Sempiternity

Ayahuasca is amazing!! Not always a way to a full awakening, but extremely invaluable nonetheless. Most practitioners I've dealt with have volunteers that help with the ceremonies, that partake in the plant medicine without cost. My advice is to travel to a trusted practitioner, and stay with them for awhile volunteering, doing whatever needs to be done. They will take care of you and make sure you get what you need.

Someone plugged DMT into their computer once, didn't turn out too well.

It's all hinging on your dedication. If you felt like your life depended on it, you'd do anything to get what you needed. You'd travel to another country, one where the psychedelic was say legal. You'd get in with groups. Talk to people, meet new friends in the know. You'd follow every lead, every clue that leads you to what you need. If you are fully dedicated, you will find a way.

Maybe God (you) designed this whole dream world just for you to triumph and overcome your fear to reunite with pure love/infinity. Watch Leo's How Fear Works - The Ultimate Guide To Dealing With Fear. There's some great advice on how to deal with your fear.

It's God. You too can experience this. Take 20mg of 5-MEO and you will die and experience the light.

That's exactly what an imagined character in ones dream would say.

I'm a fan, and I think no not even close. Solid Orange. Driven by money and desires (mostly sexual).

No one can explain this to you, you can only know through direct experience. Anything you're thinking it could be, is not even in the ballpark.

You talking these?

The 1986 movie 'Highlander'. The main character is immortal. He is battling the Kurgan. The Kurgan represents the Highlander's Ego. It's large, dark, destructive, selfish, and likes to indulge in baser animalistic desires. Once he kills his Ego (the Kurgan), he instantly experiences 'The Prize'. He says, while experiencing the Prize "I know everything!", I am everything!". The Prize is full Nondual Enlightenment.

Pretty sure Jed McKenna is Nonfiction. Martin Ball has some awesome Sci-Fi Nonduality novels. Check out his website.

I write Nonduality based fiction short stories. Got about 18 so far. Want to compile them into a book of short stories with Nonduality as the connecting theme.

My best friend is severe bipolar. He is manic more often than not. I wish he was more into enlightenment. I wish I could tell him that if he was to awaken that everything he is is imagined by god (himself), maybe he'd realize that his mania and bipolar are too imagined. Maybe there is another way of being and some peace on the other side.

How bad you want it? You willing to risk it all? Every one of us is risking huge to fully awaken. It's a matter of the benefit outweighing the risk. In this case, you stand to gain everything.

Also, if the person who's done more 5-MEO than most anyone in the world isn't enlightened, what hope does anyone have of enlightenment?

My suggestion, go to some local Green festivals, like Burning Man festival events. Based on your profile you're in Nevada. Not only is Burning Man itself in Nevada, but there are many regional events (link to events below). I guarantee you'd propel strait into Green at one of these events. People are loving and welcoming. Get in with a fun group, do some psychedelics with them, go off on adventures, see some art and performances, maybe even hook up with some hippy guy/chick. These types of events are extremely inspirational and life-changing. If Green is what you want, this is 100% the best way I can think of to get there. Challenge yourself and step outside your comfort, and you will be greatly rewarded. https://regionals.burningman.org/regionals/north-america/las-vegas/ https://regionals.burningman.org/?s=Nevada

Why? If you truly fully realize that you are God and death is imaginary and meaningless, then a gun and bullet to your head would be no more terrifying than waking from a dream. Practice by dying. People can take 5-MEO (or other methods) and experience death. Then you know the truest Truth and there is no more doubt or confusion.

Teachers/people/perspectives, it's you leaving breadcrumbs/clues for yourself back to yourself (God/everything/infinite love). But can also be yourself (Ego) keeping yourself asleep. Listen to what guides you to Truth.

Depends what you consider pants. I'm more of a sweatpants person. Jeans or dress slacks= never.

Don't assume what I mean

Well, assume that Nonduality is True, and that you (God) is all there is. Everything that happens within consciousness (You) is all your imagination. That means 'enlightened teachers' and how they are or are not enlightened is also all imagination. Only one that can become Awakened is you.

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Imagine when you realize you never had a childhood, and that you are never going to die.

In 2004 I was camping in the deserts of Eastern Washington with my GF. Clear skys, all the stars were out. We saw about six UFOs in the sky throughout the night. Erratic movements. Sometimes they would stay still for 10-15 minutes, then would shoot across they sky in a second. We spent all night watching them. The next day in the local paper there was a story about others seeing them too.

Good point.