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Bit hard to ask for the girl's number, if her friend keeps interrupting.

What gives you a drive to keep moving forward? - Money is just an artificial perception, and always will be. You'll never touch the essence of money in awareness, it will always be a pot at the end of a rainbow. - Likewise with good grades. Its just a perception, floating around in the background of your head, without any substance to it. - Hot girls are also just a hollow thought. You'll never touch, and bask in the essence of that feeling you get when seeing a hot girl, because its a hollow thought, without substance Everything is just a hollow, empty, murky pot at the end of a rainbow. Nothing has substance really, the future is just an illusion, 'getting somewhere' is just imagination playing out from a yet, deeper illusion. What is there to truly do? What isn't a pot at the end of the rainbow? What keeps you on track towards obtaining some hollow, empty goal? What drives you?

@Shin it actually is bro, without theorizing. Go, earn money, see how much fulfillment it gives you. And it's not just with money, its with everything.

@Prabhaker so what keeps you motivated?

@Vaishnavi thanks! Great advice

I've been struggling for almost all of my life, to somehow motivate myself to study more, I've tried the sadona method, the wave method, various meditative methods, but no real luck. I recently had an insight, and realized that the reason why I can't push myself to study, is because my brain just isn't cut out to intellectualize at the same level everyone else's brain is. - I get confused very easily. - I make a lot of silly mistakes. - concepts seem fuzzy in my head. - there is pain and suffering whenever I think of something complex. - its boring. Like I'm very good at learning things that aren't in an educational setting, but I struggle to learn stuff for tests. Are there any ways to change this that you know of? Thanks guys!

@Prabhaker Osho sounds bitter in that excerpt

Anyone else finds being in the present as being genuinely peacful, relaxing and fun? I'm finding that I'm starting to really enjoy the present moment, and in a lot of cases, would prefer to just sit and do nothing instead of doing work. Though this is reducing the amount of work I can complete, and is reducing my work's quality. The present in a sense is distracting myself from doing the work I need to do around the house and also for work. Anyone got any insights on how to deal with this, thanks!

yes I have tried picture learning. My problem is my RAM isn't big enough hahaha. I.e. my temporary memory.@jjer94 does diet affect learning in your xp? My diet could be better. Its mainly vegan but I have 1 meal a day on average, and snacks inbetween.

@eputkonen I know but you can more easily get sucked into things while doing that, which is ultimately painful. Like doing hard calc homework while being present is hard as.

@username its hard to explain, my mind feels pain whenever it has to conceptualize. Its a weird issue haha. I tend to make mistakes because I'm not good at keeping concepts in my head for a period of time. if I try and add say 20 + 35, my brain will forget the 20 before I even attempt to add the 35 haha weird qualitative issues. You're second piece of advice was really helpful thanks!

@username yeah those are good sources, thanks dude, though unfortunately my situation is a little more complicated. Im already aware of Carl Newport, scott young's note taking techniques. Its when i do practice excersises, it takes me twice as long to do them, and it feels painful, i make a lot of mistakes, etc. My problem is that I'm a holistic thinker, and education is annoyingly not holistic. They just rip a piece of information out of no where and teach you the contents of that, rather than teaching how it interconnects with everything else. And education doesn't teach with a lot of example, they teach abstractly. Im not an abstract thinker, i learn by example.

@Shin bring your childhood teddy bear with you into the dark if you're afraid of the scawy boogie man coming after ya

@Leo Gura Wouldn't that mean not doing college though? Which is a blunder young ones make. @Shin thanks shin! I swear Koi has a video for just about every topic.

@LifeandDeath no i do notice regeneration quite distinctly. I think it is physiological rather than psychological

@username from my xp, conserving your sexual energy actually is important for energy work - but not to the extent that the east makes out. You don't need to conserve heaps of sexual energy, but if you want to really get into the flow of the Dao(the way) or if you want to maintain kundalini awakenings on a weekly basis, chances are, you're not going to be able to have sex with a random girl every night. There's a balance, you have to keep mindful of it. Retaining your sexual energy is unnecessary. There's a certain point where energy work plateaus, and retaining any more energy is pointless, but you do need to conserve it to a certain extent. The exact amount is up to you to discover, for me fapping at max 3 times a week, conserves just enough for maintaining energy related activities.

yes more about ego death. Basically from what I see, Kundalini meditation is what crazy, experience driven extroverts use to get to ego death. Kundalini awakenings are about relaxation, but its more about controlling energy. Not necessarily keeping your mind quiet. If you want that, go to zen buddhism not energy work haha. And sexual energy is where the energy comes from, but this whole thing where you have to ejaculate, from my experience, is just bs. Its not about shooting sperm out of your dick like a ray gun, its about destroying your worldview.

@username golden flower meditation my brain particularly resonates with daoism, just remember that you could be completely different.

@LifeandDeath It sounds to me, based on my kundalini awakenings, that you didn't go all the way/you didn't build up enough pelvic energy. After having a kundalini awakening, your whole worldview should shatter into pieces, you should go directly into a void like state, kind of like what I would imagine dmt being like. You got close, but you didn't open it up. Practice building up prana energy on command, so that you can feel those 'jolts' rushing up your legs, whenever you feel like it. Then you'll be able to kundalini on command. That's when the real work happens.

@EmilyCook26 The worst thing you can do, is feel bad about it. In the willpower instinct Kelly Mcgonigal said the number 1 reason why people cannot control their willpower, is because they feel bad about it. YIIKES! 1st step, try and let go of all of that guilt you have. Work on that for a few weeks, and then you'll be grounded and ready to start your pd journey. Baby Steps.

70% of the time. Things that bring me back to the present: my buddha wallpaper on my phone my buddha wallpaper on my laptop my alarm that goes off every hour with the text "be present now!" quotes from adyshanti, sadghuru, mooji etc on my facebook newsfeed

Do any of you sometimes experience situations where you mind somehow does a full circle, and falls all the way back into deep neurosis, the same level of neurosis that you were at, at the beginning of your actualization journey? For the last week I've been feeling deeply, deeply anxious, somehow my low self esteem has come back and slapped me across the face, and its almost like I've time traveled back 6 months, to when I was crazy. I don't really know what to do about this, its has sort of struck me off guard, but one thing I can say for certain, is that I'm feeling pretty frustrated, because all of the issues I thought I solved ages ago, have somehow revived themselves. What would you do in this situation?

@pluto I'm not sure why you're so certain that plant based foods are the healthiest. I've also studied this topic, and the conclusions are always a mixture is the healthiest. I posted an actual study, you posted what? An ancedote of your life? Hmm i wonder which one is more valid. Please dont spread misleading information the reason why human were able to evolve in the first place, was because we discovered how to burn things and eat meat. There is literally no other reason. @Socrates lol the first post is actual research done by mayo clinic, which is a well respected organisation. What have you put forward? Angry dictatorial, nazi style comments. Which one seems more likely to be true to me? Honestly its pretty fucken obvious that if you eat a vegan diet, that you risk not getting enough vitaminB12. Im actually a vegan myself who takes B12 supplements. But if you do only the slightest bit of research, you'll realize that having a mixed diet is the best. 80% plant based, 20% animal (particularly fish) based

@pluto https://www.google.com.au/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2016/03/160316194551.htm&ved=0ahUKEwjNsuOcpeXTAhXBUbwKHbCZCXAQFgivATAT&usg=AFQjCNEjQYmpyawTK7VSGht3MImQzoP8Bw&sig2=LiqwAW9d5izem-l_FgZu4w https://www.google.com.au/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://authoritynutrition.com/7-nutrients-you-cant-get-from-plants/&ved=0ahUKEwjNsuOcpeXTAhXBUbwKHbCZCXAQFgiyATAU&usg=AFQjCNF7m8bkCObROUM1FTjVR87rHUWelg&sig2=bbPAgOavfIq6gSk1RMWmaQ Being a vegan, is actually dangerous.

Why so? And which yoga ma dude, im currently doing wim hof's method, which is basically Pranayama yoga + tummo (inner fire meditation) and i do nidra yoga every night to fall asleep because i sleep sitting down and its uncomfortable. But it doesnt seem to be making my life less chaotic. @Dingus haha but it affects ya schoolwork. But yeah surrender is the most enjoyful way of dealing with it.