Sempiternity

I could imagine it being pretty hard to live in a cabinet. Seems like it would be a little claustrophobic. *sorry, couldn't resist.

@Leo Gura There are more than only these two choices. Another is for one to live off grid. Give up everything. Give up what one thinks is comfort. Give up friends and family. Give up dating and sex. Give up TV and internet. Give up what one thinks makes you happy. Find a place in the mountains, away from Man. Either have a bus home conversion, or build a makeshift home. Grow your own food. Be with just yourself. With nothing to do but go "hog-wild on spirituality". Focusing on financial freedom, is still slavery. You're still playing the game. Only way out of the game is to not play.

So if all there is is God. Reality is a Dream. God's dream. Humans are in God's dream and have zero free will. Then the dream that God is dreaming is of humans thinking they have Identities and Egos and lives. And you're God experiencing the dream.

Read a bunch of experiences here. https://erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_Ayahuasca.shtml Every bit of information you need here: https://erowid.org/chemicals/ayahuasca/ayahuasca.shtml Personally, I've done 3 day Ayahuasca retreats 3 times. Every time has been beautiful. Yet every time is slightly different. My body dissolves. Time dissolves. I become one with everything. There is infinite knowledge. I can ask myself anything and get a clear answer. Time is irrelevant. There is a deep sense of gratitude and loving bliss. Beyond some nausea at the start, there is nothing negative of the experience. I highly highly suggest doing a ceremony. It expanded my awareness and opened me up to following my spiritual path.

Surprised no one here is talking on the Fat Leo pic. Don't recognize him at all in the pic. Quite a feat to lose all that weight and keep it off. https://www.actualized.org/insights/fat-leo

Not at all a fan of his delivery (vampire super cheese), but he does 'get it'. Nice to see people from 'alternative' communities sharing nonduality knowledge. Thanks for sharing.

Just to be clear, the term 'fat' was Leos description, not mine. I'd never describe anyone as fat. It's a derogatory term.

I can speak from personal experience. When I was Orange, all I cared about was sex, admiration and possessions. When I moved into Green, I was about community and healthy relationships. I was a well known performer. Was part of dozens of communities. Went to dozens of festivals every year. As I moved into Yellow on my way to Turquoise, I felt a pull to let go of everything. I gave up all my communities, all my friends. I became celibate. I gave up the desires for sex and relationships. I didn't have any need or desire for anything outside of myself. Everything being the same, it doesn't matter to me if I'm sitting in my room alone or at a festival. It's all reality/consciousness. I prefer to be alone, as I don't have to live up to societal norms. I like to talk about enlightenment, but almost no one else does. Most think it's crazy talk. So I'm now content and happy being alone. In fact, I want to remove myself from society all together. I'm working towards living in the mountains alone, to be with nature, practice enlightenment, and just Be without the distractions of Man. And to me, that sounds perfect.

I did a report awhile back. 4 days. Day 1: 10mg rectally =nothing, followed immediately by another 12mg=still nothing. Day 2: 20mg rectally=no effect at all, followed immediately by another 12mg=still nothing. Day 3: 18-20mg nasally =no effect. Day 4: 22mg nasally =severe panic attack, nothing other than that. So to me the panic attack is the barrier I'm trying to get over. I know its the key to the kingdom, pot of gold, the answers to everything all that, but doesn't do a lot of good if I can't get there if I'm fighting a panic attack when it kicks in. As far as I can tell I have two choices. Either find a way to go into the 5-MeO calm and peaceful, hence the Ayahuasca idea, or just do 30-40mg and hopefully go under before a panic attack has a chance to come on.

Anyone have personal experience of doing Ayahuasca and 5-MeO together, one after the other? Or have researched knowledge of effects of doing both medicines on the same night? I'm curious if they are complimentary to each other. Also if one would intensify the effects of the other? And if so, could the intensifying be bad, as in overdose or blackout with normal doses of both? I'm wondering how 5-MeO could alter a Ayahuasca experience. And if Ayahuasca could be a good Segway into doing 5-MeO? As I find Ayahuasca to be peaceful and 5-MeO to be frightening. Wondering if trying 5-Meo just after, or even during a Ayahuasca trip might be a good way to smoothly transition into a 5-MeO trip, coming from that peaceful bliss. Or again, would the two add upon each other to the point of it being too much? Also, for those that have done both, how do the two compare? I feel like I've 'gone there' with Ayahuasca , but not yet with 5-Meo, so don't necessarily have the experience to compare. *Direct experience responses please, not just opinions.

Thank you @outlandish! Great info. The reason I even ask, is I'm am very experienced with Ayahuasca. I find it to be gentle and blissful. But I have a lot of fear around 5-Meo, to the point of I just can't surrender to it. Tried a couple of times. It's a full on panic attack. So thought maybe a good time to take 5-MeO is right after a Aya ceremony, so I'm going into it already in that blissed out space. So could be better equipped to surrender. I think I've decided to try it two days after my upcoming 3 day Aya ceremony. It'll be out of my system, so no worries of mixing anything. But I'll still be in a state of bliss, so might be a good space for doing 5-MeO.

Thank you for the opinion. I understand the jumping to 'combining two psychedelics is bad'. But I've done quite a bit of research and seems it's a common practice to do both. Just wanted to see if there was any here with personal experience with it, or anyone who has done more research on the subject.

@Paul92 God created itself. It's a paradox. Leo talks about this at great length in his videos.

'Source is a formless all-knowing entity'. Take out the part about 'us'. We are it. There is no us. There is only God.

@theking00 Yes you do. You have a whole world out there. If you really wanted to be free from your Ego, you'd travel to a country that has 5-Meo. But your Ego is going to tell you that's too hard, and you can't do that. Leo said in his 5-Meo video, that there is nothing more important to your life. If you have to spend every last penny you have, with no safety net for the future, then do it. There is nothing, not shelter, not sex, not relationships, not jobs, nothing is more important to your life.

I find it curious you all are just chatting away, talking about yourselves, when the man who started this thread is now dead, and none of you could care less. Sorry to interrupt, please go on talking about yourselves.

So ..... Sharp is dead now then? Hasn't been online since yesterday, and was quite adamant about suicide, so seems he went thru with it. Born in 1960, so a pretty good run of 59 years. I've seen many people on this forum thru the years say they are going to commit suicide. Wonder how many actually went thru with it. Never any way of knowing. Now 'Sharp' is God realized, so yay.

Man you guys like to start shit. I started a dialog to assess it's validity. It was written only two days ago. It takes research to confirm, which is what I'm doing.

He himself refuted this? You have a link to the video?

Interesting. Thanks for the alternative perspective.

I think we’re finally seeing that the idea of a guru is fundamentally flawed. That role of guru doesn’t fit actual enlightenment and putting oneself in that position leads to corruption through ego. Enlightenment should never be about personalities or following someone else’s lead. It’s not something that can be taught, so why consider yourself a teacher if not because of ego?

@Highest I understand it's extremely hard to convey Truth/Nonduality thu language, which is inherently dualistic, but the opinion about Atheists above is dualistic views. Do you as God realize that any Atheist you encounter is just a dream character you dreamed up? Thus they never are doing or have ever done anything, as they don't actually exist. Only you, God, are dictating their thoughts. And it's all happening only within your direct experience, in this moment only. Is this the way you understand things to be true? To me (because I have not had an Awakening yet, still believe I'm human and everything is material and dualistic) it's all just concepts, because I have not experienced God in my direct experience (I realize that once awake I may/will realize it always as been in my direct experience). Just out of curiosity, have you fully experienced/awakened to being God/ Infinity/ the creator of universe and all of reality/the Truth of Truths, or is your views and shared wisdoms beliefs based on teachings?

@korbes I actually did a thread on this about a month ago. Went fairly indepth of my plans, and hoped it would inspire others that want solitude to do the work, could maybe get inspired. I figure with a combination of freezer foods, a packed refrigerator, dried meats, jars of dried fruits, dozens of jars of nuts, quinoa, rice, protein powder shakes, and a combination of small portions and fasting, I will easily be able to be out in the wilderness for over a month at a time. Then just drive back down to the nearest town to replenish supplies, fill up on gas, charge the batteries, get water and so on.

Are you willing to end your life? Willing to give up everything? Willing to give up everything you like, love and cherish most in your life? True enlightenment is suicide. It takes balls to do that. If you think you can answer yes to these, then by all means, go for it! Me, I'm building a fully self-contained mobile home. With 1000W solar panels, 5000W inverter and a separate alternator. All so I can live up in the mountains, far away from all distractions, for weeks or months at a time, so I can fully dedicate to full nonduel enlightenment. Yes one can do it anywhere at any time, but for me, I need to space and quiet.

I'd also note that 5-Meo-DMT is a naturally occurring chemical already produced in the 'brain'. So to have a God experience, you're just taking more than normally produced. Your whole 'reality' is produced by various chemicals in your 'brain'.