Sempiternity

@4201 You're talking mathematics, the ultimate fundamental Truth, and you're name is 4201. 42, in the popular The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams, is the "Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything". 01 is One. So your name, numerically, means the answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything is 'One'. 42=01. Was this done intentionally?

One thing that doesn't make sense to me. Leo says that you want to be under, immersed in infinity for as long as possible, as the longer you're under the more you can explore the infinite depths of infinity/God. But when you are in the state of infinity/God there is no Time, so how long you're under should be irrelevant. Can anyone (with firsthand knowledge) explain this?

We are all imaginary. There is only one storyteller. One actor, endless number of characters played.

This is how I imagine some awakenings going. "So this is it, and I don't exist? I don't get it".

I'm a fan of Tyson. Mainly because he's such a likeably charming funny laid-back kinda guy. I've often wondered about his seemly search for truths of how the universe works. Is he just ignorant of how the universe really works (God), having science as the only thing he knows? Or is his undying search for truth really a self delusion, as his Ego is dependent upon his knowledge of science? And to learn real Truth would mean the possibility that everything he's dedicated his life to could be wrong, and that's just not something he would want to consider or face? I've always wanted to actually ask him this and see what his response would be. My guess is that his fame, money and attention he gets from his views are much more valuable to him, than real truth is.

I vividly remember seeing the opening of Star Was a New Hope in 1977 with my parents and grandparents. I was 2 years old.

Have you read every book on the booklist?

Speaking as someone whom had one of the nightmare hellish experiences of which you speak, the key is consistency and building habit. Do practices every day, be it meditation, kriya yoga, or even low dose psychedelics. Doing a little of a practice every day will make it not so scary, as you slowly start to build proficiency. Don't jump in the deep end (like I did), be patent and do a little each day, and eventually you will reach a level that produces a breakthrough experience, and you'll be ready for it because you put the work in to be ready to handle it.

Amazing description and visualization of what a full 5-MEO experience is like.

5-MEO-DMT Bufo AlvariusTrip Report ROA: Smoking Dosage: 93 mgs After many months of failed attempts at experimenting with plugging 5-MeO at home. And many more months trying to find a professional facilitator close to me, and many more months getting our schedules to align, I finally got to do my very first Bufo 5-MeO ceremony this weekend. He was decades experienced, and had me stay at his home, where we did the ceremony. As it was raining up at the property up in the mountains where he usually holds the ceremonies. I was pretty calm leading up to the ceremony, until he said it was time. There were 3 of us there for ceremony. He would take us up to a room one at a time, for about an hour each. We debated who would go first, I requested I go first, as waiting and listening to what happened for someone else, would just make me more nervous. As it finally came time, I was really nervous. Him and his female partner sat with me in a circle and did deep breathing with me until I was calm and ready. He asked me if I wanted to start out with a low dose, or jump right into a high dose. I told him I am prone to panic attacks when I have time to resist the effects. So he suggested a high dose. I didn’t ask or want to know what he loaded. He later afterwards told me it was 93mgs. Not sure how much that translates to synthetic 5-MeO dosage. He explained to me how it was going to work. He would hold the pipe. I was to slowly draw in, until my lungs were full, as he counted to 10. Then as I lay back he would count back from 10, as I hold it in. I never made it to the pillow, and I only heard the count of 8 before I was gone. It is hard to describe what came next. It was indescribable unimaginable pure nightmarish Terror. There was no concept of who I was or what anything was. I was obliterated. But at the same time my ‘soul’ was being ripped apart in an endless cycle, over and over. There was zero possibility of resistance or surrender, it just was what it was and far too powerful to try to control. It was pure torture. Even though I was gone, I could tell I was screaming the loudest high pitch scream possible. This seemed like it lasted for only a few seconds. Coming back, I didn’t know who I was, where I was, who the people in the room were, for about a minute. Then I came to pretty fast, within another minute. There was an instant feeling of sadness. I knew right away that the ceremony was a failure. No experience being God, no infinity, no experiencing infinite realities, no insights into the nature of reality, no death (at least I don’t think, unless death is endless torture), no infinite love, no bliss, no insights, no epiphanies, no alleviation of suffering/depression/anxiety. I started to cry as all of it was for nothing. I felt exactly the same as I did before the trip. The facilitators told me I had been screaming for many minutes. Then was saying “Oh Shit!!!” over and over again as I crawled around the room thrashing about. They asked me if I wanted to do another dose, I said no. This was traumatizing enough, wouldn’t want to go through that again, even if there was a chance of a blissful God breakthrough. I was perfectly normal and fine within a few more minutes. They offered for me to go into a dark room to process, but I said that was unnecessary. I popped downstairs, and cheerfully said “hey guys!”. The two guys waiting for their turn looked traumatized. They said they wished they had gone first now, as they heard all the screaming and it made them all that much more nervous to go next. I felt bad about that. They asked me how it went for me, and I told them I would tell them later, as I didn't want to influence their journey. All in all, it felt like the trip had never even really happened. There was a few seconds of infinite torture and unimaginable terror, then nothing. So my trip only seemed to last a few seconds. I thought, if I knew nothing about Nonduality teachings, what was possible, or anything about 5-MeO, and a friend just invited me to participate in the ceremony, I probably would have angrily bitched him out for the horrible experience, with zero benefits (other than the awesome people who I shared it with). Oh well, I guess I have to get even more serious about my spiritual journey and try try try again. I’m not sharing this to discourage anyone. I’m not even discouraged. From what I hear, every trip can be different.

@Sussso Actually that is really good description. That's exactly what it felt like.

@Arthur Thank you, this makes me feel much better about the whole thing, knowing you had a similar experience, and had your breakthrough soon after. That actually makes sense to me, as that was how it was for me with Ayahuasca. The first time I did it, it no effect at all. It was like a had to for a relationship and bond with the medicine for it to work. Thanks for the insight. As Leo said, I'm going to forgo the smoking for a long while and continue to play with plugging, till I can get to the dose that finally breakthrough.

I've got years of experience with mushrooms, LSD, and about everything else, but I would not consider myself 'experienced'. Leo, any insight into the nightmarish terror? I'm sure it was my ego fighting. But I had no chance to surrender, it was instant.

Oh I'm perfectly fine. No different than before. Thanks tho. If anything this amped up my spiritual journey. I'm going to experiment with more psychedelics. Maybe one will work better for me. And I will continue to work with 5-MeO, just lower doses, and continue with plugging till I have a breakthrough.

Oh and something I had never heard from anyone before. After the ceremony, you taste and smell toad everywhere! I’ve had at least a dozen instances in the last 24 hours of smelling and tasting the distinctive Toad.

Maybe ask her if she wants to sleep with other men (or women). If she does, maybe you can both look in to polyamory. It takes a high level maturity, knowing yourself, knowing your partner's comfort boundaries, and a high level of communication and negotiation. You both have to completely transcend all jealousy and ownership issues. It's not easy, but once you get in to it, and you see it working for the both of you, it's having your cake and eating it too. So if you can be ok with her having sex with others, this may be an option. I've done poly most of my adult life, and it can be wonderful. Orgy parties are quite fun, as well as sharing sex with all your friends.

There is also the saying "those in power make the rules".

Maybe, but what does it matter if the rule of law is out the window? They can do whatever they want after this. Who says there will be voting to vote them out? They've been systemically dismantling the system to stay in power, and they're not going to give it up this time, no matter what.

But the Senate is controlled by the Republicans majority, and every single one of them has said openly that they will vote against impeachment. Just a couple days ago, Mitch McConnel said he wants to get it over with as soon as possible. So Trump will NOT get Impeached and will get away with all of his crimes. This is like the mob boss paying off the judge. Trump will then have free reign to literally do whatever he wants with ZERO consequences. You think things were bad before, just wait. He can soon literally kill people and no one can stop him (as he himself has said). Forget about elections, those too will be a thing of the past. He will be dictator for life (as he himself has said he wants). And to make things even worse, the Republicans, through false alternative narratives, and propaganda like Fox News, have convinced half the country that this would be a good thing if all this goes down that way. To quote Star Wars "This is how Democracy dies, with thunderous applause".

https://www.actualized.org/insights/zizek-on-our-current-political-situation I found this post funny. Leo says "Great essay by Zizek. He has a excellent nose for sniffing out hidden mechanisms of devilry and bullshit." I found this a hilarious choice of words, as this guy is very obviously a coke head. Just look at his sniffing and manic mannerisms. Could be something else, but he seems like Coke-head 101. Sorry for being judgy, but I would have a hard time taking anything he says serious.

Geneticists say they will soon be able to reverse aging. Soon we could be able to stop cell derogation to the point where humans will potentially, baring accident or murder, will be able to live indefinitely. Add to that the possibilities of being able to load ones identity into an AI and be able to live as that individual identity forever. Not saying either of these options are truly a possibility. But if they were, how does that work with being God? If a human lived forever, and they never realized they were God, is that an issue for God being in a perpetual state of ignorance of itself?

Yes sure, but this does nothing to the conversation.

I was thinking about ideally how I'd want to live out my remaining years. Ideally I'd want to live in a commune of sorts, where we live as a tight community in peace and harmony. But, it seems like most communes fail. My guess is communes cannot really work in Green/Orange/Blue. Egos always get in the way. Although, if a group of people started a remote town/commune and had a strict requirements that anyone wanting to live there had to be Yellow/Turquoise stage of development, one could hypothesize that that community could circumvent all the previous issues with communes, because everyone there would have either transcended their Ego, or has such high awareness that they have complete control over the story they create for their lives and only create joy and love for themselves and everyone in the commune. So this commune could have a chance at being utopia with all inhabitance being Yellow/Turquoise. Does anyone know of a commune like this anywhere in the world?

I was thinking such a community could have a committee that would evaluate a potential townsperson through a extensive series of questions and tests to determine if someone was the right fit for their chosen standard. A vetting process.

The higher my consciousness/awareness raises, the more my past disappears. I find myself mostly completely in present moment, with no past. I can recall fragments here and there, the gist of the overall narrative, but for the most part it's gone.