Franz

No offense Aleks, but you dont have to state the obvious. I watched a couple of his videos with a very open mind (Which I have. E.g, I read the "Book of Ra" and liked it). My most honest and heart-felt intuition says: This guy is a thousand red flags. Look into his eyes, there is zero kindness in his gaze, more of a zen-devil style creepiness. He may have a lot of spiritual wisdom, no doubt, but I'd still avoid him like the plague. Also, he is literally selling snake oil https://www.etsy.com/de/listing/242416605/galactivation-energy-oil?ref=shop_home_active_4 and whatever this is (only 1902,62 €!). Guess you bought that shit? https://www.etsy.com/de/listing/256641055/ra-zelle?ref=shop_home_active_8 Please dont take this as hate, I almost didnt post anything at all, but its concerning to see people idealizing spriritual egos.

This. Right now, you are only looking for people with the same bloated spiritual ego. After a while, you will find ways to evoke deep conversation with anyone you want. Everyone has a most interesting story to tell, from a perspective only they possess, you just have to make them talk (... in a gentle way) and listen carefully. Maybe translate the words they use into something you can work better with. Have fun man

Hi there! I know the energy you are talking about since I was like 13 years old. I may willingly acivate those spikes by flexing my pelvic floor muscle in a certain way. Back then, I just liked the feeling of it, and never thought of it as a big deal. As practice, you may try to activate this energy on purpose and channel the energy for a couple of seconds.You can do this while meditating. After a while, you may redirect your whole bodies energy towards your head and achieve a mini "brain-orgasm" . This includes your head feeling like it will explode and seeing "the light", a blissful experience, very relaxing and spiritually activating. I am not a theory guy, so who knows if it is "kundalini" energy. And no, it wont make you self-realized or enlightened, the effects (if there are any) are too subtle. I would still say it generally put me on the path of seeking in the long run. much love man, keep your head up

Welcome back! Yes, my state of mind and enhanced awareness is still the same as after the trip, but No, its nowhere near anything I would consider an ongoing non-dual experience. Leo is totally right, this is still the early beginning. But even a glimpse of the divine beauty is able to transform you. I called this report "my search is over" because all the searching I have done so far was, mostly, unconscious mental masturbation. Writing this text still is, and I have to constantly remind myself to never go full ego mode ever again. Which is a bit easier after you have looked behind the curtain: Party is over, egoic little me I am totally aware that the same thing might happen again, and I will probably be ashamed of this thread in a couple of months/years/random_time_illusion_scale. But we are getting closer man, and its awesome I (or my new spiritual ego, who knows) feel like Neo after the first Matrix Movie. A small victory, but the "enemy" has shown weakness and is not undefeatable. Brain slave no more. Take everything I say with a grain of salt. Taking things dead-serious is a huge trap (maybe because death isnt that serious?). Much love

Agreed man, I get it. Much love.

Yep At the end, you realize that what you believed to be "you" is in fact the bad guy!. Everything you are afraid of was created by yourself. Let the cause of it go, and the outside manifestation will disappear. You cant safe anyone if you cant safe yourself, always look inside for answers. Also, most well-written fiction is a great source of wisdom: Fear IS the path to the dark side. And it does not matter how you personally define "dark side", it still works: The irrational fear of death runs our whole society. Getting angry at the world is being angry at yourself. Dont resist the current experience. Thats why Jesus turned the other cheek. Never become bitter, even if you are presented with very good reasons. But hey, I am preaching again. Probably an ego thing . Remember, I am working within my limitations, using words lightly. I am not speaking the ultimate Truth, how could I. But I will consider my life successful if I can manage to reduce the suffering of only a single being. "Whoever destroys a soul, it is considered as if he destroyed an entire world. And whoever saves a life, it is considered as if he saved an entire world" (Talmud)

Thanks man, this is a very good way to put it. Dont be jealous, your way might look very different from my own. Just listen to that silent voice, calling you to search for "something" (even though its nothing). Another "fun fact" I clearly remember saying to my Girlfriend at the very peak of the experience: Every word that I (and thats you, too) say is a compromise! The whole system of language is flawed beyond belief, you are playing the "devils game" as soon as you open your mouth. And thats ok! Just dont get hung up on anything someone is saying. Look into someones eyes, willingly accept their flaws, and give them a hug. Thats "truer" and more honest than any word you might say.

Sure thing. Daily Meditation and contemplation, mostly. Also, my lower Dose Trips every 2-4 Weeks were spent in Meditation and goal-setting, lasting 4-6 hours. I was consistent but didnt beat myself up if I missed a day here and there, being busy with University and stuff.

You are most welcome. About your "guilt": dont beat yourself up, or think that I am someone special now, or more advanced. I just had the genuine desire to know these things, and eventually the answer came to me, in weirder ways than i expected. Your time will come! Much love Thanks man, I really appreciate it. About my GF... well, we have never been closer than now.

I have nothing to defend, and I am not going to argue. Thats a belief about the nature of being. Who told you its true?

I want to give you the best answer I can come up with: Evil arisis out of duality, which again is a form of resistance (Just imagine your skin, resisting the outside world). The collective awareness split itself to create a feeling of human duality. The individual awareness forgot where it came from and got caught up in being seperated. Seperation implies: I know what can hurt me, so I know what can hurt YOU - that is the birth of Evil. The Evil is out there in everyone including you, because you know how to hurt others. You do not have to act it out. It will disappear when duality is over, if it ever will. Our current life would not work or make sense without duality, maybe we will transcend it somewhere down the road. My guess: If every single individual realises its core nature, the illusion of seperation will vanish. We may evolve into something completely different. How do I know that stuff? Just experiencing Non-Duality. There is nothing evil there.

Hello there. You are spot on, you will not surrender without a serious fight. All those objections came up for me too, because it sure as hell does not feel like you are surrendering to something good! But if you do, you will see through your own illusion, which is the ego! It lies to you in various ways, told me I will 100% end up insane if I give in, never be the person I was, or will be an outcast for the rest of my life. And it all felt super convincing.

@Nahm Your are one of the very few voices on this forum that do not join the conceptualization circle-jerk.

The sheer memory of the experience I am about to share still makes my body shake (No BS). Writing this text seems almost impossible, but Iam trying my best, out of gratefulness. After a series of minor mushroom trips in the 3-6 gram range during the last months, I felt ready for the final breakthrough, or ego-death, the ultimate surrendering. For everyones safety, I will not go into details about the exact dose which did the trick for me, but it was A LOT. The experience still caught me off-guard, but I made my way through hell ( this is not an allegory), also thanks to a beautiful person, my dear tripsitter aka GF, who stood by my side until the job was done. Eternal gratefulness towards her soul. After fighting "chaos dragons" (most accurate description I can come up with) for two hours, which felt like eternity, I was finally weak enough to give up my life. Dont get me wrong, this was not some "bad trip" kinda stuff, I literally had to face the fact that everything I ever did, loved or thought to be is, ultimately, a lie. Thats the nasty face of surrendering for you! I did the most counter-intuitive thing and willingly accepted defeat, death and insanity. Dont underestimate the hardship of letting EVERYTHING go, its terror. Then, for a split-second, I accessed the "collective consciousness", "god-mind", or whatever you want to call it. Franz was gone, I was still there. Instant realization of my own nature, which is love (cliche much? because its true, my friends). This stage has to be experienced! My words here are silly and will only evoke concepts in your mind. The beauty is beyond anything you can imagine. It is heartbreaking, purifying, and humbling in the most glorious way. I spoke the Truth (in any imaginable way, capital fucking T) to my girlfriend for a few minutes. She was barely able to follow me at all, which is fine, but she got the general idea, and cried tears of joy just like I did. BTW, I did not feel any difference between me and her. Slowly, I morphed back into human mind and form, not without some treasures nobody can buy. My state of mind after the experience is nothing short of perfect. I am still the same guy as a person, but my mind is silenced to a large degree. I can finally see the world for what its always been. Awareness is through the roof, video games are not engaging anymore (lol). Distinguishing between genuine life goals and egoic desires is easier than ever, and there is much work left to do. Self- realization opens the door towards the actual work. Some one-liners that inspired and actually helped me: Enlightenment is just a word, a concept. Dont pay too much attention to it, you ultimately have to let it go Love (surrendering) truly IS stronger than hate (resistance) Everything is based on the eternal conflict between resistance and surrendering There is great power in non-resistance. Most people would consider this a weakness, though If you hear the call, accept it You are never alone, and never unloved Everything is just a game, and death is not real (you still treat it differently, which is fine) Duality and death is a necessary lie (for now...) The ego is here for friendly competition, you can work with it, not against it Follow your best intuition, never become consumed by things YOU FEEL are wrong If you encounter malevolence and"evil", be its last host. You have the power to let it go, and it will disappear You will encounter WHATEVER you TRULY want to encounter in life Life is LITERALLY a reflection of yourself. Dont underestimate this This is a love-letter towards LIFE and TRUTH. Dont waste your existence, I beg you. It will all come together just fine in the end (spoiler - there is no end). Your most humble servant, Franz

As a shrooms user, this post sounded very familiar. But honestly, I dont see much use in talking or writing like that, Its like describing a painting to a blind person. One Line caught my eye: "Meditation? lol" Thats what I feel like since a couple of months. There is no real need to keep on actively meditating at a certain point. I still do sittings here and there, but most of the time, I go into a meditative state during everyday activities anyway.