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There was a guy once who kept asking "how do I get enlightened?". He tried many techniques. He went on many retreats. He spent hours meditating, and reading lectures. In the end he gave up. And as soon as he gave up, he laughed, because he just got enlightened. He was a main character in a blockbuster movie, and enlightenment was the climax of the movie. In the 2nd sequel of that movie, he was an old wise spiritual teacher. A student came up to him and asked what's the fastest way to enlighten. He said 10000 hours. After 10000 hours, nothing happened to the student. The student gave up and as soon as he gave up, the climax to the sequel happened. You're acting dude. Its all an act. You asking this question is an act. And you're asking this question as part of movie. You wanna awaken? Sure keep asking what's the most powerful meditation techniques, how long you must train, etc. That will keep the movie engaging and fun. But if you really wanna wake up, why don't you toss the movie away? And if you really want an answer to your question, maybe ask yourself, "how long are you gonna ask how long it takes to enlighten, how long are ya gonna meditate, do yoga, kriya, retreats, etc. Before you throw it all away and accept reality as it is? Accept this movie not based on your spiritual beliefs and motives and values, but based on how it actually is? How long will it take, before you throw everything away?"

Entered another chapter of my life. I'm just so empty now. Its an attitude, a level of emptiness so empty that if you go meta on the emptiness, you end up with everything. So empty that, if you see the buddha on the road, you neither desire to kill or not kill him. If a 2nd buddha appears, and tells you to kill the 1st buddha, you kill the 2nd buddha. If a 3rd buddha appears, and tells you to kill the 2nd, then you kill the 3rd. If an infinite number of buddhas appear, the last buddha to tell you to kill the 2nd last buddha, ends up being the 1st buddha. And so you kill the last buddha, and in the end, you therefore end up killing the 1st buddha all along. Right where you started, but took you infinite meta steps to get there. Life's a movie, a play for me now. A deep self-centredness. A see a world where the entire movie, including the main character, is all set up for an epic play. Laws of physics, laws of economics, social behaviour, 3d world, etc. Doesn't dictate how reality works, but rather the storyline does. The great dance. My character's journey, experiences, desires, passions, fears, truths, falsehoods, all make up how this reality works. The president in the US, the poverty in Africa, the wars of the past, and prosperity of the future, is being caused by how my journey unfolds. Because it doesn't exist outside of me, but is created in the moment. And the suffering, the 'figuring it out', the exploration and discovery, death and birth, the insights, obstacles, wins and losses, highs and lows, the spiritual ego, the normal ego, the destruction of ego, is all part of this epic journey to explore, dance, play, discovery, perform. The nature of this reality is very different to materialism. And its very different to the views of other people. Those other people are in a journey, but unconscious of it. The book 'Crazy Wisdom' by Chögyam Trungpa, came into my grasp at exactly the right time. Time had dissolved, the world felt magical and imaginary, The 3D materialistic world was dissolving, I felt eternity, the impermanence of my existence, life and death, the dissolving of my spiritual views, perspectives and beliefs, the fact that life was a dance without an end. And lastly I felt hopeless, completely hopeless, because I had no experienced this thing called 'enlightenment'. Been trying so much, millions of techniques, teachings, sex, love, money, fame, yoga, caring for the family, hippyism, yet to no avail. That book had a passage, specifically on hope. About how enlightenment transcends hope. Because hope is an egoic attitude. And once you transcend hope... that's it. Once you no longer care about hoping or desiring enlightenment. And you just accept the play that's going on now, that is the goal. That is the leap. To no longer desiring or seeking or trying to attain something. But just to accept the dance the way it is... that was your goal all along. Life happens, it evolves, you achieve things, you evolve. But every single moment is the goal. Not the what your evolution will turn into, but what it already is. And appreciating and loving the changingness of it. You were shooting for the stars, but the stars weren't up in the sky, they were all in your eyes. The truth is so simple, so obvious, so big, so hard to see, so good, that it takes you lifetimes and lifetimes to fully see it. Its the exact opposite of what you think it is. I know the truth because, I truly know absolutely nothing. I'm free because, I have completely let go of control. I'm richer because, I have nothing. I'm immortal because, I have died. I'm the wisest, because I'm always a student. I'm the most passionate, because I have let go of all passion. I'm the happiest because, I fully embrace sadness and tragedy. I'm where I began, because of the journey. I had the journey, because of where I began. The buddha said, the root of all suffering is desire. And he's right, and wrong. Desiring is what makes us believe that the goal is in the future, its a state, something you can obtain, when its none of those things, but rather the opposite. So he was right. But he was wrong because, to not desire, and to accept the world the way it is, also means to accept and include desire. To not accept the existence of desire is to not accept the world. So to end suffering, also means to desire. Becoming enlightened, means to start all over again.

I've got no clue of your personal situation other than your body is getting destroyed(like cancer). Death = Aliveness. End = Beginning. Your chapter as the one who you currently believe you are is coming to an end, but a new, vibrant, exciting chapter is just about to open. A new life, new things to discover, new things to explore, another chance to awaken, another chance to be suprised, excited and happy. And no need to fear, as this has been your nature from the beginning. What else have you been doing in the universe other than beginning?

ooooo that's very similar to what happened. Just had a san pedro trip. Everything was one, then everything divided itself into all objects. Its like seeing spirits but on steroids, all over the place, surrounded. Now im having conversations with the essence or souls of all those objects. Turns out my sink is a comedian. Sounds like you need to reincarnate into a panda. Ive got riturals if you need help LOL. But im half serious. If you wanna be a panda let me know.

Felt like falling through the ground/walls/everything that's solid. And a complete letting go. Felt like being unleashed from shackles. Felt like giving up on all control. Felt like going down really fast in a roller coaster. Felt like everything is virtual. Felt like massive energy. Felt like releasing solidification of the present moment. Felt like unlimitedness. Felt like overwhelming.

Yep awesome.

What are some ways of deeply quenching your intimacy needs, without committing to a relationship? Intimacy needs as in the desire to care for a romantic partner like a child. And also, when dating women casually or in short term relationships, what are some ways of ending the relationships gracefully? Considering they get attached. I've already tried 100% honest communication from the beginning, they don't believe it or hope that things change.

@ivankiss reverse psychology sometimes works. If you tell her you're not looking for anything serious, she gets more attached to you. If you tell her you're super into her and want to talk about the wedding, *sometimes* this makes them less attached But it can backfire, word of caution... You need to pick your targets wisely for this to work.

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Thats exactly what i was trying to ask in this question: You just said it better than me. I'm in a similar situation to you, except I'm not hot or sexy, I'm just a white high status guy in a 3rd world country.

The sensation that my head was a penis, and my penis was my head.

Seems to work very well for me. Better than kriya yoga and similar.

1000000000000% accept, embrace and love the possibility of "your girl" having an orgy with all of your male friends except for you, on your bed.

@Meta-Man I hope you've got a respectful relationship with the lord, otherwise that body mind might find a girlfriend anyway regardless of your opinions LOL.

@Member my friends are pretty sure they have free will lol. At this stage of awakening, talking about enlightenment is like talking about pink to a blind man.

Well lets go meta on that. Can you predict when you're gonna decide to have a burning desire to awaken? What environmental factors, genetic factors? Etc? Did you decide when you were going to decide when you were gonna have a burning desire to awaken? Can you point out why you have a burning desire but others don't? Or in non dualistic terms, why you have a burning desire to awaken when its possible not to have one? Does logical reasoning determine the existence of a burning desire for awakening? Is there a moral function for why you must have a desire to awaken at a particular time? Does it happen due to feeling something like empathy or guilt, etc. Are there any rules for when a burning desire for awakening to occur? Notice how the answer is no? Notice how there's no rules or patterns that determine when a burning desire for awakening occurs. If your ego could decide, then a burning desire to awaken would occur off the batt of some moral or logical premise. Because free will for an ego means stuff happens based on logical or moral reason and causation, etc that the ego thought through. The ego doesn't just make spontaneous decisions. The reason why we feel like the ego makes decisions is because, what happens in reality gets interpreted to align with with the ego's opinions and reasons. If you punch me and i punch you back, i believe i as an ego has free will, because logically and morally the right thing for an ego to do would be to punch you back. If i did spontaneous stuff not in alignment with my morals and logical reasoning, like for example do a high five after you punch me, i would feel like the ego is not in control. Free will illusion is perpetuated by this moral and logical ego consciousness causation and prediction of the future. Thats why when God decides not to meditate but your ego wants to, and then you dont because gods in control not the ego, instead of admitting whether you meditate or not isnt up to you, you come up with the lie of procrastination. You cant handle that you are not in control, so you twist reality to support the matrix. Now if your burning desire for awakening occurs without any prelude to any logical or moral cause, then you aint deciding it. Its just happening. Its a miracle, spontaneous. Its not something you decide. For you to decide it, it must align with the opinions and logical reason of the ego, but it doesn't. It just happens.

That whole statement is just completely undefined in my land. I'm on a completely different planet to you. God doesn't force anything. There is no force. Force is something the devil invented/illusion. Its not actually there. Things are just happening. There's no "if you wanna awaken" There's just you awakening and pretending there's an "if" to keep the illusion going.

Each of those conditions and structures have a commonality between autistic people. If there was no commonality, then calling something 'autism' would be a completely ineffective distinction to make. I understand autistic people extremely well, lots of them, even though their condition is different. I'm not trying to make a criminal law reform saying "autistic people shalt feel Love otherwise they be hanged!". Of course just because 1 autistic person can feel love doesn't mean another can. And its not necessarily because of autism, but could be because people have multiple mental conditions, different effects environmental factors, digestive system issues, etc that could affect consciousness. But besides, mental conditions are not a good predictor for determining someone's consciousness abilities and potential. There are spiritually talented people from all walks of life, with all sorts of mental conditions. Teal Swan is a mess and she's better than most people. There are people on here who are seriously fucked up, yet they are on here because they are better then average. And in my personal experience, your mental makeup doesn't really correlate to spiritual effectiveness. Desire for truth and environmental factors (how much suffering and stress your environment forces you through) are way better predictors.

Because I know what autism is, and I can feel what effect it has on raising consciousness.

The bottom line is, you need to be an asshole 20% of the time to get the hottest girls. breaking social norms, boundaries is what someone who is dominant and assertive does, which is hot. The bigger issue here is, are you willing to accept that women are into men who are a bit of an ass necessarily? Or have you judged assholes all your life, and now to be one you're struggling with that due to those judgments? All your life society has demonised you for being an ass. You were ostracised, attacked, your parents got angry at you, admirable spritual teachers said you were wrong for being an ass. Now you are afraid of being an asshole because of that. The real work you need to do is to stop judging assholes. Embrace them, accept them. Love them. Then you can 'transcend' your hatred and judgment of assholes. Once you do that, you're free to be an ass, and not care about the consequences. A harsh reality 90% of people arent willing to stomach, is to have a successful career or dating life, you need to be a bit of an ass. Being an ass is basically stepping over someone's boundaries, or breaking social norms. You need to do that 20% of the time to get what you want, to make a good business or to date a hot girl. You need to do it because, in the real world(not the fantasy spiritual land) people are deeply selfish and survival driven. They aren't principled or alturistic. Even hippies. They aren't interested in fairness. They are interested in manipulation of the situation to fit their needs. Even the ones who paint a grand picture of themselves as being a turquoise, highly principled individual, are 99% driven by fitting their agenda. So if you really want to get what you want, you need to have the balls to step over their boundaries sometimes, otherwise subconsciously they will step over yours. And sometimes you'll get backlash from that. And really getting good at your masculine aspect is the ability to do that, and have the courage to take any backlash that comes from doing that. For dating specifically, you need to do this about 20% of the time.

speaking as someone with clinically diagnosed autism, no.

Thats definitely not an absolute. I know dozens of women(girlfriends) who love 007 james bond and harvey from suits type of guys, which is a knife on the outside but a tad bit of honey on the inside.

Was there ever a difference What you can and cannot do, was never up to you. Disrespect or not, that was always God's choice.

@James123 if i didnt disrespect myself, awakening would be 1000x less powerful. Contemplate why devilry and ignorance and arrogance exist. They are there for a very good reason, to facilitate powerful awakeningz.

@James123 you realise shoo fly is love too? You realise fucking your mum is love too? You realise me calling you an idiot is love too? You realise ego, devilry, cultural indoctrination self deception devilry is all love?