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Couple questions. I got to om japa in the kriyas but I dont really get it. What is this "ong" supposed to sound like? Is it supposed to be said at a certain frequency? does this frequency change as you up up and down the chakras. It says you'r only supposed to stay at each chakra for like 2 seconds but also talks about "feeling" these chakras. I don't feel anything from them and find myself just moreso conceptualizing their appearance and location. Additionally... have you guys ever found yourself just stalling? I had CRAZY deep experiences within my first couple weeks with this book, but within the past month, I've just been having no good results at all.. and by that I mean that I can't get any sort of depth to my meditation. I just sit there and can't get outta my head the whole time.

Thank you guys. You're right. I did go into this with the goal of radical results. I suppose I should have expected really radical shit to happen to me. I just didn't know that this kind of experience was possible without exogenous chemicals, so it was disturbingly shocking. I think I have a better understanding that unexpected things will happen. I've been kind of contemplating 'why so intense so quick?' and I think that might have been shown to me as kind of a taste of what's to come. I'm gonna keep after it.

Okay, so I've been following the Kriya Yoga book on the book list. A kinda scary thing happened to me the other night while I was meditating. I was focusing on medulla while my eyes were centered on brumaddhya. It was maybe my 4th time doing the meditation in a row like that, and maybe my 6th time meditating after doing the whole beginner kriya stuff (the alternate nostril breathing, the ujayi pranayama, and the tongue stretches). I got into a really deep meditation and I ACTUALLY lost feeling in my whole body. I also heard the OM sound change for the first time; it started to sound like I was listening into a seashell. At the same time, I kind of felt like I was floating, I felt like reality was vibrating really really hard, the OM sound was also sounding really vibratingish, and I felt like just EVERYTHING was vibrating. My heart also started to race. I felt cold and hot at the same time diffusely, (which was weird cuz I still couldn't feel my body). Anyway, everything kept getting more and more intense and it was quite shocking. It was actually pretty reminiscent of a N,N-DMT experience that I'd had before. Anyway, I felt like SOMETHING was about to happen. In my head I was like "am I about to have a kundalini awakening? Am I unlocking a chakra or something? Am I about to pass out or have a seizure? It was exciting, but very frightening at the same time. Anyway, I chickened out, I opened my eyes, unclasped my hands, and got out of half lotus. I was so perplexed by this experience that i started looking into kundalini awakenings and searching stuff online to see if I could find similar experiences. I found someone who said that they had a similar experience when they had a kundalini awakening, but then I found some people saying that Kundalini can LITERALLY kill you. Like not ego death. Literal death. Like cardiac arrest. This scared the hell out of me. So now I'm actually afraid to meditate. And that's shitty. I'm basically posting this to see if anyone else has had similar experiences, or if anyone can offer insight as to what might have been about to happen, or if anyone can give me some reassurance that I'm not going to actually die. I'm a healthy 24 year old male, and I know cardiac arrest is unlikely, but I've been frightened. Anyone wanna chime in? EDIT: Leo if you're reading this, I'd super appreciate a reply. I feel like you've said not to look to you as a guru before, but I'm 100% sure you're vastly more knowledgeable about this than I am, and I'd trust your insight more than a random person's on Reddit or some other online forum.