porn, so what I did was filled a lot of my free time up with meditation so that I didn't have time for porn. Seems to be working well.

The stuff behind the eyes = the stuff in front of the eyes.

yeah I do, I went to high school with him. Good bloke.

Definitely! You psychic! Yep Yep great advice. So much suffering from this way of live. Yeah I do this a lot unfortunately. Even over meditation habits. Yep Yep that's a great reminder. And that's missing right now. There's no appreciation for the past, or now, just a push for the future. Thanks Nahm, for speculation that was a highly resonating post. Deeply appreciate your support and love. ? ???

yeah, I get what ya saying hahaha. Probably true. Through my diet I've knocked down a lot of things like aches and focusing issues. My body is a tough nut. You try a lot of things and you still have problems. It needs some professional work like reiki work. Ive even gone to western nutritionists and forget itm They are more hopeless then yourself. They put me on a low carb diet and I felt worse. Body was trying to tell me that reducing a macro nutrient is not how you nourish your body. Lol. Don't tell the keto fans that, they will smadh you. I think I didn't go much further in the past because I have bigger things to worry about like getting my career sorted.

hmmmmmmmmmm. I'll give ya bold answer back lol. Probably better this answer then to give you some generic bullshit like oh i want to be successful or a good little meditator. There's 2 main things going on. Meditation(focus, attention, concentration) and thoughts. When I ask myself and inspect why I do this. The answer that seems quite authentic is the following: There's a 'fight' or competition between 2 sides of a pendulum. The first is to drop all thoughts and dissolve into nothing. To expand, be unlimited, be infinite. The 2nd is a desire to create. To ejaculate or let out 'shakti' or pure creative energy. Its like sex, you leave it in and the energy builds and wants to be let out. Its hard to get any deeper than that, but its a love for form. A love for contributing or creating form. Like creating beautiful masterpieces. When I go hardcore with the first, the shakti builds up, and wants to be let out. And so i swing to going hardcore at my work. Then after going hardcore at my work, a depression from limitation lingers. Its like yes form is beautiful, but you've gotten too immersed in limitation and form, time to drop it. Also just doing meditation all day doesn't feel quite right. It feels like without creation, I don't know, its not how its meant to be. And so I flop between these 2. Last year I flopped between these 2 by working hardcore for 2 weeks, then working less and meditating hardcore. This year I'm doing meditation and lots of work on a daily basis, and so now the flip happens daily. Which is much better because the depression and building up of shakti is more balanced. But its still pretty darn hard for me to balance it. Naturally I feel like oscillating between saying fuck you to meditation and fuck you to work every 2 weeks. Who knows maybe I have a mental condition. Of course there's also egoic survival needs like making money. But really when i think about my biggest challenge, its forging a life that can balance these 2 pendulums. If I do a job that doesn't allow me to express formlessness's beauty, and doesn't allow me to meditate, its not an ideal life. And so my end game is to have such a life. That could mean a career as an inventor(what im doing now) where I express formlessness's beauty through inventive ideas, or it could mean a game developer, etc.

lol that's what my previous relationship was like. I couldn't keep up. You can segregate the convo as women vs man, but in reality its less horny vs more horny.

I eat eggs, tuna, vegetables like onion daily (for breakfast lunch and dinner, im a bit boring). And possibly some keto/low carb brownies once a day. I also blend fruit and make juice and drink tha daily. I drink blended fruits like strawberries or raspberries. In the past I just didn't have the time to meditate because I was focused entirely on career but this year started meditating between 30 minutes to 2 hours a day. I excersise every 1 to 3 days depending on how busy I am. My life is highly stressful because I am a startup founder that works monday to sunday 14 hours a day usually. Which means I'm the one responsible for my company, and its a deeply technical company which means lots of R&D cost and hard to commercialise stuff in time. I don't feel healthy. I have compulsive thoughts, aches all over my body, and am always in the shit at work. But I eat healthy and meditate. Not much more you can do. There's also strong evidence I have disorders like ADHD, autism and dyslexia. Although haven't been formally diagnosed with each. I tend to just drive myself through all my problems. Hence why I'm pretty hard core with doses. If I struggle with meditation, I'll just drive concentration to the point that the struggle dissolves. If I have investors wanting something done tomorrow morning, I'll just drive myself to get it done. And if tablets aren't working, I'll up the dose till it works, which tends to be 4 to 6 tablets when you should take 1(so 4 to 6x what's prescribed)