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@Zak Also it sounds like you're finally realising, doing the work is better than telling others to do the work. And your feeling bad about your friends doing the work but you arent. This would be especially bad if you've built a spiritual ego around being superior than everyone about personal development.

fuck I shouldnt have done that bloody Orchiectomy. The doctors said I would have sex without a condom, but I ended up an incel.

@mandyjw woops mixed her up with @Username they both sound the same haha.

hahahahaha. If you really want to test how good you are at pickup, do it without a car and your own place. That's battle training. If you can bullshit so well as to convince her to fuck you in public toilets, closed off venues, etc. I wanna see pickup youtubers do that. Actually your perception is very twisted towards highly liberal, materialistic cultures. In other cultures like blue stage, conservative cultures, another hard thing with pickup is that the women are much more concerned about only fucking the man of their life, so they'll make you wait a long time to fuck them so that you get attached and stay with them. In blue cultures they are very very good at that. The rabbit outwitting the fox. In orange stage cultures where sex is nothing for women, and women don't have any qualms with having sex with strangers, yeah the hardest part is logistics. Different challenges arise in other conservative cultures, like say muslim countries. Lol the fact that the hardest part about fucking western millennials is planning is hilarious to me. We're so bad at planning, and our attention spans are so small, like a fly, that this is the biggest challenge to pickup and having sex. Not the rabbit outwitting the fox, but we don't have enough concentration to figure out a time and day and place to have sex LOL. Idiocracy is coming true.

????? Hey girl, I've waited 100 000 approaches to find you ? ? If I was a girl, I'd be pretty impressed by that number. Regardless of how big his dick was.

100 000 * 0.001% = 100 000 * 0.00001 = 1 m8 And I need to take math classes?

its a he

Those 2 statements contradict themselves. Not in thought, or belief or philosophy, but in reality. During awakening, your reality actually changes, your paradigm changes. You don't just realise materialism is an illusion, but then materialism stays, materialism ceases to exist. Materialism was never there in the first place. Once you realise the Hellenistic model of the universe is wrong, your reality changes, and the sun ceases to stop revolving around the earth. Before awakening, you have thyroid problems because of atoms in the body doing biological things, after awakening, you don't have a thyroid problem caused by biological stuff occuring. You realise and have a deeper insight into what's actually going on, just like if you were in the 1500s and you were trying to go to mars in a spaceship but your rocket kept getting out of wack due to orbits behaving weirdly, revealing that the earth revolves around the sun rather than the reverse, reveals insight and better clarity to help you overcome the challenge of getting to mars. So no, reality doesn't just stay the same after awakening, a new perspective emerges which gives you a deeper understanding about your problems. It amazes me how seriously you take materialism and traditional western doctors having done lots of 5 meo. Awakening literally opens you up to new modalities of healing and insight into health issues, and reveals to you how western doctors have totally missed the mark. Sure you don't get to change reality to the way the ego wants, but reality does change, and you do enter new paradigms. From Ramana's perspective, he didn't get skin cancer. From his POV, skin cancer wouldnt have even been a thing. Its like each cell has an ego, then one day one cell wakes up to being the entire body. If that cell dies, the Leo cell goes "awakening couldnt stop that cell dying, so that says something" well that cell didn't die because that cell is the body. That cell no longer knew what dying as a cell was even like. Do you think about cells in your body dying? No, you dont even notice it.

so if you approach 100, 000 women, you're doing great if you sleep with 1 of them?

The alt-right/blue worldview is the only worldview I'm 100% certain I could emulate with computers. Every other world-view is far too complex to emulate. If we ever invent humanoid, sentient robots, it will be blue stage/alt-right ones. Other stage ones will take several centuries to make.

maybe they should pitch amongst themselves then

I'm gonna make an app called incelder.com where all the incels can date and hook up with each other. I'm half serious about this idea.

its not only a thought, its infinite intelligence Mu is the state where you're convinced that everything is just a thought except THIS. But Mu is not the highest.

@John Doe mescaline. @Leo Gura what you call mahasamadhi is actually just God consciousness.

@Timur you know for my startup company, I cold called 500 000 clients are living in my city? Ive got spreadsheets and voice calls to prove it. Our startup makes a million dollars a year.

So I'm starting to develop sleeping problems from this trip report. I don't know why, but I'm worried that when I sleep, I'll accidentally merge with infinite love and wipe out the entire universe. My perspective changes so much on a daily basis, that setting goals is just impossible for me to maintain, because the premises which the goals sit on get unravelled. So I just gotta travel through this journey. I'm gonna brew ayahuasca myself and the plan is to take ayahuasca once a week. Surely that'll expel all devilry within me. Its also clear to me that to go further in the work, I need to take psychedelics. I'm the sort of body mind that needs psychedelics to move forward.

I skin people alive and sell their flesh to aliens.

@AlwaysBeNice Wow that's a truly tragic and beautiful story, only God could come up with such a story.

you have these soul beliefs, YOU! But for you to see that, you'd have to be ONE. And you don't want to reveal yourself quite yet as ONE. So what you're gonna do is judge cetus and others for having soul beliefs, and therefore through judging, you can separate yourself from cetus, and not be one! Clever devil! And also lets make a juicy story about it, so that you keep immersed in the story of how stupid you/cetus and soul believers are. That way you've got no chance of pondering why you're judging cetus. Super air tight plan you've got there. Good job.

Well no, precision is part of our individualistic drive... wait I don't understand your question?

Trust me, your awakening to infinite love will be a trillion times better if you were a world war 2 soldier, seeing your comrad's heads blown off in trucks and getting shot to death. Rather than some rich sucker in the suburbs. Also life is so much more fun when you're getting tortured and skinned alive. You're not really feeling the full spectrum of whats possible to feel if you leave torture out of it.

news that he finally got out of jail. Infinite love does it again

So everything is love. What's next? What I've noticed is my approach to spirituality has been highly jnana(intellectual) and all mystical insights have come from the angle of understanding, knowing, 'figuring stuff out' etc(ForestLuv's journal is a clear example of such an angle, and he explains in one of his posts very well what it feels like to be a jnana oriented spiritual seeker), which is great for having mystical experiences, but what's left out from this approach is extreme embodiment. Embodiment is not a jnana thing, its a heart thing. It comes from the heart rather than the mind. Now I 'know' everything is love, but now its time to feel it and experience it all the time, and to live life, make career, relationship, family decisions based off that feeling and experience. Completely eliminating all judgments and hatred will be my goal for the coming months. This does not mean I will not get angry or fierce sometimes, but rather I'll accept and fall in love with the anger, rather than judge it. Its about having a massively high level, big picture understanding of reality, and see the value, importance, necessity, 'why its here' of everything, anger, hatred, judgment, jealousy, happiness, etc. My goal will also be to recognise and become more aware of how disagreements and differences of opinion with others is actually a "survival mechanism" or how God separates itself into 2 instead of 1. Judging others' opinions is a way to basically say "I'm this opinion, and that opinion im judging is that opinion, and there is a difference between me and that". To be one with the world necessarily means to not judge or even disagree with others' opinions. Rather its to see the opinions as Love. No matter what the opinion is, if you see it as love, you'll remind yourself of your oneness. MY other goal will be to reduce preference for 1 thing over another. Because again this is just a way of God separating him/herself into 2. By choosing to love one particular career, woman, car, house, etc over another, you're effectively saying "this car is me, but that car is not me. This house is me, but that house is not me. This career is me, but that career is not me". While in the relative world, your body and mind will act in accord to preferences, on a universal mind level, its important to remember how these preferences are facilitating division, and how really, all of the options you dislike are just Love. And then of course my last goal will be to continue to dis-identify with thoughts, with 1 hour of meditation. But 1 hour of meditation wont do it, I need to live 24/7 with this new loving perspective for it to be fully embodied, hence the other goals.

nice work man! Love reading your progress! I especially love how its a roller coaster, going from extreme highs to extreme lows, that aspect is right out of the spiritual journey's playbook.

get psychotria viridis leaves, easier to brew and you dont have to be a cu** and kill innocent trees in the amazon - trees which are already being chopped down at a rate of knots due to woodwork and paper