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What's a way of re contextualising or rethinking healing in a way where its not centred around human or ego or partial identification of the universal mind/God? In other words, what are some some healing resources centred around universal identification?

If you want to be disciplined as an artistic type you need to let go and get into the flow state...

same for your girl's private parts?

@FortisFortunaAdiuvat woah thats an awesome insight you discovered! Thanks for sharing!

Better to be a kid then an adult.

So still lots of work to be done. Noticed something interesting though: 1. My desire for knowledge from external sources is social conditioning. What I truly want to do is rest in infinity/unconditional love. There is no need to look at external sources to figure out how to do that. Just fricken do it. 2. There are lots of 'subtle dualities' which need to be dissolved or released. For example I can see myself in other humans, yet if a spider is about to bite me, I the state where you see everything as you goes away. To deepen the experience, you need to see God in things even when it threatens the body. 3. There is still slight agendas that pop up here and there that stop the full release and free flowing of consciousness. 4. certain work can reduce the non dual state. 5. still have a very active and problematic mind. Still thoughts going like nuts. To 'solve' this, honestly, you know how to do it. You don't have to read books or ask people. What works for you is: contemplation, letting go, feeling the body. placing feeling over thought. That's it. That works like a charm. Just do it. Recount of waking up process: Insanity and going crazy and dissolving states of consciousness, etc. is just waking up to the fact that appearances are all there is, and you are the appearances. And the appearances are intelligent love. Yet the ego did not realise this. The ego cannot fathom such a state of consciousness. And so the only thing it thinks when waking up happens is 'insanity'. Insanity means undefined to the ego. The last moments of waking up were as follows: Ego felt like it was retiring, dying, much the same feeling as being in palliative care. It also felt like it was gonna explode. Or the entire universe would. It also thought it was going insane and into a hospital ward (because it didn't understand undefined). Yet as soon as waking up happened, the identity died with all of the fears it had. And so no matter how freaked out it was, it didnt matter in the end, because its fears died along with it. But even after waking up, the body was complaining. Every night after waking up, a massive massive rush of energy filled the body up. It was massive bright dissolving energy. It was dissolving shit at the rate of knots. There was a very high amount of existential fear... but no one to care. And so the existential fear was there, but it was detached. And the energy was allowed to do its thing as consciousness just peacefully watched. But even after waking up, there is still lots of identification and ego that needs to be shed. As described above.

@Opo your good insight is peeling away my high self esteem.

I want you to spend 30 minutes imagining your perfect self. I want you to imagine what mindset you have, are you a positive thinker? When things go wrong, what do you think? How do you approach life? When someone dies, what does your perfect self do? How does your perfect self show compassion? What does your perfect self say to the loved ones of that dead person? When someone is lonely on the street, what does your perfect self say to that person? What does your perfect self do? When you're driving and your car breaks down, right before a huge meeting at work, what does your perfect self do? When you're in the shopping centre and your perfect self sees a kid, lonely, lost from her mum, crying in a corner, what does your perfect self do? When you are out in the park, and you see a bunch of kids stepping out a bunch of ants for fun, what does your perfect self do? What does your perfect self think? What does your perfect self say? How does your perfect self feel? When your perfect self's girlfriend gets bullied at school, what does your perfect self think? Say? Do? Feel? How about enlightenment? Is your perfect self enlightened? God realized? How does your perfect enlightened God realized self see the world? Does he see the entire existence at once as being himself and one? Does he see all children as his own? Is the only desire for your perfect, God realized self to love each every being your perfect self comes into contact with? Does your perfect self just fully let go into the present moment, fully let go of control of everything, let go of his ego, his agenda, his beliefs, his views, his life, just so he can make room to love each and every thing in the universe? Just really really feel that now. Feel who your perfect self is. Do it for 30 minutes. Now your perfect self sees a user on the forum called Raptorsin16, and Raptonsin16 writes: " I'm currently 25 and i'm struggling with maturing into a functioning adult and overcoming some ego developmental issues. I live at home and over the past few months i've fallen into a serious rut and i'm pretty paralyzed with moving forward with my life. Although i'm 25, i'd say emotionally/maturity wise i'm still a teenager/child. I struggle with feelings of envy, shame, and a deep feelings of insecurity and worthlessness. When i look at job postings or think about my future, i just think/feel that i'm so far behind and i just feel hopeless and stop the search and look for an escape (mainly through food and video games). My parents mean well and they do their best, but i've been a huge devil in my life, and especially recently. I really resent my parents for how i turned out. I feel like a complete failure and loser, and i'm so ashamed for things have turned out so far in my life, and I blame/resent my parents for how they raised me and what they let happen. My thought process is completely toxic, and my habits are toxic as well (poor diet and little exercise), I take no responsibility for my life, and i'm a perpetual victim as well. The worst part is that i just feel helpless and hopeless, and i have strong desire/motivation to change. I know my life's a mess and i want to be happy and functional, but whenever i think of what it takes to get going, or make some progress, i just feel overwhelmed and give up. I feel like there's a million areas of my life that need improvement, but given what i've read on development there's definitely a hierarchy of stuff to work on, so i'm curious if anyone has resources or ideas on where to put my focus on improving." What would your perfect self do? What would your perfect self want? What would your perfect self feel? What would your perfect self say to this user?

totally agree with you Your back muscles are pleading for you to listen to them and give them attention. Just feel very deeply into them during the day. So much so that you start to feel bliss there. Your emotions are pleading for you to listen to them and give them attention. Just feel very deeply into them during the day. So much so that you start to feel bliss there. The beginning of accepting the present moment, love it!

@preventingdiabetes I personally believe you should stop listening to your head so much and start listening to your heart. Your heart knows all of your answers.

Its better to have high self esteem then low self esteem. Totally get you. I use to feel that way alot and still do. You've got some wisdom to sort of notice that, that idea of the perfect disciplined man/woman is imaginary and doesn't exist. Even though you're not totally on board with it yet. To be honest kid... real disciple doesn't come from thrusting yourself into some ideal that you may believe came from you, but actually came from your social conditioning. Real discipline comes from the willingness to LET GO of the social ideals, the beliefs, the dogmas about what you have been indoctrinated into thinking you should be, or should be doing. Real discipline flows naturally. Its what happens by default when you stop getting in the way. Real discipline is a beautiful, free flowing river, that's running down the rocks as part of its nature. Its not a dam. It doesn't have barricades preventing it from flowing. And what you're doing is trying to make the river flow freely using barricades.

The greatest and most powerful weapon the bully has, isn't on what he's capable of believing about you or what he's capable of doing to you. Nor is it his power to convince others to believe in things about you, or convince others what to do to you. His greatest power, is what he can convince you to believe about yourself. The bully is motivated by fear. His whole gameplan is to you use to avoid his own fears, insecurities, traumas and self hatred. To overcome the bully, you need to be willing to be what the bully isn't. You need to have: self respect, self worth, no fear in who the bully is or what he stands for, no fear in the bully's friends. And most importantly, you need to be at peace with yourself. You need to feel in your bones that you are a good guy/girl, you haven't done anything in the past to deserve the bullying, or at the very least, you've forgiven yourself for those things, and there's nothing the bully can convince you of about yourself.

Maybe that's because its not quite awakening but half awakening. Rest assured, in a deeper awakening, there are no people to explain stuff to at all!

Yep exact same here. It doesn't really matter what other people experience. What other people experience is literally made up/isn't real, so trying to replicate that is silly.

definitely resonate with the appearance part.

Do you desire creating an apparent self, and apparent others though? Or would you rather let those go to make room to create things even cooler than those such as extra dimensional beings.

thanks for that pointer, yep. Another paradox is, letting go of thoughts and beliefs that don't align with truth is a form of creation.

Yep, its just there is more work that can be done, more love to generate and spread, yet the inner kriya or effort has to come from oneness rather than the 1st half of 2ness. You can't really grow 2ness because its not there. The discord between what's happening with appearances and truth cannot really be ignored. You're fully immersed into the appearances and if there's a cry for help, misalignment, you feel it straight away. You can feel the discord, yet you can only actualize the compassion through the body and mind. Which is a strange paradox because the 3D matrix is only beyond appearance. It doesn't make sense to heal through being a healer or any other profession when that's all pretend. The healer is pretend, the other person is pretend. The real work is correcting the story as a whole rather than 'helping people' so to speak. Because lets face it, they are all you just pretending to not be you. We want to help what they are, not what they pretend to be. You are the creator, as everything beyond appearance is projected by you, but to take things to the next level, you need to change what's being created so that you're doing it consciously and aligned with truth rather than unconsciously and aligned with falsehood. That's something I'm confused on. Because it feels like the more I let go, the more I create in alignment with truth. Law of One/Ra and Bashar and all the spooky teachers are weirdly becoming more relevant in my life atm hahaha.

the 2nd trip report here(created a month or 2 ago) is exactly where "I'm at" now, and its exactly what I want to embody deeper. Its crazy how that trip report perfectly describes now. Especially, grace or complete surrender to the point that reality is just flowing completely freely. And complete letting go of all suffering and discomfort and pain. And letting go to the point that love can just out-pour seamlessly to others, completely effortless, but effective helping others. Also this is what I want to embody: As Nahm answered here, shadow work, healing, trauma, spiritual development, whatever, at the universal identification level means helping others, along with your physical avatar, as a whole. So also allowing the love to outpour to others, and deepening that possibility, is also what I want. Other note: false identification = suffering. Simple as that. No false identification, no suffering. More false identification is release, less suffering there is.

what a great source of motivation to see yourself beyond the body. How hard is expansion for the ones who don't know they're limited.

@tuckerwphotography If a big loving God created the universe, would he/she create something for no reason?

I don't think you're a bad person. Its really remarkable to see that you have the courage, wisdom and sincerity to look at the unpleasant memories head on and face them. That's real, true growth, and the sort of thing a 'good person' does. If God manifested himself in front of you right now, he/she would give you a massive hug for mustering up the courage to even think about doing what you're trying to do.

Its beautiful to see such care and empathy in another being, like what you're showing. I understand that its really really really tough to break someone's heart. And if I was in your position, I would typing on here for an answer too lol. When you're in the position you're in, its easy to feel like all the suffering is coming from hurting the other person. But there's more going on here then that. If you break up with him, what does that say about you? Are you a good person? Bad person? A mean person? A jerk? Are you worried at all about how breaking up with him is going to hurt your self image? Who you think yourself to be? You may be carrying deep trauma or pain in your body from the need to try and preserve the image of yourself that you're trying to uphold, and such an image may break down, or release if you break up with this guy. Every loss, every single loss, is scary, uncomfortable, sometimes depressing, sometimes horrible, but every single loss is ALWAYS an opportunity to grow, to become a better person, more of the person you want to be, and most powerfully, to release that painful trauma that you're carrying in your system. I would think about how much both you and your boyfriend will grow, how much trauma will be released, in the long run, from breaking up with him when considering what you should do.

@meow_meow Yep. Nahm has a really good reply here:

Was questioning, what's the point of duality? Why is it there. Then this massive explosion of compassion occurred. A love for all partial aspects of God, and a Will or desire to give them love. To share with them the realisation of self. Then it just occurred to me, that literally the entire dream is designed just to share the love and self realization. The dream is designed in its current form to spread the love. That's what maximising love means. ooooo that's overwhelming somehow even without being a human hahahaha. So that's the point of... basically all action and movement. ohhhhhhh. And the entire journey I went on was specifically designed for that purpose. I also had some petty issues, and I was wondering how to fully eliminate all fears and suffering. And this realization that everything is about spreading the love just blew them all away. Its like now I don't care about anything except helping spread the love. I'm in a swirly love vortex where there's just Loving God, and spreading that love with myself through all the partial aspects of God. And its all about making the action to spread that love as best as possible.