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@AstralProjection What is a measurement? You do realize centimeters and inches are mental constructs right?

Girls aren't robots, cloned and made by one company like a product is. They are all different. Most girls DO care about social status A LOT. For some, the only thing they look for is whether you have a $10000 watch on your wrist, and whether or not everyone loves you. Of course stuttering matters (Oh No! A random person on the internet just triggered my insecurity! I'm scared now!) But what matters more is whether or not you understand that being insecure about you stuttering is even more of a problem than your stuttering. Girls are trying to figure out if you're confident, not whether or not you stutter. You're not going to get through life by worrying about your insecurities. You get through life by accepting and pushing through them. Yes you will have to, ofc you will. I would suggest that you stop demonizing being social. There is nothing wrong with it. good. No pain no gain. How about you stop asking random neurotic people on this forum for figuring out what your intuition will give you for free. Even if we tell you, that you should look for girls now, will that stop you from being anxious about the situation? You've already asked this question on here... I've got some bad news for ya. You have a very bad case of what we call 'controlphobia' . No matter how well you plan out your life, your life isn't going to go the way you expect it. Sorry, but let go of that need for your life to go the way YOU want it, because it just isn't. You don't have control over it, and stop getting anxious over that fact. Regret is a bad emotion to have, but fearing regret is even worse. Stop fearing regret and just get a girl now. Everything else you do is just bickering with yourself, like an old couple.

If a screen can play everything, why can you only see one image at a time? You aren't everything. You have the potential to be everything

Do any of you guys feel really really lost in life? If so what do you guys tell yourself to keep yourself from feeling unlost. I have completely lost my sense of time. I understand what time is, but I don't feel it anymore. I can go to bed at 7 and wake up at 3am, because I literally do not care what time it is anymore, only for communication purposes with society. Also most of my desires I've had are almost gone. Not because I don't want them, but because they are all illusory. And this makes you feel so lost, because your desires were kind of your street signs to where you need to go. But now I've realized most of them are made up, like a prankster drew them to troll you. Or the incentive was illusory, like bad self esteem for example, which has nothing to do with the outside, but only the inside. I'm currently doing a degree in university, and I work part time, but my interest in uni is diminishing, because my degree, and work feels like a dream to me. I don't get how all of my classmates are so passionate about something so made up. I use to be the same though 2 years ago. I'm completely lost, im not sure what next steps to take. Every direction I point to, ends up leading you off the edge of reality, into a never ending space of holograms and emptiness. I want to aim for something, but I want to aim for something meaningful, something real, but I can't find anything that is. Enlightenment is pretty meaningful, but you can't do that 24/7. Any advice? EDIT: just to clarify, im not depressed, I am happy, but I'm not sure on how to deal with society, while being conscious.

I've been in personal development for a while. I've always had this airy fairy idea of PD. Something like you're a blank photograph, and PD is like the liquid that develops you. And I've been very proud of my developments in the past, all of the work I've put into myself to improve my being and character. But I've never questioned exactly how I've improved, or what exactly has been improved of myself. And what I came up with, after contemplating for 8 hours straight, is that PD is a total joke. All those lofty concepts, like becoming a better communicator, better at pickup, better at <put something else here> is all just ideas. Makes me laugh. Even if self development is real, and you do learn some real skills in it, what are these skills going to achieve for you? Honestly developing a new skill seems exactly like buying a car, or some other materialistic thing. Like what exactly are you guys investing in, when you say you're investing in yourself? Are they real? Or do they just sound cool to you, and you don't really know what it truly is. And what's the point anyway? From my perspective, which of course is probably totally stupid and inaccurate, but anyway, it seems to me that the only developments you can make to your well being only happen right NOW. But maybe I'm wrong, what exactly are you guys trying to work on? And Why? What is it going to do for you?

@AstralProjection If you were born right now, what would you know and not know? If you are completely honest with yourself, you would admit that you wouldn't know anything about the 'brain', 'time', 'space', 'birth', 'death'. and 1000000000000 other things too. You would just see a bunch of colours, sounds, feelings and sensations, and you wouldn't just assume that they came from senses, because you wouldn't know what senses are. To figure out what you know and don't know, pretend you decide to teleport to a totally different universe, different laws of physics, different consciousness workings, etc. If a computer screen makes up the game GTA, then a totally different universe to GTA would be space invaders. Pretend a dude from GTA goes to space invaders, that's what its like to go to a different universe. EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT. Now pretend that has happened to you, pretend that totally different universe, is the universe you're in. What is actually going on? Where are sounds coming from? Hint: not from your ears, that is total bullshit. The sound feels like its coming from space/awareness if you are completely honest, if you pretend you were born right now! But where? From this framework, Leo isn't getting crazy, he's just getting honest. Its crazy to think that death is real hahahahaha

@Will why don't you meditate while lucid dreaming? Or contemplate while astral projecting? It is a great way of exploring life. When you astral project don't do it for fun, do it for truth.

Not being able to find dmt and being ready are completely independent of each other. You can be ready and also want to message people to find dmt. Just because you live in an area that's easy to aquire dmt, doesnt mean others do. And reaching out to people is a perfectly normal way of trying to search for dmt. All you need to do is download a crypto messaging system and communicate over there. It actually means you are ready, otherwise you wouldnt be reaching out in the first place.

@Mike Bison awareness is consciousness looking at itself. Ask yourself "am I aware?" If the answer is yes, how do you know that EXISTENTIALLY like assume nothing at all except for what is empirically there. So saying because you have a brain is an assumption. Pretend the world is just a bunch of colours and sounds. If you answer honestly to how you know, you will get your answer. Hint, it involves consciousness. Why are we not aware of subconscious thoughts? Why doesn't a movie play every scene at the same time? And every sound at the same time? Because for it to be a movie, it needs to play one thing at a time. Why are you not aware of your subconscious thoughts? Because foe you to be aware, it must be possible to not be aware, which means you cannot be aware of everything at once. That would make being aware impossible

@hundreth I miscommunicated. Everything you say is correct. I mean the desires you dream won't existentially become a reality. Like say you get heaps of money, the reason you do that is so you can feel whole and complete, but that feeling will never come, because money is just an idea in our head, so that attribute is just imaginary. Same with a lot of things. Going to a good university for example, might be a desire, but what is a university? A building. What is a building? A set of planks of wood put in a certain way. What is that? Keep contemplating, and you get pure illusion. So the feel good vibes you get from going to a good university is just a dream. It's like a pot at the end of a rainbow. And it's not limited to just 2 things, its for everything. Good family, good house, even personal development is a pot at the end of the rainbow. Even yourself is just pure fiction to a certain extent. Yes I was one of those people who placed career higher than getting a good family, but ultimately everything I aimed for wasn't real, when I thought it was. Seems trivial to be so pedantic, but to those who did place so much importance on getting rewards from life, its a good caution. And some people need

@Nahm haha you don't owe me anything, you're always welcome to have my input , and my mean zen slappery wherever I can help. Funny you say that, because for the past 5 weeks I've been fixated on the idea of going out into the woods for a week, and just contemplating my life, its like im drawn to it like a magnet. Can't wait to do it after finals are finished. @hundreth thanks dude! Good advice. I need to get use to the fact that my desires will never become a reality... for real.

Thanks, needed that. I'm letting my realization that my desires are never going to fulfill me, get in the way of living happily. I wish you well in letting your true, perfect self flourish, and I look forward to growing with you in the future

Would you really though? Could you pay for that sexy camera, the black background, and all of those barber costs needed to make your head into a bowling ball if you didn't make 1000000 dollars from your zero sum game marketing business? And would you be mature enough to realize that money wasn't the answer, if you didn't try and get it in the first place? As @Huz wrote above, a lot of enlightened masters do real unspiritual businesses. Not saying its the most glorious way, and its definitely something I'm not attracted to/don't want to do, but isn't it practical?

@Afonso The entire world is hollow. Not just you...

Well... I think improving your social skills, and your sexy bed skills, is a little better than training up your thumb muscles, and your eye muscles... But that's just me. I've never done pickup, but if I didn't have a girlfriend, I would so do it. Its one of the greatest self improvement things you can do in your life.

Why not? You're out in nature, you don't have any society related obligations, you can just be yourself without having to fit into society. If I was Eckhart Tolle though, I would do it in a foresty area, because its more pretty.

@makedonche Why don't you just go for it with a random girl? I lost my virginity and had my first kiss at 20, when everyone else did it at 14. I just pretended that I was like everyone else, and when the girl noticed that the kiss and sex was awkward, I blamed it on the girl, literally. I told her "wow why are you so awkward?" And with enough conviction, you can get her to self doubt herself, and really think it is her that's making it awkward.

I think social anxiety is a direct consequence to cults like Western Civilization. Good video, thanks!

@Paintballer Astral projection is no less real than consensus reality. Why do you believe that consensus reality is more real than the astral realm? How do you know consensus reality isn't a hallucination and astral projections are reality? Do you see how your belief that consensus reality is more real than the astral realm, is just total bullshit? How are you acting any different to religious fundamentals who believe the earth is flat? I've astral projected, and its as plain as day to realize that the astral realm is no less real than consensus reality.

@Nicholas my shits look like the most shiny, sparkly masterpieces on the planet.

Sure but those challenges don't magically make you feel like being extroverted. I do those challenges too, as you can see I replied to that post you made. But what I realized is that social anxiety isn't cured by just doing. You can go to parties every weekend and still feel as socially anxious as you did when you were hibernating in a library all day. So just because you're enlightened doesn't mean you'll be able to do anything willfully? It's still possible to not feel like doing something? Where I'm confused is that I see enlightenment as curing all of your suffering, and so in my head it makes sense that you'll be able to do anything without any resistance. But I've had spiritual experiences, and the resistance is still there. So im confused with my concept of enlightenment.

@Annetta A nice rule of thumb Prabhaker told me for figuring out if you have a mental illness, is whether or not you'really open to having one. That's really the only way to tell.

@Azrael Can you be enlightened and still have fears like social anxiety? The suit metaphor resonates with experiences I've had, but I'm not sure if they were genuine.

@2000 1000000000 times easier than doing it after 25 yrs old.

@PetarKa Where were you before you were born? What? Do you actually think you just poofed out of no where one day? Does that really make sense? When did life begin? You already do live forever.