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Gosh well lets hope its not already happening.

bro, how else are ya gonna be the new hip swami sadhguru bramahama

Feeling completely dead today, or equivalently feeling like everything is completely alive. I wonder how such a state like this would go with NN-DMT. Should try it.

Finding comfort = avoiding fear. What do you fear? Is that fear what it seems? Can you see the love that shines through that fear? Can you drop the fear? Can you recognise that the fear is lying?

I've read the books and looked up Leo's twisted definition of turquoise, and I'm still very confused on the differences between awakening and turquoise. You guys conflate the 2 a lot. Its almost impossible to tell the 2 apart. Based on traditional spiral dynamics literature, turquoise models a sociological (not psychological) value system which stands out from the rest on the value of holism. Its extremely large picture. You see the value and how everything connects together on an intuitive level. It differentiates itself from yellow in that its intuitive. You don't get lost in the mind, you feel how things are connected. The other difference is in yellow you primarily view things through hierarchies, structures, etc. How things are different to each other. In turquoise, the emphasis is in the connectedness, or how everything relates as one thing. Awakening, is when the matrix collapses. Its when the thing under the matrix (Love, Bliss, Wisdom) is revealed to you. Its when you see this entire thing as made of imagination or 'pixie, magical dust' instead of atoms. Its the deconstruction of ego and the world. Turquoise is about understanding the matrix, but not going beyond it. Awakening happens at all stages of the spiral, and doesn't correlate to different stages. Lastly, spiral dynamics was made by academics. So any reference to mysticism or supernatural stuff, or siddhis, etc. Was an invention leo made and stuck it on turquoise. There is no mysticism or eastern philosophy in the original spiral dynamics model. So as far as my understanding is concerned, you could be turquoise, yet as enlightened as Trump. I don't see any correlation at all to being turquoise, and being mystical. Mysticism is way beyond and on a completely different plane to spiral dynamics. And spiral wizardry isn't that useful to spiritual work anyway. Its only really applicable for getting groups of people cooperating together effectively. In terms of being happy, leave that up to eastern philosophy. So why do people here talk about turquoise and enlightenment, mystical and supernatural stuff so much? Why did Leo emphasise lots of supernatural and mystical stuff in turquoise when its got nothing to do with turquoise? Most supernatural people are purple btw. And green people like reiki healers. No where near turquoise.

Everything to do with women is coming from your genitals. You are into women instead of donkeys purely because of your genitals. Your spiritual ego begs otherwise. As said before, if you're aiming for infinite love, judging PUAs is not the way to go.

I didn't say sex, I said your dick. @zeroISinfinity You seem to have hatred against guys who date women just for sex. That's not wise on this path, especially if you're aiming for infinite love.

zeroISinfinity cannot stomach doing anything selfishly, he's waaay too advanced and spiritual for that, so lets pretend we are dating for unconditional love rather than sex. Of course, you're selfishly biased towards dating a particular gender, let alone a particular species, but lets not admit that, hurts the spiritual ego too much. Unless someone points it out, in which, to protect the spiritual ego, we must call the one exposing the biases a 15 year old child: spiritual work, is seeing reality for how things ARE, rather than how your spiritual ego wants them to be. What you're into is something called spiritual materialism. Which is not really my thing. desires and needs from your dick. If you care to know more about your dating life, self inquire where all of your desire for intimacy, caring for a woman, looking after a woman, tantra yoga, etc, comes from. It all comes from your dick. If you cut your balls off, you would no longer desire lasting relationships, caring for, looking after women. (if you're straight).

You got a mirror in front of you? Pretending that you're dating women because of genuine love, rather than your dick, is massive self deception and dishonesty. You're dating for deeply selfish reasons. No matter how much you try to dovetail it with hippy love poems. True love comes from infinity, anything else is deep deep selfishness.

The only reason why women and men date is to satisfy their sexual needs. Dating is a very specific type of social phenomena where its purely sexual. Even your desire for intimacy and love comes from your dick. When you crave intimacy, use body awareness to locate where its coming from.. its all from your dick. You don't crave intimacy from your mum or sister. Lasting sexual relationships are coming from your dick. And we don't date for friends... friend zone is something we urgently try and avoid. And everything has karmic consequences, not just 'hurting' someone. If its not a woman's job to satisfy your sexual needs, then whose job is it? Sex robots?

use AI and machine learning for that

This is just a natural byproduct of capitalism. The people crying over socialism are unconsciously supporting this behaviour, man of which are unconsciously benefiting from it.

This is actually counter to proper use of the model. If you can't satisfactorily peg yourself on the spiral purely by reading and understanding the model, then you don't know it well enough. And if you resort to getting a test to peg yourself on the spiral instead, you're giving your authority away to some almighty arbiter of truth of which you have no idea on what its about, how it works, its limitations and blind spots. Same issue is listening blindly to a guru. If you really care about SD and moving up the spiral, the motion has to come from what you feel within. The model is just a tool to help you clarify what's going on within. But its by no means Truth, its not even relatively true, the model is just a projection onto Form. And with all projections, its partially deluded. So its useful, but its not true. And therefore, it doesn't matter what level on the spiral you're on, or what some test says you're on, all that matters is whether the spiral helps you make sense of what you feel within. You don't even need to peg yourself on the spiral for that, you just need to recognise aspects of yourself that is causing you suffering, and use SD to try and understand it from a more holistic level. No pegging on the spiral is even necessary.

omg yours is today aswell??

What a coincidence, I accidentally wrote some software code today which printed "yep" a thousand times to the screen. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Last insight/goal to write down before the meditation session ends: Every atom in the universe has what you seek. No matter the 'appearance' focus on channelling the atomic substance. Doesn't matter whether you're cleaning, driving, doing spreadsheets, programming, speaking to employees, etc. Every single aspect of reality contains the love and wisdom that you're seeking, the thing which you're making your business for in the first place. Access it all the time. You don't need to be talking to employees to access and learn wisdom. You can learn wisdom cleaning the toilet. It just takes channeling that which is under the appearance.

I tend to feel the foods before I eat them, and use that to determine what I eat. For example, if I feel too energetic and need to sleep, I'll feel for foods that make me more calm and less energetic like green leaves or heavier foods like fish. If I feel too drowsy I'll feel for foods that make me feel energetic like berries and passion fruit, etc. But maybe thats too primitive for what you're after haha.

That's right where you wanna be, awesome!

Have been working with @Nahms invention of the dream board. And been doing it differently over the past few weeks. I've gotten a lot of value out of contemplating why the stuff on my dreamboard is there. When you draw stuff on your dreamboard, it feels good, but the stuff you draw is very concrete stuff. Like objects and places and roles you're playing. The issue I had was, my dreamboard would change almost daily. I felt like I couldn't make up my mind what I wanted. And so I got more abstract and deep about it to try and maintain some consistency in what I wanted to manifest. Here are a few pictures that makes me buzz: They're all so different, a fighter pilot, dmt visions, video games and temples. Yet when you inquire closer as to why they generate good feelings, you get insights that are consistent between them. Why do I like legend of zelda? Because its beautiful and magical and mysterious. I don't have any knowledge of the objects and beings in that story, so I'm super curious. It also clears my mind of thought because I'm too hypnotised in curiosity. They are also aesthetically beautiful, which brings out the love. Not when playing the game, but when watching the gameplay, there's no fear. Its just pure fascination and awe and curiosity and mystery. The temple is the same. There's no fear because its a temple. The patterns are beautiful, which brings out the love. The patterns are mysterious and I'm curious about them. Which makes my mind no mind. Same goes for the dmt experience. And the figher pilot is pointing to the fact that I want to feel good in my body. I need more mind body awareness. Its showing me I want to feel more, feel flying, expand what I feel in my body. So my dreamboard is pointing to me wanting a state of being where I'm a mindless, curious child who is deeply hypnotised by the beauty and love of the world. And a world where I feel my entire body. And the curiosity portrays my love of wisdom and understanding. Not understanding through the mind, but through direct experience. Feeling the understandings.

Learning to love boring, frustrating, irritating, mundane tasks is what separates the winners from the losers.

should be "I think, therefore I suffer"

You think women are cars? Where if you use their vaginas too much, you need to go to the mechanic and buy a new one?

Entered a new chapter today. Became aware of the neutrality of spiritual materialism vs transcendence of spiritual materialism. For the past several years, I've leaned too far towards the transcendence of spiritual materialism: deconstruction, 'not playing the game', rejecting materialism, etc. Due to following the buddhist way of precluding material accumulation. But it has now occurred to me how that way of life can actually bite you in the ass and allow the ego to one up you. By being a hard liner on rejecting materialism (spiritual, physical, etc) you can actually develop a spiritual ego built on being the guy who rejects materialism. And that's what I've been, the actor pretending to be the anti materialist monk. So again, the ego one upped me. And then the ego uses that in a multitude of ways to keep you stuck in the matrix. For example, by making you believe that the world is ultimately pessimistic, dark, gloomy, etc. Here are some ways the ego exploited the rejection of spiritual materialism to keep the matrix going: 1) Why do you feel a need to have sex? Because your ego wants you to, and that's bad. (sexual repression) -> in reality sex is God. And having sex is just accepting God the way he is. 2) Why is the law of attraction bullshit and not true? Because its what the ego wants, its getting materialistic things, and getting materialistic things is bad -> when in reality, getting materialistic things isn't bad, and the law of attraction isn't always about getting what your ego wants, its sometimes about getting things You want. Getting more in touch with love. If you use LoA to attract the perfect woman in your life, maybe that's not materialistic but a way of opening up infinite love within yourself (like how the tantra yogis did it). 3) I don't get the job I want and that's ok, because getting the job I want is materialistic. -> in reality, if you want a particular job over another, it could mean that you feel more infinite love for one job over the other, and its actually an anti materialistic thing. I'm now going to balance and be more neutral about spiritual materialism. To overcome these ego exploitation. The tantra path does a great job of combining the 2. May need to immerse myself in it.

you write jesus christ a lot, are you trying to repent your sexual sins? IMO if a woman has a little bit of blue in her, it hot. Just a sprinkle of blue, like a little sprinkle of salt. Its nice if she's a bit embarrassed about showing her private parts, and gets you to chase her to get it.

he's exactly right. He's just speaking absolutely. It does but its equivelant to using a hammer to cut a piece of wood. If you're into consciousness work, there's almost no point in toying with spiral dynamics. Its much more useful for healing society.